Codependent friendship - and I'm the problem

[cadburyegg]

My mental health is really dire right now and I have unintentionally offloaded a lot onto a friend of mine, who happens to be living with me atm.

For background in the last 2 years I have separated from my husband, I'm now a single parent, of 2 young kids, my dad also died. I am on a high dose of ADs. I am on the waiting list for therapy. I try to go on walks most days. I am working, I have other friends who I see regularly.

Anyway my friend has now said that she's at her limit, she's not my therapist, etc. you get the gist.
This is my fault entirely and of course the fact we live together means she gets no "let up" from me.
I want to take responsibility and fix things . I don't want to be a burden on people but I feel like that's what I am in danger of becoming. I want to be a better friend again. I just don't know how to find the strength because I am so sad all of the time. I don't know what else I can do to help myself mentally.

I apologise for reactivating a zombie thread but I just wanted to post again to say thank you to all who commented on this and helped me. I haven't heard from said "friend" since the day she left, I still think about the situation a lot and look on it with much fresher eyes now and can't believe I put up with it for so long! Again thank you everyone.

I didn’t see the thread the first time… but it sounds like you came out better on the other side. Hope it’s not just the lack of roommate/friend that is positive for you, but lord knows that’s a great thing to not have to deal with!

Glad she has gone and you are now in a much better place, from the sounds of it OP

I am glad she's left and you can heal properly, be kind on yourself.

Thanks for sharing the update with us. So good to have that in your rear view mirror now.