I don’t know why I’m like this but I feel like I’m always analysing people on how they look.
If I see someone I don’t know, I look at them and wonder what their life is like, they’re slim, well dressed, nice hair.
I imagine they have a good job, own their own home and have a lots of friends with a nice social life.
If I see someone plain, overweight, not very stylish, I think the opposite of them.
I see groups of girls together who all look the same and couldn’t imagine them socialising with someone who looked different to them (as in the plain overweight person)
I have a weird belief that you need to look a certain way to be happy, accepted or fit in with society.
I have absolutely no idea where this has come
from.
I find myself stalking people on Facebook.
So if one of my friends meets another friend, I will
look at their pictures to see what they look like and how pretty / slim they are.
I met up with one of my friends a few weeks ago, she’s so slim and pretty and I felt good about being with her, but I felt bad about her being with me.
I wondered how many people would question why a good looking slim girl would want to hang out with an overweight ugly girl (me)
How can I over come this obsession with looks / weight? Where could it have come from?