To ask a bunch of stranger to help me with a horrible decision

[BeenVeryStupid]

I've been a complete idiot. I have a 14 month old daughter, am a single parent with very little help from ex.
I had my first night out since having DD 4 weeks ago, and got very drunk and had a one night stand. We used a condom but I'm not on any other contraception as I've been single since having DD and wasn't expecting anything to happen. I am still breastfeeding and irregular periods but I did a test today as I've just not been feeling right and it's positive.

I feel like a complete idiot, DD wasn't planned, and I have managed to do the same thing again. I am completely against abortions, I know I will regret it for the rest of my life and will feel like I have killed my own child.
But I know I have to have one, I can't bring up 2 children, on my own. I can't go through with the pregnancy knowing I will be a single parent again. At least with DD I was in a relationship with her dad during most of the pregnancy.

I'm terrified of having an abortion and dealing with the feelings after.
I don't know how I'm going to be able to look at newborn babies ever again without thinking about the abortion.

She regrets it to this day

I thought I would feel the same when I had an abortion, actually it was sad but 100% the right descion. No regrets.

I used to be absolutely against abortions - you can probably find some old posts of mine on here from a few years back saying as much - but since having my own daughter and raising her I've realised how bloody hard having a much wanted child is, so my views have softened. I still don't think it's a decision to be taken lightly (but to be honest - who does?)

Nice to read this, goat

GOOD LUCK OP

go see a trained counsellor and they will help you decide whats the best way

abortion is not to be taken lightly, and yes even if it is the right decision you might well have some remorse and sadness afterwards. Despite it being the "right thing" for some, many, people it still hurts.

and yes you might be wobbly for a few months, but the pain will pass.

But I think the main issue is you are "completely against abortions", this is a very strong view

go see someone and talk it through

sending best wishes xxxxx

I would have an abortion if it was me

I don't think the extreme opinions on either end of the scale are going to help here.

People are, naturally, projecting.

Some are very clearly pro-life, some have had three terminations and obviously don't think it's that big a deal (not a judgement just a point that it means vastly different things to different people.)

I'm no good to you, I had my views coloured a long time ago and I don't want to project.

I just wanted to say that nobody here can really help you reach a decision. It has to be yours and yours alone. But continued support will always be found here.

I had an abortion many years ago, it was fine - no regrets or stress after. I appreciate that not everyone feels the same - you have to do what is right for you and your daughter in this situation.