I have never really cared whether I die, is this normal?

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I can't remember ever thinking that it would be awful to die.
When my kids were small I didn't want to die because I didn't want them not to have a mum, other than that time I don't recall ever not feeling like this.

Several times a week I think it would be convenient to die so I don't have to do certain things

I'm not suicidal, I'm not going to kill myself, just couldn't give a shit if I die

I have an okay life, nice family, well travelled, not wealthy but have enough to do most things although have no savings

Just wondering if this is how other people feel too?

that’s why we should try to be in the moment as much as possible

Yes! The Stoics' memento mori carried many meanings for them - duty, legacy, motivation and more - but was also very much about valuing each day that we have.

Happiness is not an entitlement - Also this. It's perfectly normal to feel sad, bored, pissed off, lonely, uncomfortable, and the whole range of feelings both enjoyable and miserable.

I'd say Stoics Unite, only Boris Johnson's an expert on the texts and I ain't uniting with him 😂

I used to be scared of death, not anymore, I have suffered with depression since my teens though and I’m now 32.

I have an ok life and don’t always feel depressed, in fact I haven’t felt actively depressed for a while in the but for the past few years I’ve felt the same about death regardless of mood. I won’t do anything to actively harm myself, no plans of suicide etc, but at the same time I often think about something coming along and taking my life that I’m not anticipating and am out of control of, like an accident or illness, and think how good it would be to no longer be here and have no worries or awareness.

I’m aware how that sounds but life is just boring. I don’t feel much happiness about it or the future. I’m just going along 🤣 I don’t even think it could be changed. I’ve had happy times and still felt the same.

Thank you. I still have fertile years left ahead of me, so we'll keep trying. It's just such a grind at times. Whatever happens, as long as DH and I have each other, that's all that matters.

I'm not scared about dying, but hoping I am not going to too soon. Also hoping for a "good" death or rather not a sh*tty one. Elderly neighbour was found feet up in her armchair in front of the TV with a half drunk glass of whisky beside her, looking peaceful - that's how I would like to go!

I also don't want to go too soon because of my DS and want to go after my parents. I think the most painful part is those that are left behind. But I hope I am missed a bit and loved.

When I was younger doing voluntary work, I was paired with a very unpleasant older woman because I was the newby. She was snobby/cold/demanding/ungrateful and liked to put people "in their place". Week after week I really tried to get her to warm up and was very patient with her, to no avail, she treated me more like a servant than a volunteer. She wasn't disabled or in any great pain but obviously probably had lots of aches and niggles. She often reminisced (and boasted) and I got the impression she hadn't changed much. One week I went back and she had died and no-one seemed the least bit bothered (I have to say I wasn't), in fact it was more like relief, and she was never mentioned again. She had an impact because I still think about her occasionally and how sad it must be for no-one to really care that you've been on this planet and now you aren't.

*I don't know if you are aware, but you're coming across as if you're telling us off?

Maybe this isn't the thread for you if you're struggling to understand how people feel the way they do, and also not willing to try?*

Well I'm sorry but I'm not trying to tell anyone off. I don't see why I can't be on the thread just because I disagree

If your happy you don't want to die.
I would imagine people who want to die are depressed or unhappy.
That's my take on it.

This isn’t about wanting or not wanting to die. It’s about not being scared of it and not being upset at the prospect. They’re two entirely different things.

This isn’t about wanting or not wanting to die. It’s about not being scared of it and not being upset at the prospect. They’re two entirely different things.

I understand that.. just find it hard to not be scared or upset thinking about it

No one is asking you to.

I completely don’t relate to these messages. I love life with a passion. That’s not to say I’m afraid of death, but I absolutely love life and being alive and feel lucky every day. The world is so beautiful, I have an amazing wonderful child, there are so many beautiful places I haven’t yet visited. I look forward to the passing of the seasons, spending time with my family, feeling the sun on my skin, mundane days at work filled with office gossip and boring emails. Getting to spend all my time with my other half, planning for the future together, routine weekends doing the shopping and DIY, special weekends going on trips. Every moment of life is special and wonderful in its own way and I hope I have years and years more of it.

No one is asking you to.

Why is everyone on here so aggressive, I know they aren't asking me to I was just trying to explain how I feel

That's a real shame. It must be difficult to be on a thread that talks about something that scares and upsets you.

There's a genuine peace that comes with accepting the inevitable.

Babla, I don’t usually nitpick about other people’s comments. But you do seem to be disapproving of what you read here, with no good reason.

People are speaking very honestly here, about a subject they rarely get a chance to discuss. Their comments are valid and they should not be discouraged from expressing them. If you don’t like this, why not just read something else?
Edited for typo.

*Babla, I don’t usually nitpick about other people’s comments. But you do seem to be disapproving of what you read here, with no good reason.

People are speaking very honestly here, about a subject they rarely get a chance to discuss. Their comments are valid and they should not be discouraged from expressing them. If you don’t like this, why not just read something else?
Edited for typo.*

If you don't usually nitpick why do it now. The fact is my comments are not disapproving they simply disagree. You are doing to me exactly what you accuse me of, you are discouraging me from commenting because I feel differently, you are disapproving of me speaking honestly. I am allowed an opinion