to have lost the will to live

[lovelystar]

Someone please give me some advice or something, anything to take my mind of how fuming I am.

I am being induced tomorrow at 11am, boyfriend went for a pint with a friend, fine, said he'd be back by 12, fine, gives me a chance to bath/clean/chill.

It's now 3am he has just stumbled in absolutely steaming, rang the doorbell constantly, waking me up even though he had his keys on him. He's been sick in the bedroom/bathroom knocking everything over. To top it all off I'm now on the sofa as he's diagonal across the bed snoring his head off and he's far to heavy for me to move him.

You know any other night I may have found it slightly amusing and left him to it. I just wanted tonight of all nights to not be woken up and kept awake and having to get up early to clean up all his sick before I come home with the baby. He will be a nightmare to get up in the morning and I don't think I can face the dramatics and moodiness of him when I have to get up and go and have a baby.

Would I be a complete bitch if I left him to it and went and had the baby myself and made him regret it for a long time. Or is that a step too far? It's my first baby and a high risk pregnancy. Sorry for the rant it's early/late and I'm angry.

Don't worry op, you'll be absolutely fine. Most people I know didn't know how to change a nappy or hold a baby before they had theirs. The midwives are great and will help show you how.

Good luck, hope everything is going ok

I felt exactly the same OP. My labour was pretty quick once the contractions set in and I'd been so preoccupied with getting things going that I overlooked the after part. I was on the ward with my daughter and she woke up and wanted feeding and I didn't have a clue. Like PP have said, the midwives are amazing and they will show you anything you need to know. They really are fantastic. Fingers crossed for you x

Wheat a fanny !
Good luck I was induced with my wee boy you'll be fine :)

Good luck op!! Hope today's the day (and that your arsehole of a DP stays away!!). Is your mum coming today?

Good luck OP xx

Is your mum coming soon? It would be better to have the support especially if you end up needing a c section

@lovelystar .. I hadn't held a baby let alone changed a nappy before . I also had a tricky labour . The midwives were so nice to me and cared for dd for the first 24 hours . Just let them know . X

I was put in a side room after I had dd, not on a ward. I didn’t have a bloody clue. I spent the night staring at her in amazement and then the nurse came in the morning and said erm excuse me you need to feed her haha oops. Poor dd went 7 hours after birth without being fed as she just stayed asleep. Even her first baby grow didn’t fit as she was too long for all the newborn stuff so I ended up putting a spare if brought on her with a completely non matching hat. Hilarious pictures to look at now!!
Me and nappies?! Not a clue, the amount of times I put them on back to front. You’ll be fine op you really will but it can be terrifying in these moments of self doubt.

Ask for help constantly and don’t pretend everything’s ok. It’s ok not to be ok.
Plus my partner was rubbish. I am someone who also wish I was alone for the birth. After banging on about how if I’d have just pushed properly the baby would have come out sooner, he just took endless pictures of my down belows and baby instead of just the blimmin baby. I ended up with much nicer selfies eventually
All the best

Good luck with the birth OP. You can do this on your own if necessary, better that than whilst supporting a giant man child.

Good luck OP. Hope your mum is being supportive and you are well on the way to holding baby star, if not already.

Op my dh had never held a baby til we had ds and he is the most amazing parent!! Sure you will be too!! Good luck!!

Hope things are going well OP! Xx

Have been watching since page 1 and now delurking to say Good Luck. Not long till you have that squishy babe in your arms 😍

Hopefully won't be much longer now OP.. good luck x

Good luck, I'm excited for you!

Hope things are moving along!!
Many of us start out as parents complete novices.parenting is mostly a learn on the job experience

Hope things are going well and that your mum is with. You will soon be cuddling your little one xx

Wishing you a safe delivery and that you soon get a hug from your Mum. The rest can be dealt with after you get that squishy infant in your arms. Don't fret about nappies - they're a doddle. :-)

Good luck OP. No-one knows how to be a parent before they are one. You will work it out very quickly once you have that little one in your arms.

Hope everything is going ok

Hope you have your lovely baby now op!

I have a beautiful baby boy born 7oz 7 pounds and is perfect in every way :) about 7 hours in labour all together, mum there for some of it, partner has met little one as he asked nicely not sure where life goes from here but I'm looking foward to our adventures

Yay!!! Congratulations OP and welcome to the world babystar

Congratulations! Well done and enjoy the high. Everything will get sorted out.

Huge congratulations to you lovelystar, enjoy your first few mummy days, I hope the future holds good things for you both

Congratulations op

Take each day as it comes right now, enjoy your baby he is what is important