Pretending to be asleep to see what DH will do.

[pinksugarmouse]

So I pretend I'm asleep to see if DH will masturbate, I don't know why - it triggered when I had HG and was too ill for sex, he's never actually done anything in all these times but I lay there stiff as a mouse and each time he moves my heart starts thudding so hard like 'here we go' till sometimes I have to pretend I've had a bad dream because I actually cannot breathe.

Very odd and a bit... erm salacious

I feel a bit grubby now.

I do wonder if the OP was expecting lots of jolly replies sharing stories of wanking DHs, rather than the "seek help" responses they got.

OP, this is a serious case of OCD. You've been doing this for so long you cannot stop. You need to seek help.

Maybe she vanished because tonight was the night he decided to get lucky with himself

Cue her shouting "Gotcha" him jumoing 6ft in the air and banging his toe on the bedside table and now there sitting in A&E trying to explain in.

I doubt it but it has made me chuckle thinking about it

Just want to add this:
but I lay there stiff as a mouse
Are mice known for being stiff? The ones I know generally run around a lot and squeak.
Or is it a computer mouse? I guess they are hard at least.

grumpy

Maybe she meant still as a mouse? Like when they see you've seen then and you freeze in that " please don't run my way" moment

Maybe op meant quiet as a mouse and stiff as a board!

I think there doing it wrong

PMSL meow

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Is it just me who sees a similarity in the posting style to the thread from the woman who went into a trance during sex with her husband, whom she was enthralled with? Is that you OP?

I really don't understand the problem here.

Sorry but this is funnier than the op whose husband used to put vibrating sex toys up his bum.

It's anxiety, you would feel a million times better if you took an SSRI for a few months.
Honestly, it isn't real, it's exhausting, some of us get it, just go to your GP and ask for help.

Go to your GP and ask for help.

I wonder if something happened to you when you were a child? Would it help to talk to someone like a rape crisis counsellor?

I actually kind of understand what you mean OP, although not in exactly the same way. It's hard to explain, but when I suffered something similar, it was caused by an extremely sexually abusive relationship I had been in for a long time previously. I also get similar (but not the same) feelings when DH has had a lot to drink, and the anxiety is excruciating.

I would seriously advise seeing your gp. It's actually been attributed to a symptom of my ptsd.

Could it be like OCD / repeatedly intrusive thoughts? They come in a number of shapes and sizes and some people need CBT to stop them. It's an anxiety thing - not really about what the thought is - just the intrusive nature of it. Might be worth Googling it.

you could try dismissing the thought as just this (if possible) no matter how many times you think it until you feel calmer and try to rationalise it in your head as a form of OCD rather than feeding the anxiety by listening to it. Or seek some help with it.

YABVVVVU. Is it really your business if he does??? You don't own him. He ain't a goat you bought!!!! and it is disrespecting your DH to be putting such info online. Grow up!

So you're lying there stiff, not moving and pretending to sleep while posting here? Good job.

That was a seriously bad trolling.

Dont worry op, I was also an insecure basket case when pregnant! I used to be convinced that my husband was about to leave me :)

Weird. Very.

Any chance you are developing a fetish OP?

Is it thrilling and exhilarating or a more sinister feeling?

I think it sounds like anxiety more than some strange fetish, I don't think people should be making jokes on this thread TBH

Was that for me Aye?
I'm not making a joke, all fetishism seems weird to others that's why they are niche and not mainstream.

A secret voyeuristic thrill isn't a bad thing.