I was 17 and had just passed my driving test but parents wouldn't buy me a car. I had been doing well at school and was quite shy and reserved .. until 1994 when I met HIM. He was a lot older than me, had a car and could get me into pubs. He let me drive his car (no tax or insurance but I didn't care at the time), cue lots of drinking, smoking, staying out till all hours, introduced to dance music and hello to clubbing. Awful rows with parents over it all. Shopped in Snob & chelsea girl, music was JX Son of a Gun, Atlantic Ocean Waterfall, M people. MD 20/20. Smoking Royals. I was so very slim, but never appreciated it or dressed to really show it. Carefree, no responsibilities. A huge amount of energy. Could eat what i wanted and never gained weight, Took so many risks but was fortunate to not come a cropper on any of them. No drugs ever, not my thing.
Now - late 40's, little to no energy, huge mortgage, lot of responsibility at work, work a 50 hour week on average, 3 DC, 2 have SEN, DH, I'm about a stone overweight, weekends are usually spent tidying/sorting/cleaning my house, never want to step foot in a club again, love nights in/my bed/going to quiet pubs where I can have a seat, table and a good chat. Have general anxiety and health anxiety and sometimes panic attacks.
But still turn up the dance choons in the car/gym and they are all the ones from 1994 !
Would I go back ? maybe, if only to tell myself to avoid HIM and carry on with studies. I would have gone to uni and have a different life. But then I wouldn't be where i am now with my wonderful DC. But then I did have a great time summer 1994, even if it was with a wrong-un.