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I’ve been on a waiting list for counselling to address some issues form my childhood and the relationship I have with my parents.
Since becoming a mum myself (in Feb) I’ve felt really affected by certain things and I need some help coming to terms with my feelings.
Anyway, our first session was on Friday afternoon (remotely)
I firstly had to tell her about me, interests, hobbies, my life etc.
The therapists then asked me what support I have and who I can turn to.
I told her I have my husband.
I have some really close friends but I struggle to open up to them.
This isn’t because they aren’t supportive, it’s more because I struggle with showing people my emotions and I don’t want people to see my vulnerable side.
She told me it’s important that I have a good support network and feel able to get things off of my chest.
I get this from my husband but told her I also use MN which since having DC I’ve found really helpful, especially after being diagnosed with post natal anxiety.
She told me that places like MN attract the same type of people, who fuel each other’s anxieties and worries.
I told her my experience is different and to be honest MN has been a huge help to me, but she said “people who have full and happy lives don’t depend on strangers for support”
She told me she wants to put in my treatment plan that I will reduce my MN usage.
I feel really upset by what she’s said and quite honestly really judged by her.
It was only our first session so I don’t know what she’s like other than the hour we had on Friday.
I told my husband and he said he thinks it’s a good idea for me to stop using MN too and to start trying to trust my own judgement and opinions or that of my RL friends.
I don’t know if I’m over reacting or being too sensitive but I feel pretty crap about what she’s said.☹️