To have lost all motivation for anything

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Is the endlessness of lockdown getting to anyone else? I seem to have lost all motivation for tidying the house, cooking, homeschooling, my job - all of it.

Me & the kids walk every day but that’s about it - it’s the relentlessness of it all that’s really getting to me I think. I just want to sit about eating toast & sleeping- I’d take to my bed if I didn’t have kids to look after.

I have quite a big job at a uni too and even the thought of it makes me feel depressed. It’s awful- I am fed up of my colleagues and they are lovely people so I feel bad.

Aibu to have just lost all mojo? I don’t think I am depressed- just OVER it all- I don’t even know what I need at the moment!

@SingToTheSky, I'm sorry - that sounds like really difficult circumstances :( Hope your husband isn't too sick with it

Hell, even the cat has lost all motivation for anything. Won't claw Daddy's socks (with his feet in them). Can't even get her interested in climbing or clawing the curtains.

Thank you hello 💐 so so grateful the test arrived in under 24h, hopefully the results won’t take too long. He’s feeling about the same as yesterday.

I’m just accepting it’s a shit weekend tbh, DD1 has dug out some baking kits from the kitchen so at least we have something nice to eat and she’s keeping busy

Ooh @singtothesky that sounds like a very well trained dd! Craving cake now but cba to make it 😴 Fingers crossed test comes back negative.

Thanks 💐 luckily we had a tesco delivery booked already so we’ve added loads of easy food. And chocolate which is much needed as my mental health is through the floor tonight.

The cake was good though!

Morning, how is, everyone doing today? @Singtothesky, how is the patient today? Hope you're well stocked with chocolate, still.

It's a sunny day here at least, so we'll be making our weekly pilgrimage to the playground 😏 Already got the Monday dread but not so down in the dumps today. I feel like I'm on a roller-coaster - no idea, whether I'll be 'high' (relatively) or low day to day. Rolling with the 'motivation' while it lasts.

Just cleaned my hob. Absurd surge of satisfaction. I may see if my hoover is still working after so long unused.

I have found a good zoning out website called window swap.Basically people send in their view from their window recorded a clip of a few minutes.

Is all I can about cope with these days!

www.window-swap.com

This weekends been the one for me where I just cannot be bothered anymore.

I am in Lisbon, Portugal. Infection rates are a disaster, schools have closed down, working from home with a toddler and a preteen. It’s gray and raining. Urgh.

I noticed, doing my grocery shopping today, that I am now feeling seriously aggravated with people who cleverly wear their mask under their noses and/or people who do not respect social distancing. I might start loudly sharing my point of view with those idiots.
So yes, it’s starting to get to me.

I have a very good friend who lives in London, we regularly commiserate, she’s so fed up as well.

Today has been an awful day for me. I keep zoning out staring at nothing. I'm extremely tired and ive done nothing. My daughter is watching her second film of the day.. I feel really guilty but there is literally nothing to do with this horrible weather. Shes happy to watch films all day but I just feel so guilty. My second daughter is breast feeding constantly during the day and I'm struggling to get anything done. My bathrooms desperately need to be cleaned but I just cant face it. My OH has been amazing and we have been working together as a team but it's hard work to stay positive right now. I've got a constant headache and I just want to sleep all day. If I didnt have children I would be! when I hear our neighbours coming in and out of their flat with friends I want to cry. All I want is to see my friends and let them meet my baby.

I've very excitingly been to the supermarket today. DH must be bored to death because he has ironed, which is usually my job while he does the floors. The dog has licked the kitchen floors anyway. Done.

I went out for my walk today. I’ve been doing the same walk five times a week for eight years.

A family coming in the opposite direction (with lots of room to spare) pulled themselves aside into a bush in order to ‘socially distance.’ Four of them, a dog and a pram.

I had my hood up, face covered by a snood thing because it was so cold. Literally only my eyes visible. I moved to one side.

After I walked past, the mother turned to me and screamed that I was a selfish and ungrateful bitch because I hadn’t thanked them for socially distancing. She shouted ‘why should we get out of your way?’

I turned round and replied ‘I have no idea. The road is big enough for a ten tonne lorry, there’s really no need to throw yourself into a bush.’

Her husband was mortified and apologised for her behaviour. Her eyes were bulging in her head, I can still see them.

I felt sorry for her children seeing adults in such a state. We have lost our collective minds. I’m so tired of it.

Crikey frog that sounds like a horrible experience. People really are going a bit mad. I count myself in that as I feel like I’m losing my mind, but I’m the kind of person to take any anger out on myself rather than others. I hope it helped at least that the husband was mortified, rather than the two of them ganging up on you.

Thanks cam he’s feeling worse today, sent him to bed for the afternoon!

We’ve had an incredibly lazy day. I normally stress about everyone being on screens too much but I’ve just embraced it and TBH it has helped a bit, I’ve accepted I find it way too hard waiting for the test result etc so basically fuck it. Anything goes. She says, watching endless Friends episodes while eating dry cereal from the bag! 😂

micc breastfeeding is exhausting at the best of times, I found it even harder earlier in lockdown as there was so little to distract my toddler that she definitely wanted more (she’s weaned now).

Laureline sorry things have got so bad in Portugal - I have a friend who moved over there a while ago and they seemed to be keeping it well under control for a long time :(

Bobbin I would have to be sooo bored to iron 😂

Went for a walk today, an hour to Greenwich park with a friend. It was nice to see people's faces, even though it was worryingly crowded. And so nice to see a few coffee shops open. However it was bloody freezing and I hadn't enough layers on - my legs were numb by the end!

Got home and had a massive snooze. I'm due my period so feeling really antsy and anxious, but like I don't know why.

I am feeling a little better about the covid situation. The vaccine seems to be working, and case rates are going down. Plus the new vaccine that's been discovered to be very effective against the new variant. The vaccine taskforce seem to be really pulling it out of the bag.

I do think in a few months time, things will feel really different.

How have I only just seen this thread!

Yes thoroughly demotivated. Bored, incredibly tired of keeping little children entertained constantly, with shit-all way of doing so, for the gazillionth week in a row.

I've gained weight and can feel how physically lazy and lethargic I'm becoming. Am considering cutting my own hair - had an apt which was obvs cancelled, so it's v. long and flat and knots up constantly in this shitey weather.

Life consists of waking up early with the kids, working/home-schooling, making meals, same old freezing muddy walks, laundry, tidy up, watch tv, bed. When I consider this has been my life for the best part of a year I can't believe it. And the likely end date seems to change with the weather, even with our superb vaccine rollout.

I'm generally a positive person and I try to count my blessings and appreciate how relatively fine it is for us, but god, I'm so, so fed up.

I'm feeling a bit like this too, just the past week or so. Things are so monotonous and homeschooling is awful. I hate it so much.
The house gets messy so quickly with the kids here all the time. It's everything, everything feels like such a slog. I'm self employed and getting very little time to work. Its so cold. It's depressing.

Met my best friend today and instead of another freezing depressing walk we arranged to go to home bargains at the same time (Don't think that's really allowed)
What have our lives become that I even wrote that last sentence?!
I still have that weird feeling sometimes that this is a bad dream.
Im in work tomorrow ( key worker) for the day so it will go faster. But then I will come home to try and play catch up with a full days lost home learning. How are we meant to do 2 jobs at the same time..I am only one person?!

@CountessFrog your very dry reply to the madwoman did make me laugh ! Good on you

Its been helpful to read this thread.... Felt like I was treading water in 2020 and this year it feels like I can't even do that...

Fist bump, diamond. Go me! 😂

Someone posted a thing from CAMHS on FB with things to do to keep your kids well, or something: 1. Learning - well they're doing some. 2. Mix of activities, not just screens. Stopped reading at that point. I am beyond caring now. Have severe sciatica and some random virus and I'd quite like to go to sleep for 2 months.

I've been stuck in for a week now as my son has had to self isolate due to a teacher in his school bubble testing positive. He's got a school place due to his EHCP and he (and we) need it. I feel like I'm going mad not being able to go out, my DH has been working so I've had to stay in with DS and 3 month old baby and I'm even more fed up now than I thought possible. He can't understand why he can't go to school and his behaviour at home gets worse and worse. @micc I totally get how awful it is not being able to have friends or family meet your baby. If isn't how we should be living. Being pregnant for all of last year's lockdown was a huge distraction and now I feel like my maternity leave has been stolen from me, not being able to even sit in a cafe, never mind go to a baby group, makes me angry. I'm so so low and desperate for an end to it, like everyone. I know I'm lucky to not be on my own and to be relatively safe job wise but living like this, especially for this long isn't normal.

Usually at the weekend I take my baby off for a walk and destress a bit as she sleeps but both days these weekends were torrential rain, which is no fun while pushing a buggy and she’s getting too heavy for the sling.

She woke up several times last night and now I have a day ahead of home schooling her four year old brother while trying to look after her too. Whereas if the world was normal he would be in school and I could have taken her to a playgroup today and got some time out of the house. Never thought I would miss playgroups and soft play so much!

@alwaystired99 my baby is 3 months old too. I agree I think my mat leave has been stolen :( my mum only got to meet her a handful of times. I'm very thankful my OH is furloughed so I'm not alone but money is tight so that's something I'm stressing about. I just want to go to baby groups too, my daughter is such a happy little thing which keeps me going but it's sad shes locked away.
Again I'm thankful we are all staying safe, but my mental health is just hanging by a thread. Everything is just so much effort.