To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

Gosh I think teens is worse..I miss my lovely long evenings when my dc would be asleep at 8pm. My ds stays awake till gone 11pm now...it's so hard having no kid free time.

Although I count my blessings I don't have toddlers!

same

concentration span of a toddler, can't be bothered to exercise. I normally do an hour a day

hate my job now it's online, no motivation to do other stuff just fannying about for hours reading nonsense on the internet, none of which I take in.

selfishly, i'm glad it's not just me. thank you to others for fessing up about how you feel because nobody i know in real life will.

Join the club. I have had four people this week not get back to me about one thing or another and I'm.totally irrationally pisssed off by it. It's really got to me more than it normally would.

The urge to hide in my bed and let claus unfold around me is really strong right now. I dont want to a adult. I want get away with not being arsed like the feckless flakes I seem to surround myself in.

I should be all "oh well there loss" but nope, not right now. They can all feck off! And then they get there they can feck off some more.

So angry frustrated and also inert to live right now. What's the answer? I hope I find my tolerance again one day

Yep. It’s Shite. Absolutely joyless relentless shite!

The highlight of my day is unscrewing the top of the wine.

God knows what prison must be like. I can only imagine it’s worse than this.

Same. Urgh.

If I could hibernate in front of the fire with a book for a few months I'd be relatively content, but my motivation levels for work etc fall very short of the levels expected by my employer, and the disparity causes me stress.

selfishly, i'm glad it's not just me. thank you to others for fessing up about how you feel because nobody i know in real life will

@asquirrel

So true...I don't know anyone in real life except my sister who has admitted they are finding this difficult. Are they all lying? I know loads of mums still posting "yay, loving hanging out my little family" shite...what's going on? Are they bare faced liars, on hard drugs, hitting the gin or are they genuinely happy as a pig in shit?!

@HT7654

Yep. It’s Shite. Absolutely joyless relentless shite!

The highlight of my day is unscrewing the top of the wine.

God knows what prison must be like. I can only imagine it’s worse than this.

I don't know at least in prison there's probably less housework and someone else cooks your meals.

formerbabe in March we were starting from a fairly good place (summer approaching, kids had been at school etc) and then with lockdown everything at work was about being mind, looking after ourselves, virtual tea breaks etc.

Very different this time round, starting from a position of being so tired of it all and having kids at home for several weeks over Christmas. The virtual tea breaks are a distant memory. It's like the novelty has worn off. In our workplace I feel the tolerance for the challenges people have is significantly less this time round. God I'm fed up.

We have ‘team informal chats’ a couple of times a week in work and I have stopped going as I just can’t bear it anymore. Fucking pointless zoom chats that I don’t feel I can add anything to 😬

Feel exactly the same OP. So bored. No motivation for anything at all. Cannot be arsed. Two teens at home, no peace. Just want to eat, sleep and drink alcohol 😪

Isolating at the moment - the thought of a walk sounds like heaven, even though more than a few metres would completely flake me out.

I did take the rubbish out a couple of days ago - a whole ten meters from the garage to the front door, at 6.30am when no one was about - bliss.
Followed by about three hours sleep to recuperate.

@formerbabe

Although I count my blessings I don't have toddlers!

I can lend you one. He’s really lovely 😊

I had this today for the first time. I teach for 12 hours on a Monday and love my job, woke up today and physically couldn't face switching on my laptop and doing 6 zoom teaches with a happy face. I finished early, only 30 mins which is completely out of character but I can't do this anymore ... Oh but wait I've got to do it all over again in 12 hours time. Struggling.

Glad it's not just me re wash and dishwasher! Took a parcel to the Post office today, felt like a major achievement!

I know exactly how you feel OP. I'm doing a course and supposed to be home schooling DD. To say she is not keen would be an understatement. She told me today that I don't explain things as well as her TA!

Every time I go to bed I say to myself that I'm going to get up early tomorrow, get my studying and DDs schoolwork done and sort the house out.

It usually works out that the alarm goes off, I switch it off and then the next thing I know it's late and my plans just go downhill from there. i'm sitting here on Mumsnet now when I really should be tidying the kitchen

I'm putting on loads of weight, not sleeping well and dying for adult conversation.

I adore DD but I don't think I've had an adult conversation since Christmas. Consequently I find myself rambling on to random people when they phone me and think I am turning into my Dad who used to embarrass us by striking up random conversations with anyone he met while we were out.

Yup.
Teach online.
Highlight of day-bath
Massive ramped up health anxiety at moment.
Miss my DSs so much.
Fuck all motivation.

I’m so bored and am eating too much and putting weight. I’ve never been overweight in my life. No motivation to address the eating, which is really unlike me. I know it’s because I’m bored/borderline mildly depressed.

@freeandfierce

I had this today for the first time. I teach for 12 hours on a Monday and love my job, woke up today and physically couldn't face switching on my laptop and doing 6 zoom teaches with a happy face. I finished early, only 30 mins which is completely out of character but I can't do this anymore ... Oh but wait I've got to do it all over again in 12 hours time. Struggling.

Feel the same.

Smiley smiley "How is everyone?" Plastering a fake smile for the kids.

Just want to shut laptop lid.

Same here. I think the weather is a big factor. We had snow a couple of weeks ago which was great. But ever since it's been ice and rain and staying indoors. Everything in the garden looks brown.

I think it's about endurance now. Endurance and hope that things will get better, and that we will feel differently soon.

@CosyAcorn
Agree the weather is making a massive difference to me, looking out of my window at grey sky. I might get a SAD lamp.

Also feeling the same. It’s just draining. I’m trying to practise gratitude but struggling.

Totally with you on the ‘collective bleakness,’ OP, it seems like everyone has very low morale.
I have lost all imagination for cooking, I usually love meal planning and trying different recipes. I had a microwave meal tonight! I cannot be fucking arsed any more. Like you say it’s all pointless. Even washing my hair, what’s the bloody point? The slog of washing and cleaning after every single bloody meal. Got a baby and toddler, the mess and constant cycle of cleaning is just grinding me down. I’m due back to work in a couple of weeks and am lucky they have said I can wfh flexibly on weekends and evenings when DH will be with our DDs, however I feel emotional every time I think my baby is going to be one and so many people have never even held her and don’t know her cheeky little personality. It’s so sad. And also knowing that breather of returning to the office a couple of days a week isn’t going to come...makes me feel trapped.
I tried to get myself out of this funk on Friday. Then on Saturday morning had a phone call to say a beloved family member had passed away. She lived in Paris so no chance of attending her funeral :(
If I see one more ‘trying to boost morale’ type Instagram post... I’ll leave it and never go back 😂

Yep really struggling with this one. I was pregnant for the last two and suffering badly with HG so pretty bed bound. I thought anything would be better than that.

But this past week has tipped me over the edge, got a lovely but clingy and very sicky 8 week old, my 3 year olds nursery shut as positive case so he has been isolating st home, the weather has been shit, DH is in a new very stressful very busy job with shit hours so very little help.

I just feel throughly fed up. Everyday is the fucking same. My 3 year old understands more this time and has been crying asking why he cant see his cousins who he usually spends a fair amount of time with.

It is fucking relentless with no end in sight. If I could plan a holiday, or a day out or something, ANYTHING, to look forward to, that would help. But we can't. So everyday will be the same until god knows when.

Oh. And I am breastfeeding so no fucking alcohol either.

Thanks for this post, it’s made me realise there are others feeling it.
My job is unrecognisable from last March, I’m doing less hours though for same money ... which you would think would be great... except the job I’m doing is more than depressing.I dread it each day.
Also dh getting over covid and has been at home for weeks which is driving me mad... and I realise he’s become very selfish in convo past few weeks and is boring me. I’ve put on a stone since this time last year and even though I do 12000 plus steps a day it’s not enough to shift it, I need to sort what I’m eating but have no motivation.
To top this all off for every “ woe is me thought” I have , I then feel guilty because there’s ppl that have it far far worse... so I end up mentally battling my thoughts all day.
Exhausting,depressing, sad.