Professionals have suggested I have ASC, however, I have never pursued assessment, largely because I am seen as the 'neurotypical' one in our family.
The possibility of a condition which is associated with executive dysfunction (leading to problems with focus, organisation, and so on) may explain my hopelessness at keeping things organised and tidy, at home or in the workplace (colleagues really found it hard to work with me because I left everything on my desktop or by my desk largely because if I put something out of sight (in a drawer) I forgot about it and partly because disrupting my train of thought to get something from a cabinet, risked me never getting back to the task in hand).
Yet, have you every stopped to question where this pressure to constantly drive ourselves to maximise performance and to optimise our potential comes from? Who or what is driving us to go against our natural rhythms?
I admit that having a cluttering, space hog in the office can be a problem, but the cluttering could be a sign that there were simply too many tasks to do simultaneously. If I had a job to do, I could do it and do it well. However, if a cluster of jobs were allocated, each to be prioritised, anxiety knocked my functioning for six.
Furthermore, the pressure to achieve at work and to excel academically, caused me to spend little quality time with my family. It is really the quality of the time that matters. Target given, outdated ideas about 'work ethics' have done nothing but make a large proportion of society feel like failures. We are not failures and we are not 'slaves' to media driven, corporate ideas about 'success'.