feel so down 
and i know im going to get roasted for posting this.
Oh and I have been together 10 years. We have a house , pets and a new dc to add to the family 
. We rarely argue and can honestly say he's my best friend and knows everything about me.
His previous relationship he was engaged but it all fell apart - thankfully or we wouldnt have our life we have just now. They were together a few years before he popped the question.
I hate the fact i have a different surname from dc. I feel like an outsider in my own family. We've talked about marriage and both want it - its more than a name change to me.
I just don't think it is ever going to happen and it just makes me sad.
I guess my aibu is - - ambi wrong to feel like this?