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I nearly killed myself today

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PepsiTwirl · 25/08/2014 23:48

Really sorry but put here for traffic.

I put it in mental health a couple of hours ago but noone responded.

I was going to kill myself , but just as I was about to take tablets, my partner walked in.

DP knows I'm having a hard time, but not this hard.

We spoke for abit, and cried together. DP now asleep and need to talk

(I added a symbol to a random thread to make sure name change had worked)

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Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 00:09

DP has struggled with this today.

Had a bottle of wine and has gone to bed, not the best thing to do, but guess is struggling

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anonacfr · 26/08/2014 00:09

Please please call someone.

Keep posting here as well if it helps.

Stopanuary · 26/08/2014 00:09

Samaritans service is completely confidential, non judgemental and is there to help anybody suffering emotional distress.

The volunteers are trained to help you talk about how you're feeling but won't offer any advice.

DonkeysDontRideBicycles · 26/08/2014 00:10

Just in case you are worrying about somehow wasting people's time, please don't. Do not minimise how you feel.Talk to the Samaritans they will listen.

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 00:11

I feel calm and scared at the same time

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judypoops · 26/08/2014 00:12

Pepsi, please go to a & e, they won't section you, they will give you something to make you feel better,

anonacfr · 26/08/2014 00:12

What are you scared about?

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 00:14

Scared about if it will hurt

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Namechngedforthis · 26/08/2014 00:14

If you do this now. Your DP will never forgive himself. His life will be ruined by the thought that he was asleep whilst you were dying. If he's the only one that knows about this he will see it as his responsibility. Please share this burden and talk to someone now. You don't have to divulge any personal details to the Samaritans, please call them.

judypoops · 26/08/2014 00:15

Do you think you can ring 111? They are so lovely and will help you. Xx

likklemum · 26/08/2014 00:15

Please speak to someone- either your DP or The Samaritans. Anything is going to be better than putting your DP through the pain of not being worth staying for. Your DP won't ever get over it. Ever.
But you CAN get better. It seems like a huge black hole at the moment and you're going to need some support getting out of it. But you can get there if you just give yourself a chance. Wake your DP and have a cuddle- that would be a great start.

MyPrettyToes · 26/08/2014 00:17

These feeling you aer having are temporary. Ride them out with us here or with the the help of someone from the Samaritans or a&e. They are temporary. I promise they will pass. You just need to speak to someone now.

triplets · 26/08/2014 00:17

Please please dont.........what in your life is causing you to wan to end it? By posting on here I believe you are asking for help to live.........not to die. I have been in a dark place, I have sat on my kitchen floor with a bottle of pills an wanted to not be here anymore. I didnt take them, my beautiful only child had collapsed and died in my garden, 14 yrs old.......thats all he had 14 years. I owed I to him to go on, everyone was in shock, in pain I couldn`t add to that. How ever bad things are one day you will feel the sun on your face and be glad you are alive. You matter, you are here now..............please stay. xxxx

AlpacaYourThings · 26/08/2014 00:18

OP, I have been where you are now.

Please listen to the other posters who have said to call The Samaritans.

I promise you, there is another side to this. You can be happy even though it doesn't seem like that now.

anonacfr · 26/08/2014 00:19

Try to stay scared if it keeps you from doing something extreme.

Someone very close to me killed himself ten years ago, he was my best friend and I think of him every day. I am gutted that he never saw my kids and I miss his advice and humour. Every time I watch a rugby game I think of him. Every time I listen to Ben Harper I think of him. You might not realise but you mean a hell of a lot to people who know you.
Please don't dismiss that.

gobbynorthernbird · 26/08/2014 00:19

Wake DP. Both of you go to A&E where you can get urgent help. It will get better, but you have to be assertive and ask for medical assistance.

womblesofwestminster · 26/08/2014 00:20

Wake your DP. Do it NOW

judypoops · 26/08/2014 00:20

Your dp loves you so much. There is a way out of this and you will feel better, Pepsi, in fact please call 999 and tell them how you are feeling- please tell us how you are xxx we are here and we care xxx

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 26/08/2014 00:21

Yer, I guess by posting here I'm asking for help but I don't really know what I'm asking for help for. I want the pain to stop, for everything to go away

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Dontgotosleep · 26/08/2014 00:22

Pepsi. I am so sorry that your previous post was ignored. How rude, but I suppose people are fearful of saying the wrong thing.
Your partner walked in for a reason and it saved your life. There could be something wonderful planned for you. I am not religious but I believe in fate and that God or whatever you believe in made your D.P walk in at the right moment. Have you visited your G.P.
It may not seem like it now, but the light at the end of the tunnel will be there.
Love and support, sweetheart.. xx

Spartak · 26/08/2014 00:22

Please wake your DP up.

anonacfr · 26/08/2014 00:23

Asking for help is the first step. It's a positive move. Have you woken your DP? Have you tried calling anyone?

AlpacaYourThings · 26/08/2014 00:23

And you can't do that on your own, let someone else help you Pepsi

judypoops · 26/08/2014 00:24

I've been where you are, I thought I'd never feel better but I do now- just one day at a time and we will be here. Where are you in the house? Can you make a cup of tea? Is dp still asleep? Xx

Septbaby · 26/08/2014 00:24

That's a good thing, you don't have to have the answers, but posting is a good start. We've all said it but talking to someone is the best thing you can do right now, can you make a call? Your DP will not mind at all being woken up, you need them, wake them up and just be together. Xxx

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