To find new year's eve abit depressing

[londongirl86]

I am probably alone in this. I don't blame anyone for having an amazing night out or for having a party at new year's. I don't mind that. It's great if you can! It's just new year's right from being a kid has seemed boring and depressing for me lol. My parents did drink and have a few people over as a child. It was fun playing with my cousin's. But I do remember trying to hide at midnight so Drunk adults didn't kiss me haha. I sometimes remember feeling super tired and wanting to go to sleep. As an adult I've not done the parties since 19/20. Due to work and then having my babies.

Also I don't know why but it gives me this feeling of the end in a negative way. The whole goodbye 2019. New starts. Yes people have bad years. But there's plenty of good things I don't want to shut the door on this year. If that makes sense. Then new year's Day just feels quiet and boring. Plus my partner's back at work on the 2nd of January. So it feels like it's also the end of our family time. It also is like a goodbye to christmas. Christmas went so fast this year. It was lovely and we've been in a state of late nights, junk food and lots of Tele. I have loved it. I don't want it to end lol.

I'm not a misery. I'm not bothered that people have fun. I just can't get into new year's and never have been able to x

to all.

Struggling here. Separated, ds just asked if could stay over at a friends (which is fine just feels weird), dd home soon. Fizz open.

I can’t believe how bad the telly is

Awful isn't it. I'm watching something called you on Netflix now. Kids are playing with frozen dolls. Determined to ignore the new year's noise at midnight

Thank you for this post. It explains how I'm feeling tonight. I had to remind myself earlier that it's just Tuesday. We don't have to do anything spectacular. This is my second NYE as a single mum and honestly I'm so exhausted that all the talk of new beginnings depresses me. There's no new beginning here, just more of the same everyday same

I thought mine would be a bit depressing at home alone. I've now been waiting 4.5 hours in A&E with my 90 yr old Dad. Count your chickens. I'm bored and fed up.

You're not alone. I hate it. I would love to have a good time and have somewhere to go but I never do and I just end up feeling lonely and sorry for myself.

Ah I'm sorry @Bouledeneige I hope your dad will be okay

Marian Keyes has a plan for NYE... And she is right.

@Bouledeneige hope you all get home soon and your dad is ok. Bless him xx

Sorry to the person on here stuck in A and E tonight.
I've spent many a night at hospital with my elderly dad ( who is nearly 98 now) and it's hell , let alone on NYE. The staff try their best but it's horrible having to wait about.
I hope you can go home soon and your relative will be alright.

This might seem ridiculous to some but our 3 year old cat was run over and killed three weeks ago and I’ve struggled to enjoy anything since. Now listening to fireworks and picturing him buried in our garden whilst they’re going off around him 💔 I can’t imagine how hard it must be for people missing family. So yes I’m finding it depressing this year.

Thanks for your kind messages folks. 6 hours and 15 minutes in we have finally seen a doctor. Still waiting...,, though they think he will be good to go home.

I've done a lot of sessions like this with my Dad. And was pretty ill myself a few weeks ago - spent hours in the hospital myself. So I'm short on patience tonight - not with my Dad - with the system.

Not ridiculous @Ozzie9523, losing a pet is horrible. Sending sympathy

The system in a and e hospitals isn't good ; I know they are stretched and working hard but it's usually awful and it's the not knowing anything that makes it stressful. They have to be so tight lipped and it drives me mad as I just want the truth from them.
I hate to rant , but my experience of hospitals isn't always good and will only get worse I suppose. It is very depressing and sad that it is so bad.
I hope you can go home soon. I can really sympathise and dealing with elderly parents can also be tough.

I hate it , always have .
Find it so overrated so this year we are ignoring it completely

@Bouledeneige I hope that your father is good to go home.
@Ozzie9523 so sorry to hear about your cat

I'm feeling really down, I'm here alone as I'm dog sitting, my family are nearly all at the other side of the world (I should be there but can't) and some are in Victoria, NSW and Queensland, they are OK so far but the fire is getting closer to the ones in Victoria.

I'm ending the decade alone the same way as it started - alone - and depressed at the thought that I'll almost certainly lose both my parents this decade as they are both in poor health.

Stupidly I've just cried because I made myself a coffee and the fucking milk is off but there is nowhere open at this time of night (of course) to go and buy more even if I could go out and get some.

and with that whinge, I can only apologise.

Thank you for your kind wishes. I got my Dad home after 7 hours in A & E. I drew up outside my house at quarter to midnight just as my daughter and her pals were off to see fireworks. Every one of them gave me hugs and kisses and wished me a Happy New Year. I'm now sitting in front of Jools Holland with some fizz and snacks. So that's my message for us all in 2020 - count those simple blessings, love and kindness. That's all we need. Happy New Year everyone!

So true. I’m now in bed, camomile tea in hand, everyone home, dog allowed to sleep upstairs because of fireworks. Happy 2020 all!

Another melancholy saddo here! My 13 year old stayed over at her friend's house. Feel sad like she prefers her family to ours! Tbh the whole thing makes me feel nervous as I have experienced two family deaths in January over the years. Also hoping for a better year next year parenting my teen and toddler as it's not been the easiest. DH and I went to bed early but fireworks woke me. In the morning I will feel better and more positive. Night all and let's hope it's a good one!

I spent last NYE stressing about my Dad who was in middle of a messy hospital discharge - nursing home place cancelled due to CCG error etc
Formal complaints followed - all upheld
This year I’m facing first new year without him - died at end of October
DM has Alzheimer’s
DP is out of work and on verge of bankruptcy
2020 can only be an improvement but I’m not in the mood for celebrating
Right now I’m in bed with a large Brandy!!!!

I don't like the New Year atmosphere, it has always felt odd and a bit dark. I always make sure I'm at home or with family doing something quiet. I can't really explain why I feel like I do, but it just doesn't excite me at all.

YANBU. Most people I know don’t bother with NYE anymore or if they do, it’s a very low key affair.

Yanbu. I actually got a bit het up over it and forced myself to try and remember that it's just another day. At new year I look back at the last year - I've had so many changes including job and moving out and addressing my addiction, and being more open ieth people - and think about how next year will be. The unknown scares me a bit - I didn't expect on new years 2019 all that happened, and the idea that things will happen but I don't know what, is quite scary.

I've forced myself to write a list of good things in 2019, goals for 2020 and mini steps on how to achieve them which has helped. I'm planning to be up and doing things tomorrow. I'd planned a lovely chilled night in with prosecco and food but am ill - cold, sore throat, shivers and sweating, feeling sick, aches etc. So have stuck to the orange juice and napped instead - just woke up for the loo.

New years always makes me feel low too. I'm not excited - I hate not having the control and knowledge of what's to come!

@Bouledeneige Hope your dad is better soon.

@Ozzie9523 My cat passed away in October 2016 so i know how you feel It is a trauma. Pets are family