Maybe if you share some of your specific reasoning you can discuss that in more detail to get a clearer picture.
(1) Is it that you don't like the idea that you are physically providing milk?
(2)You don't like the idea of being seen to breastfeed?
(3) You don't like the idea of a child on your breast?
(4) You believe it will be painful?
(5) You believe it takes longer than bottle feeding?
(6) You don't like the idea that 'this is your role?
(7) You want other people to be able to feed the baby?
(8) You see breasts as sexual and are uncomfortable with the idea of breastfeeding.
(9) You have some trauma around your breasts.
(10) You take medication which you would have to stop taking in order to breastfeed.
Some of the issues can be worked around by expressing, for example. In 2023, there are quiet pumps which can be worn inside a bra. That would perhaps address some of the issues while still providing the gut and immune benefits.
Some of the benefits of breastfeeding are worthwhile, even taking the benefits to the baby out of the picture. Such as:
(A)it helps the uterus to contract back to a smaller size and helps reduce mum tum size.
(B) It uses up so many calories that it's one of the best diets on the market and helps pregnancy weight to melt away.
(C) You're not spending money on formula, bottles, sterilisers etc.
(D) There is zero prep, you're not standing around at 4 am in the kitchen.
(E) When your milk comes in but you don't breastfeed it is painful as fuck. Even worse postpartum. When weaning there is discomfort, but much less.
(F) The smell of a bottle fed nappy vs a formula fed baby is night and day. Until the baby starts eating food, a bf nappy is ten times less disgusting. Maybe partly because the digestion of breast milk is more efficient. Maybe you can't smell it because it came from your body originally.
Of course, fed is best. But when making a major decision it is good to do so having considered all angles.