To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

Same. It’s so hard having absolutely nothing to look forward to. It’s like Groundhog Day. I’m so bored and fed up of everything. I am very thankful for the fact I can WFH but sitting here wasting an entire year (or more) of your life is just miserable.

This weekend has been tough, full of nothing yet again. And found out a child in DDs year at school took their own life the other day. Spent the weekend wondering what is going on when children have no other option than to do that. Child mental health is going to be such a problem as it kills far more children than Covid ever will

Phew, DH is covid negative, so that feels a bit better.

I feel institutionalised - although it is a relief of course, and little one can go back to nursery etc and I’ve been feeling so hemmed in and trapped... I’m already a bit gutted that I can’t just hide at home and do absolutely nothing during an isolation period.

3 words: The dishwasher broke.

3 more words. I'm broken too

3 more words Hate home education

3 more words: I give up

3 more words FML

Another Monday! Just cleaning the kitchen through a haze of miserable tears! I know I am pathetic! Feeling so anxious about everything again, and have started waking up during the night and not being able to go back to sleep, then having palpitations because I am so stressed. Haven't had them for over 5 years. That makes me feel even more anxious - it's a vicious circle.

Feel like I'm just existing- not living right now. I guess the little things in life energise us- coffee with friends, a day out, or a mini break if you're lucky to get away. Without any of this we cant recharge our batteries so no wonder there's a lack of motivation. I spend alot of time in bed. As soon as I've done what i need to do- I'm back under that duvet !

I'm behind on so many deadlines and really struggling - can't tell my clients but also just can't get anything done. It's shit shit shit.

I’m having a significant nap either late morning or mid afternoon if I have the chance. Pure boredom and low mood I think.

I dont think id of made it this far if it wasn't for the naps!

It all feels so pointless... so bloody utterly pointless...

Tried to think of three things I like today, realised they are
Sleeping
Baths
Eating

Bit like some kind of hibernation then. No wonder putting on weight.

YY to naps also. Was on the phone to elderly neighbour downstairs who is in her 80s. Realised we both have basically the same lifestyle, walk, a nap. Hmm.

Another Monday! Just cleaning the kitchen through a haze of miserable tears! I know I am pathetic! Feeling so anxious about everything again, and have started waking up during the night and not being able to go back to sleep, then having palpitations because I am so stressed. Haven't had them for over 5 years. That makes me feel even more anxious - it's a vicious circle

That's not pathetic, panic attacks are horrible. I have recently gone back on meds for them.

God I am so pleased that this isn’t just me.

I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant this month, so on top of everything else I feel physically awful. Exercise and cooking was just about getting me through before- now I can’t enjoy either.

I’m obviously excited about the baby but really scared of how things will be when I’m due in the autumn. Imagining not having my family/ DP around in hospital, not being able to have my mum come round to help me take care of the baby, spending Christmas alone again, has me really tearful.

I have a great new job and I can barely pull myself together to log on in the morning.

The constant changing goalposts and the disappearing light at the end of the tunnel is unbearable. Is anyone has anything positive to say about the autumn... please share it!

Congratulations on your pregnancy Orangebitters that makes you tired in itself. Take care of yourself

Things should be much better by the Autumn, they are already talking about summer.

I felt the tiniest lift when I stepped outside just now and it wasn’t raining and I heard a bird sing. I nearly cried. It feels like War of the Worlds when the green shoots appear. Only a very, very tiny shoot that might be trampled by a mutant virus.

I slept exactly 2 hours last night. Lay awake, did some work at about 2 am, lay awake some more.

Work is the busiest it’s ever been and I have a huge deadline looming in the biggest project in my career. I just want to sit in the corner.

I adore birds anyway but I too am finding the sounds of them so so wonderful now. Just knowing they are carrying on with their busying around and one eye on nests and stuff is heartwarming. Total privilege to live amongst them. Support all.

Today I looked out in my front garden, and there on the fence was a female pheasant - and when I looked out another window, there were four more - it was magic!

(The cat was beside herself. . .)

I got up to go to the loo at 4 last night and heard a robin singing. Gosh it so made my heart sing! They are thinking about mating and building nests and that's so happy!!

I sometimes wonder what they are making of all of this. Here in central london the seagulls from the river have pretty much gone - no doubt lack of pickings from commercial food waste and tables etc. Wonder if the river is heaving with gulls having to reacquaint themselves with fishing !?I may even walk and see (to try to stay on topic).

I hope we may get snow again, that was something of interest. Not ice / slush thought, just pretty snow..

The flipping birds woke me up at 3am today tweeting and cawing away. I'm beginning to think the little feathered ones work shifts... usually I love listening to the birds.

Spent all day feeling like my head is stuffed with mush and feeling utterly exhausted.

Managed to make veg chilli for later and run a wash but otherwise forget it. Lets just say home schooling was not a success today.

I've achieved not one single thing from my to do list (I've not even written the bloody thing out) Did finally get round to turning the page on the calander though - from a completely empty January to an equally empty February.

I jsut want to put my head down and go to sleep - wake me up when all this is over

Today it stopped raining at about 3pm and the sun almost broke through.
I managed a full day of work.
DC and I are the only ones on our road who clapped at 6pm, but that’s ok.
It’s all very groundhog, but the sun is coming

Yes. I actually had a meltdown today because I have to stay at home until 31st March. I was starting to make plans to have a walk with friends and go back to work. I have literally had enough of fucking shielding