Active discussions

Meet the Other Phone. Child-safe in minutes.

Meet the Other Phone.
Child-safe in minutes.

Buy now

Please or to access all these features

Talk
AIBU?

Share your dilemmas and get honest opinions from other Mumsnetters.

Original poster

I nearly killed myself today

476 replies

PepsiTwirl · 25/08/2014 23:48

Really sorry but put here for traffic.

I put it in mental health a couple of hours ago but noone responded.

I was going to kill myself , but just as I was about to take tablets, my partner walked in.

DP knows I'm having a hard time, but not this hard.

We spoke for abit, and cried together. DP now asleep and need to talk

(I added a symbol to a random thread to make sure name change had worked)

OP posts:
Aeroflotgirl · 04/09/2014 00:36

Hi Pepsi just checking in. Sorry not been around for a while, mum is ill with a bug and so are the kudos, so been up to my eyes in puke ewwwww. How are you feeling?

triplets · 04/09/2014 23:54

and me.......popping my head round the door to say hello, hope you are doing ok........all will be well Pepsi if you let it. A xx

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 05/09/2014 00:52

Really stressed right now.

OP posts:
mummylin2495 · 05/09/2014 00:54

Do you want to talk to someone ?

anonacfr · 05/09/2014 21:15

Are you ok? Please let us know.

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 05/09/2014 23:39

I'm ok

OP posts:
Beansprout30 · 05/09/2014 23:49

Hi pepsi, just read this thread from start to finish. How are you? I'm just thinking of going to bed but wanted to say hi and that I hope you are doing ok xx

Beansprout30 · 06/09/2014 00:06

Can talk for a bit if you like?

triplets · 06/09/2014 00:28

I am here Pepsi, nursing the mother of all headaches :( Just had 5 friends round for supper, book club night, bit of a struggle but it was good. Dh has just gone mad, I had lit some night lights on a shelf at the back of the table, it has burnt the back of one of my leather chairs, quite badly, my fault really. My poor friend who was sitting there felt awful, not her fault. I know its a shame but not her fault, I put the night light there. Its a chair, replaceable...............as long as its not my children, my cat or my photos!
Are you at home for the w/end Pepsi, was it a long week? My head........:(

HVB79 · 06/09/2014 01:11

Hi Pepsi, I also found your thread tonight. Wanted to let you know that someone else is thinking of you, and so sorry for what you went through as a child. Have you thought any more about sharing what happened with a close friend or family member? Please look after yourself.

triplets · 06/09/2014 23:12

Hello Pepsi.........just me popping in to see how you are? Hope you are having a nice weekend. xx

Beansprout30 · 07/09/2014 20:54

Hoping pepsi is ok x

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 14/10/2014 17:30

THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE Biscuit Biscuit Biscuit Biscuit Thanks Thanks

OP posts:
Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 06/12/2014 23:08

Nearly Christmas everyone :) ð???ð???

OP posts:
misskangaandroo2014 · 06/12/2014 23:13

Smile that's nice to see.

WhitePhantom · 07/12/2014 00:13

Just found this thread, have read it start to finish. I'm so glad you're still with us Pepsi Smile How have you been over the last few months - have things got better for you? I really really hope so.

Triplets, I'm so sorry for the loss of your lovely son Matthew. That must have been devastating beyond words Sad

Haveimiscarried · 07/12/2014 01:50

Pepsi, have been thinking about you when Ive seen your name pop up on other threads since this one. Hope you are doing okay at the moment.

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 07/12/2014 01:51

It's been tough..
Some days worse than others

But over them few days when I felt like there was nothing worth living for, the people on here, picked me up and made me Carry on.
And here I am.
I literally owe these lovely people my life
xx

OP posts:
Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 07/12/2014 02:05

Me and "DP" have been having problems and we have broke up, which is a struggle every day! Missing someone when they are sitting next to you is hard!
Especially as we are still in the same house, for various reasons, and can't move on

OP posts:
Haveimiscarried · 07/12/2014 02:05

The people here are amazing. I was in a similar situation about 18 months ago and I wish I'd known about MN then. You always know someone is here for you no matter what time of day!

(I think we are in the same kind of profession and I don't know about you, but I don't feel I can talk to people in RL about it as they will assume I'm unfit for my job)

Haveimiscarried · 07/12/2014 02:06

Oh that's tough.. Any chance of moving out in the near future?

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 07/12/2014 02:11

Not yet, not for a couple of months.. Gonna be tough, but Hay, nearly Christmas

Yes, ur right.. (Not fit for work) But completely am x

OP posts:
Haveimiscarried · 07/12/2014 02:17

Do you have a nice Christmas Day planned to look forward to?

Original poster
PepsiTwirl · 07/12/2014 02:22

Kinda... Busy. which helps.. U?

OP posts:
Monkeymarbles · 07/12/2014 05:24

Yes you go to A&E and they will ask the on call psych dr or nurse to see you. If you feel you can't cope and can't phone Samaritans please do this. Can you get there? You can phone 999 if you need someone to come to the house.
Can you wake DP and talk to him?
Thinking of you, the early hours of the morning are the darkest time, especially when you already feeling suicidal