Thanks again for all the kind words of support, I am very touched and I am sure my girls are looking down and are thankful too!
It has been a very tough day! Full of tears, sadness, memories and some smiles!
I worked this morning, finished at lunch time and went to the hospital chapel. There I lit a candle for both girls! I said a little prayer for each, and I just sat and thought for a while! I watched the candle flicker, and tried to imagine what my girls would of looked like, if they were here today! I then thought about the day they were born, the feeling of overwhelming love I felt for them, when I held them in my hands! Those tiny but perfect girls! My daughters! My angel babies! I rememebered that day as if it were yesterday, I rememeber wishing they would open there eyes, wishing I could hear them cry, just once! Wishing they could hear me, when I told them I loved them, and that I was sorry!
I had taken 2 balloons with me to the chapel, I took them into the peace garden with me! My plan was to release them there! But it didn't feel right! I was too upset, and it wasn't them I was remembering 
So I went for a walk! I decided to go to a park! A beautiful park with a pond and some ducks, perfect!! This would of been where I would of taken my girls, they would of loved watching the ducks, and feeding them! So I sat on a bench in the beautiful sunshine (yes it suddenly cleared up this afternoon) and just watched as people passed by! I thought long and hard about what I wanted to tell my girls! When I finally found the words I slowly let go of the ribbons that held the balloons. I watched as they went high up into the sky, tears streaming down my cheeks. But I felt that they had heard my words and that they understood how much they meant to me and how much I love them!
As I walked back to the house, I thought about how lonely I felt, but then I thought about how lucky I am! I may not be in a great place right now, but I am in a better place than I was 2years ago, and although my babies didn't make it into this world! They brought me so much! They made me a mum, and I feel like the luckiest person in the world! Because I was given the opportunity to have two angels in my life. I may not be a mum in some people's eyes. But in my heart, I know I am and always will be mummy to two very very special girls!
I'd just like to send love, support and best wishes to all the other parents of Angel babies! They are all very special and they are all watching over us! Xxxxxxxxxxx