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313 replies

LostwithSawyer · 13/06/2018 23:20

Monday night my husband had a stroke, to say it was awful is an understatement.
He's been transferred to a specialist hospital an hr from home.
Before visiting today I cleaned up & discovered a secret phone.
Now we've been here before, years ago.
I forgave believed in 2nd chances and thought we were good.
Clearly Not!
It's the same woman. It stopped for years but started last yr.
To say I'm devastated is putting it mildly.
I've spoken to her and know all the juicy details. But he's in + out of consciousness.
Briefly I told him I know and he just stared at me. Told me hes sorry and loves me.
Love, is that what this is? If it is then love can fuck right off!
But we have kids who are devastated they can't see him in hospital.
I hate him. But I love him too.
I don't want to visit. But he's Ill.
He's messed up so bad there's no going back from this. But my beautiful kids are heartbroken. How can i make it worse right now?
I'm stuck! AngrySad

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Justanothernameonthepage · 15/06/2018 11:21

I'm sorry to hear it's a black day today for you OP. If you can face it, take them to buy a get well card and a present to help them feel it's no big thing and their df will improve. And see if a family friend can take them to have ice cream/park/beach tomorrow so they have a chance to talk to someone neutral. Brief the person beforehand if possible. There will be waves of pain, sadness, anger, fury and despair, but eventually they recede and you'll be able to breathe again.

FizzyGreenWater · 15/06/2018 11:35

So sorry OP.

I'd take this very much one day at a time, but be careful to remain in control.

  • Firstly, while he is still in hospital and fully incapacitated, get control of everything financial and house related that you can, get into Ipads and the like, copy anything you think you'll need and get those messages backed up somewhere.

Once he is with his parents, it's likely that they'll shift opinion fast when he's at theirs, weak and sick and telling them a whole bunch of lies about the situation. And once he 'comes to' a bit, he's going to be thinking about himself and will quite possibly enlist them if he can't do things himself. Make sure that his parents can't access the house, for example 'Oh would you pop over and pick up my ipad/deposit box whatever - please go when Lost isn't there, it will only cause upset but they are my things'. Etc. Freeze joint accounts now, or, more usefully, move all the cash out so that you can access it but he can't for now. Try and get banking passwords if you don't already have them, or try signing in on his devices if he has passwords saved - and then screenshot details of his accounts. Find pension stuff, etc. Photocopy it all before he gets to asking for it.

Start telling friends and family before he gets there with the sob story.

Make SURE that anything he might be able to change passwords for etc - you get there first and change them.

Then you can stop and think. Just do the essentials while he is unable to get a jump on you.

I agree with remaining NOK, and try to remain on good terms with his parents if you can - it will be useful, and help the kids. I'd be blunt with them, if you can find the right moment and words. 'Look, I know that once X is living with you and convalescing that his wellbeing will be your main priority, I also know that the care is going to be a stressful time for you. I expect you to put him first, and it would be great if in return you could recognise that obviously I am not only extremely hurt but have now been left in a similarly stressful situation, namely caring for the children and their emotions and coming to terms with what he has done. I hope we'll remain on good terms even though there might be awkward moments ahead; my first priority is making sure the children are ok, so I hope you can support me in that'.

AcrossthePond55 · 15/06/2018 14:24

Lost the roller coaster of emotions is perfectly normal and giving in to them is just going to happen. But don't let it get the better of your making plans. Sorry if I've missed it, I know you've told his parents, but have you confided in anyone who can support you?

Have they given you a prognosis or an expected release date yet? You need to have seen an attorney well in advance of his discharge.

Lozzie12 · 15/06/2018 19:26

So sorry for you op and your children. Wishing you strength for the coming weeks / months.

sparklepops123 · 15/06/2018 21:10

Your going through emotions like grief- shock, anger,trying to process information.one day at a time 💐

RideOn · 15/06/2018 22:23

Wishing you strength and courage Flowers

trojanpony · 15/06/2018 22:26

Wishing you strength and courage Flowers

Me too.

CaledonianQueen · 19/06/2018 19:10

Hi Lost, I just want to say that I am still thinking of you! I hope that you and your kids are doing as well as possible!

Monkee4 · 19/06/2018 19:13

Gosh Fizzy that's a lot to do at a time like this not sure you can do all that - emptying bank accounts without passwords etc etc?
All your advice re friends is good too but in my experience friends disappear anyway at times of divorce/separation - not sure why - hope I am wrong.

I do totally agree with your advice about talking to his parents, spot on things to say - absolutely right way to say them too

Monkee4 · 19/06/2018 19:16

Sorry didn't wish that to sound so negative about friends Ignore it. I actually found that when I went to look for a house, sort out a new mortgage/loan, inevitably my recent split would come into the conversation and so often the other person would say - me too, I am going through it, I know exactly what it is like... it was a comfort to me and I felt that there were lots of people in my situation.

LeeBee11 · 19/06/2018 19:32

I'm sorry OP what a horrible situation for you to be it. What a bastard!! Hope you and you children and ok Thanks

LostwithSawyer · 19/06/2018 21:17

Thank you for all the message.
His mother is being a complete bitch but this is no surprise.
I knew the support speech would change as soon as her baby boy was at her house.
He is saying he will continue to pay for everything. Won't see us in any trouble he's done wrong etc. Hmm let's see how long this lasts.
So me and the children are starting a new daily routine. It's hard but we will get there.

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Thebluedog · 19/06/2018 21:20

You will get there OP Flowers

MyNameIsNotSteven · 19/06/2018 21:22

Who gives a shit what his mum thinks, OP? Honestly if his parents can't raise him to be decent they can support you or do one now.

How are your DCs bearing up? Suppose you can't see the OW for dust.

AcrossthePond55 · 19/06/2018 21:23

So he's been discharged to his parent's home, then? Good. And I'll bet OW has skedaddled.

Just rise above MiL as long as he keeps his end of the bargain and pays the bills. He owes you that, big time.

stressedoutpa · 19/06/2018 21:33

Just rise above it op. You are doing so well.

Quantumblue · 19/06/2018 22:01

You will get better days OP.

BewareOfDragons · 19/06/2018 22:07

Ignore her.

She can't be outwardly angry with her own son and let him have it, so she's taking it out on you. Not your problem. Ignore, ignore, ignore.

CaledonianQueen · 19/06/2018 22:30

She is bitter! She expects you to be a martyr and is angry that you are not just forgetting about it and taking care of her son. Likely she has ignored several affairs her husband has had over the years and is angry you are not playing the dutiful wife like she has. She doesn’t want to have to wipe her sons backside but tough, why should you spend your days taking care of the personal care of a man who prior to his stroke had absolutely zero care for you as his wife! She should be able to apply to social care for an assessment and personal care for him!

Would he care for you in a similar situation? No he wouldn’t he has already proved that!

How old are your dc? I worry that your MIL will imply that you are being cruel to their Dad. Are they old enough to have been told, or to tell an age appropriate version of why you have split?

I take it the harlot has disappeared, to never be heard from again?

Summersorcherisjustsummer · 20/06/2018 00:12

You haven't wrecked anything what a hideous awful shock.

Summersorcherisjustsummer · 20/06/2018 00:42

Read the thread and I'm astonished how many people have similar stories to tell Shock

Kathulu · 20/06/2018 09:37

OP what a terrible way to find out about the affair renewing, that on it's own would shake you to the core, but then to have a potentially life changing experience too. I hope you're getting the real life support you need.

Is the OW also in a relationship- it may explain the backpedaling "mainly friendship?"

Thanks
Churrolicious · 20/06/2018 19:10

Don’t let your mum in law get you down OP. She’s clearly just upset because she’s got to look after her recuperating waste of space son at home now.

sparklepops123 · 20/06/2018 21:00

Good for you lost,do what's best for you and the dc 💐

ziggiestardust · 21/06/2018 15:03

MIL has suddenly realised you’re serious, and he’ll be with them for the foreseeable, that’s why she’s being a bitch.