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Feeling completely overwhelmed, I keep screaming into a pillow

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glassdo · 15/09/2024 13:54

Please be kind. I don't know what's wrong with me today. I'm so fucking fed up of mum life.

My kids are two and four and it's so relentless.

I think I must just be so unhappy to be so happy overwhelmed.

Especially my two year old just doesn't fucking listen to a word I say. I can't even get him to eat anything. All he does is cry, scream and have tantrums if he doesn't get exactly what he wants.

I'm so angry today. I'm angry. It's another Sunday alone with the kids. It's been another week, dealing with my kids basically alone because my husband works away a fair amount. I'm angry because they don't listen to me ( especially the little one ). I'm angry because I work so fucking hard to keep my house tidy and clean and all they do all day is mess it up.

I am so angry because I feel like everyone thinks I'm a joke and a mess of a human and they can do it better than me. By everyone I mean my in laws, my parents and even my husband. I think he thinks I'm just a bit shit. He has no idea how much it takes for me to keep the house in the condition it's in.

I can't take it. I just want my kids to listen to me. I can't take it anymore

I'm absolutely fuming today.

OP posts:
Newname71 · 15/09/2024 15:20

glassdo · 15/09/2024 14:36

I don't know, I just feel more comfortable if he's had a meal- rather than just milk, or chocolate and a banana.

I'm trying to them that they get snacks and desert type things after they have a meal and not around the clock. Maybe I should relax about it but my husband gives me a hard time and so does my mum / anyone who's seen this happen

I’m sorry but bollocks to your husband and your mum!! They’re not dealing with it alone. 24/7. If he wants a banana, give him a banana, it’s no biggie that he’s not eating a proper meal from time to time.
My youngest was an absolute twat when he was younger, I won’t lie, he had far more screen time than he should have done but it was the only way to get some peace!! He’s 17 now and is an absolute diamond. He’s kind, thoughtful and very loving. If he has a £1 left he buys me maltesers (my favourites) he randomly messaged me to tell me how great I am and how much he loves me. ❤️
Also lower your standards on the housework, I was always OTT on wanting a tidy house, it took me way too long to realise that it can always be done another day and my time was better spent having fun with the kids

RosesAndHellebores · 15/09/2024 15:21

Crikey @glassdo

Mine are grown up now but my DS was extremely headstrong and active and also an escapologist and worked out the childproof locks in minutes, probably lying at less than two. He was also the perfect child at nursery.

A teacher told me once that the children who were good at nursery or school could save up naughtiness for home because it was their safe space and indicated good not poor parenting.

Locks: I had to fit two to every door and cupboard - he wasn't dexteous enough to release both at the same time. He also once undid his car seat buckle on the M25 and clambered over the back of the car. I made a cover with buttons to wrap round it, ditto the pram.

Park: any misbehaviour and he was manhandled straight back into the buggy with a knee holding him in whilst I sorted the straps. He could tantrum as much as he liked.

Toys: I have been slated on here for this, but they were allowed two toys out at a time and if they wanted another one, something else had to be nicely put away first. I could not stand a chaotic house and also they didn't have tons of them.

Mealtimes: at the table and only at the table, no food anywhere else - ever. Also simple meals - cheese cube, bit of ham cherry Tom's, bread sticks. If not eaten after 10 minutes, clear it away. Mealtime is over.

Treats: again I've been slated for this but if they were good, after tea they were allowed to chose four sweets from the sweetie jar (little ones) and eat them watching TV. If they hadn't been good, there was something small to take away and I was ruthless with this. Then it was tidy up time and bathtime.

7pm to 9pm were quiet time (they didn't need much sleep and it was easier to put them to bed later to ensure an unbroken night). It also meant they were awake to see daddy who was rarely home before 9pm and often later. They never slept beyond 6.30, usually up earlier, otherwise this might have been a problem.

I also had a dh who was a workaholic, worked all hours and often away. I had a three year gap though so never did yards as hard as yours.

DS in particular was very full on and needed exercising rather like a young labrador.

Don't sweat the small stuff: the pencil sharpening doesn't matter and there's no point reasoning.

Try and make sure you get some me time - I'd also say my life was it's very hardest when I worked part-time trying to be all things to all people at all times and do work and home to perfection.

This too shall pass. They will grow up. My DH was never going to be hands on and I accepted that. I also accepted the privileges that came later: the beautiful house, the private schools, etc.

If it's any consolation, two energetic, strong-willed children who could be stubborn and brattish and non stop to such an extent that some nights my mouth was tired from talking to them, answering questions and telling them off and directing would be tired, each brought me home a first: one from Oxford and the other from Cambridge.

nc43214321 · 15/09/2024 15:23

All sounds normal too me. I just have one really great friend who was off on maternity similar time to me and we both work part time to fit in with our children, we get each other through all these different/ difficult/ Wtf phases. Used to met with the kids once a week. Now the kids are off school age we try and still met up once a week to get out all our frustrations.
Sometime it's just good to have someone to listen to you and validate your feelings. Do you have someone like this?

MultiplaLight · 15/09/2024 15:24

Monkeysatonthewall · 15/09/2024 15:17

It literally doesn't matter what this poster thinks. She doesn't know your child and hasn't been around him. Also, people on MN love jumping to the worst conclusions.

You don't need to stress yourself further so please don't let this get into your head.

Lots of the strategies for parenting children with asd or adhd are also very useful for NT children. Some of the descriptions of behaviour from the OP could be due to asd or adhd, or they could be just a very high needs child. Whichever is true, the strategies will help.

Reducing the demand on a child, whilst being aware of potential triggers, alongside firm boundaries for safety, will help.

GladBluePigeon · 15/09/2024 15:25

A teacher told me once that the children who were good at nursery or school could save up naughtiness for home because it was their safe space and indicated good not poor parenting.

I often say this to parents. It’s clear that they feel so safe with that parents that they feel they can let it all out. But, of course bounderies are important.

letmego24 · 15/09/2024 15:25

You are playing a role as a parent. Separate out some of the emotion. Keep to a schedule, behave appropriately and smile and nod. Early bed time if possible.

Lourdes12 · 15/09/2024 15:25

glassdo · 15/09/2024 14:11

He'll get out. He's physically very able.

He gets into everything. He gets out of everything.

I'm going to throw/give all their toys away and keep 5 things for each. I'm so done living like this.

Having less stuff defo helps with high energy kids. I just let my mine play softplay in the living room with all the sofa cushions. Much more fun for them than playing with toys. Just tire him out physically so he doesn't have the energy for tantrums

nc43214321 · 15/09/2024 15:26

nc43214321 · 15/09/2024 15:23

All sounds normal too me. I just have one really great friend who was off on maternity similar time to me and we both work part time to fit in with our children, we get each other through all these different/ difficult/ Wtf phases. Used to met with the kids once a week. Now the kids are off school age we try and still met up once a week to get out all our frustrations.
Sometime it's just good to have someone to listen to you and validate your feelings. Do you have someone like this?

lol just reading that back, think we've saved ourselves a fortune on therapy 🤣

Monkeysatonthewall · 15/09/2024 15:28

MultiplaLight · 15/09/2024 15:24

Lots of the strategies for parenting children with asd or adhd are also very useful for NT children. Some of the descriptions of behaviour from the OP could be due to asd or adhd, or they could be just a very high needs child. Whichever is true, the strategies will help.

Reducing the demand on a child, whilst being aware of potential triggers, alongside firm boundaries for safety, will help.

You should've explained it in the message OP quoted instead of asking if additional needs were mentioned by nursery and saying she better starts reading about them without giving any context.

It's just not okay to do this to someone who's clearly having hard time and doesn't need another worry.

peachesarenom · 15/09/2024 15:28

It is relentless! You're right!

Expectations are part of the problem here, I don't know many 2 year olds who 'listen'.

The bigger problem is practical support. I'm sorry your husband and in-laws are quick with the judgement and slow with practical support.

Are you able to hire a 'mother's help'? That would be a dream come true for me! I never wanted a nanny but would love a 'mother's help'!

JMSA · 15/09/2024 15:28

Sounds so very hard, OP. I'm sorry Flowers

GladBluePigeon · 15/09/2024 15:28

Lourdes12 · 15/09/2024 15:25

Having less stuff defo helps with high energy kids. I just let my mine play softplay in the living room with all the sofa cushions. Much more fun for them than playing with toys. Just tire him out physically so he doesn't have the energy for tantrums

But some will always have energy for tantrums. It’s not just the physical tire him
out that is important, it can just as well be letting the brain work, like doing jig saws or other challenges..

Fluffyhoglets · 15/09/2024 15:29

My DS was hard work at that age and I only had him to deal with as had a 3.5 Yr gap before I had another (partly because of how difficult I found parenting a 2 year year old!).
I found it easier to stay in and going out was NEVER easier - on my own or with other people - and if I did go out it would be to a confined environment like soft play or a playgroup! DS was a runner too and people don't get it if they don't have one!
Let him eat the banana and put the towel down for TV snacks.
And tell your DH to either be here more accept how you cope.
And tell family to either help more or keep opinions on how you cope to themselves!

Choochoo21 · 15/09/2024 15:30

So you work and your DH works away?

You have 2 very young kids and so of course you’re going to be overwhelmed!

Could you hire a cleaner or babysitter just to give you a hand?

Your DH is either going to have to be home more or pay for help.

You are acting like a single parent when you shouldn’t be.

Is your DH home on weekends?

This will get easier, especially now the eldest is in school.

I was a single parent working FT and my DD has ADHD.
Its not a solution but what helped was having baby gates, locking doors and having rooms that were completely child friendly (I never had ornaments or anything).
The rooms just had toys, paper and colouring pencils and books etc.
It just allows you to not be so mentally on high alert if you know they can’t come to too much harm.

Try not to care what your parents, in-laws or DH thinks.
You do not owe them anything.
If they think you’re struggling then they can either mind their business or help you.

MultiplaLight · 15/09/2024 15:30

Monkeysatonthewall · 15/09/2024 15:28

You should've explained it in the message OP quoted instead of asking if additional needs were mentioned by nursery and saying she better starts reading about them without giving any context.

It's just not okay to do this to someone who's clearly having hard time and doesn't need another worry.

Sorry, re reading my post I thought I had said this, and I haven't. I didn't mean to upset the OP any more than she already is.

GingerPirate · 15/09/2024 15:31

I know the feeling of being overworked and overwhelmed, OP.
And the feeling that everyone is doing and looking better.
You doing a great fucking job with such young kids.
I agree with the PP about tiring them out and having some time for yourself with a cup of coffee.
Oddly, I also think it's better that your DH isn't under your feet atm.
💐

peachesarenom · 15/09/2024 15:31

glassdo · 15/09/2024 14:04

Gave my two year old a breakfast muffin earlier and he refuses to sit down at the table. Will scream and just walk to the living room.

He did walk to the living room with it and just destroyed it in his hands and spread it all over the carpet.

Just one small example of what he does.

Same here, this is not unusual 2 year old behaviour! Just some reassurance it's not them being bad, they're just not able to think it through yet.

So frustrating though!

Scrabblequeen · 15/09/2024 15:33

My son was like this. He was the most exhausting toddler. I cried often. He didn’t sleep for about 3 years. Lower your standards. Give him the banana and milk. Tell you husband/in laws/parents to fuck off. Do whatever it takes to get through the day. I did a ‘picnic tea’ often. And I promise you, it does get better. My son is 13 now and my favourite person to hang out with. He’s bloody brilliant. When he was about 3 I started putting him in sports, anything that directed his energy. Swimming lessons, football, rugby. And slowly things got better. Hang in there. It’s the worst, and you have my utmost empathy.

peachesarenom · 15/09/2024 15:34

glassdo · 15/09/2024 14:09

For the last two weeks, he just won't have any dinner after nursery. He just won't eat anything I put in front of him.

All he wants is banana or chocolate. If I give him nothing, he just won't eat. He gets a bottle of milk and that's it.

If at random times during the day, he decides he wants something to eat, he literally will not stop screaming. He'll go for 30 minutes. He just won't stop. He wants what he wants.
How am I supposed to have the energy to listen to this every fucking day and NEVER give in ?

I know giving in makes me a bad parent and plays into it, but how the fuck am I supposed to have the energy to listen to this several times a day ? I can't take it anymore

I think it's ok to give them some food if they ask for it, they've only got small tummy's!

I find demands for chocolate happen when they're so hungry they're panicking, I would ask nursery if they could provide more food so little one isn't so hungry they need sugar straight after nursery.

glassdo · 15/09/2024 15:34

I'm usually really patient with tantrums. I'm having a really bad week. I've been very unwell this week and my husband hasn't really helped me or cared about it.

I'm super resentful that it all seems to fall on me- even when he is here. I understand when he's not here. But when he is here, he doesn't do much.

The kids have also been getting up at the crack of fucking dawn every day. 5:30-6 am and I'm fucking sick of it. I never ever get to sleep in. My husband always does. Cos he's so tired from all his hard work. Whereas I'm just at home and working at home too so I should have more energy ? I have a chronic illness.

The kids are asleep now. At least I can clean the kitchen. I know you're all saying to let it go but I can't function properly if it's too messy.

As for my in laws, I just feel judged. My mother in law gifts us clothes and then accuses me of not letting my kids wear them. Which is untrue. My husbands said it's because she thinks I'm disorganised and don't even know where I put them. That hit me hard. My mum thinks I'm a wreck. She loves me but she thinks I can't cope and I have to hear comments all the time that she had even less support and that we didn't even have screen time and that we ate properly and she managed. Bla bla bla

OP posts:
rainydays03 · 15/09/2024 15:35

Absolutely love this!

One of the hardest parts about being a parent is the 24/7 guilt that we aren’t being the absolute best parent to ever walk this planet. No screen time, organic snacks, bedtime routines - stuff that, give me wine and let me wing it 😂

GladBluePigeon · 15/09/2024 15:36

Scrabblequeen · 15/09/2024 15:33

My son was like this. He was the most exhausting toddler. I cried often. He didn’t sleep for about 3 years. Lower your standards. Give him the banana and milk. Tell you husband/in laws/parents to fuck off. Do whatever it takes to get through the day. I did a ‘picnic tea’ often. And I promise you, it does get better. My son is 13 now and my favourite person to hang out with. He’s bloody brilliant. When he was about 3 I started putting him in sports, anything that directed his energy. Swimming lessons, football, rugby. And slowly things got better. Hang in there. It’s the worst, and you have my utmost empathy.

My 22-year old still talks about the picnic teas they sometimes had, as their best tea ever. 😂 His dad worked abroad often, and I worked too and sometimes resorted to picnic teas.

Notimeforaname · 15/09/2024 15:37

I don't know, I just feel more comfortable if he's had a meal- rather than just milk, or chocolate and a banana.

But it's not actuallymore comfortable that way, is it ?
It's a constant battle then, trying to make him eat a meal.
Everyone will be more comfortable if you just give the banana or take the food away when not eaten.

As you have heard on this thread,it works eventually. You have to hold strong.

Refusing to take your children out shouldn't be an option.
Yes its stressful but there is a big chance that the children are feeling your high stress and you're both exasperating the other.

Ok, you accidentally bumped your child last time but if you keep avoiding things because something happened once , you'll end up in a tiny anxiety ridden bubble doing nothing!!

glassdo · 15/09/2024 15:38

GingerPirate · 15/09/2024 15:31

I know the feeling of being overworked and overwhelmed, OP.
And the feeling that everyone is doing and looking better.
You doing a great fucking job with such young kids.
I agree with the PP about tiring them out and having some time for yourself with a cup of coffee.
Oddly, I also think it's better that your DH isn't under your feet atm.
💐

It would just be so nice if one fucking person said l was doing a good job.

To be fair to my mum, with all her faults - she recognises it a lot that it's so extremely difficult.

OP posts:
ThatsNotMyTeen · 15/09/2024 15:39

Oh I’ve been there, it’s so hard

these times will pass x