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To still be angry at my parents for this?

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ThatPeachSnake · 27/07/2024 20:44

I had a horrific childhood. My parents were terribly unhappy together and got divorced when I was young. My dad lost all our money and we were poor. This spiralled, long divorce and my mum having horrific mental health issues, which was all taken out on me.

I did well and school and went to uni. I was a good child and did everything ‘by the book’. I never got in trouble or was any trouble to my parents - they often tell me that. In comparison to my sister, who is into drugs, doesn’t work and still lives at home.

when I finished uni, I had planned to get a job straight away in my career field, which was harder than I had realised. It took me about 6 months - but in the meantime, I got myself a job in a supermarket and stayed in my uni town in cheap accommodation until I could move on.

about 4 months in, I was asked to leave my accommodation. I had not signed a contract and it was a friend of a friends place (which obviously was a stupid move from me!). Essentially, I was made homeless overnight. Since I had no ties to my uni town, I reached out to my parents and asked either of them if I could come home and stay with them for a bit whilst I got my real job. I had no intention of staying there and they knew that. I was fiercely determined to move to London. However, in the meantime, I would have paid rent and got a job in my hometown to support myself whilst I was looking for my ‘career’ job. I was just scared and had no where to live and needed my parents. I sobbed down the phone to them for days begging for them to have me.

both said no and I‘m not really sure why. I was homeless and sofa surfing for the next few months until I was offered a job in London.

since then, I have done well for myself and have kind of brushed over the fact my parents did that. I could never ever do that to my child. After all this time, it is difficult to bring up to ask them why. I’m just so angry looking back at it. AIBU?

OP posts:
stopthepigeonstopthepigeon · 02/08/2024 16:53

ThatPeachSnake · 02/08/2024 14:01

Honestly, I had written a bit further up this thread, but I was prepared to be told I was unreasonable. I was an adult at that point after all!

Not unreasonable to ask to stay with immediate family so you don’t end up homeless. If there were prepared to leave you in the lurch (for whatever reason) then they let you down big time, yes.

wobblyweasel · 02/08/2024 16:54

I'm so sorry that your parents have treated you like this, but kudos to you for getting your life into order! If my parents did this, I'd go NC. You owe them nothing!, so when they come bleating to you for help in their old age, and they will, just politely turn them down. Have you had any kind of therapy to help you ? Sometimes just chatting with someone can put things into perspective x

MusicMakesItAllBetter · 02/08/2024 18:56

NigelHarmansNewWife · 27/07/2024 21:03

They let you down badly. What a phenomenal woman you are to have achieved your goals completely on your own merit.

This!

Brighteyes2368 · 04/08/2024 17:18

ThatPeachSnake · 27/07/2024 20:44

I had a horrific childhood. My parents were terribly unhappy together and got divorced when I was young. My dad lost all our money and we were poor. This spiralled, long divorce and my mum having horrific mental health issues, which was all taken out on me.

I did well and school and went to uni. I was a good child and did everything ‘by the book’. I never got in trouble or was any trouble to my parents - they often tell me that. In comparison to my sister, who is into drugs, doesn’t work and still lives at home.

when I finished uni, I had planned to get a job straight away in my career field, which was harder than I had realised. It took me about 6 months - but in the meantime, I got myself a job in a supermarket and stayed in my uni town in cheap accommodation until I could move on.

about 4 months in, I was asked to leave my accommodation. I had not signed a contract and it was a friend of a friends place (which obviously was a stupid move from me!). Essentially, I was made homeless overnight. Since I had no ties to my uni town, I reached out to my parents and asked either of them if I could come home and stay with them for a bit whilst I got my real job. I had no intention of staying there and they knew that. I was fiercely determined to move to London. However, in the meantime, I would have paid rent and got a job in my hometown to support myself whilst I was looking for my ‘career’ job. I was just scared and had no where to live and needed my parents. I sobbed down the phone to them for days begging for them to have me.

both said no and I‘m not really sure why. I was homeless and sofa surfing for the next few months until I was offered a job in London.

since then, I have done well for myself and have kind of brushed over the fact my parents did that. I could never ever do that to my child. After all this time, it is difficult to bring up to ask them why. I’m just so angry looking back at it. AIBU?

OP, I hate that you experienced all that. I have had a similar experience with lots of abuse from my mother and step-dad too. Know that you are NOT being unreasonable to continue to feel hurt by their actions. They wronged you.

I hope you talk to your therapist about it all and get help working through the emotions attached. If your therapist is not someone you feel you can tell these things to, please find one you are comfortable with (it really does help). I've been in therapy on and off for 2 decades (more off than on because of multiple moves and the difficulty in finding a good fit) and I know I STILL need to work through some major things (being abused for most of one's life necessitates that).

I hope you are able to put your past behind you soon. Sending positive and healing energy your way.

Starling7 · 28/01/2025 20:41

I wonder if they were ashamed of how they were living

CoraPirbright · 28/01/2025 21:07

I don’t know how old you are OP but I worry that you have a very difficult situation coming your way.

You have done a brilliant job of parenting yourself and have clearly come such a long way. Given that your parents have barely been worthy of that name, what is going to happen when they get old and start to need your help? They wont be able to rely on your feckless sister, so guess who is going to be hit up for help both physically, financially and organisationally? Given the appalling way they treated you, you are going to need to decide what to do. You sound so very lovely and you repeatedly keep talking about not wanting to upset them and being embarrassed that I fear that you are going to be taken advantage of. As anyone with elderly or infirm parents will tell you, looking after them can take one hell of a toll and that’s even if you love them and they were superb parents. In your shoes, I would get some counselling, find your anger and make it clear that you will not be their go-to slave in their old age. They have not earned that right. Look after yourself, OP, because they certainly didn’t and won’t.

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