I can't remember ever thinking that it would be awful to die.
When my kids were small I didn't want to die because I didn't want them not to have a mum, other than that time I don't recall ever not feeling like this.
Several times a week I think it would be convenient to die so I don't have to do certain things
I'm not suicidal, I'm not going to kill myself, just couldn't give a shit if I die
I have an okay life, nice family, well travelled, not wealthy but have enough to do most things although have no savings
Just wondering if this is how other people feel too?