Day 1

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I posted another thread earlier about my disaster of a Christmas Day.

I just can't do it anymore, looking into the future I can see myself losing everything, my DH, friends, family. I was considering taking myself to a&e this morning because I was such a mess.

I'm absolutely determined to do it this time, so this is day 1.

Please join me.

Urgh Friday and I would normally be looking forward to a glass (bottle) of wine. Feeling miserable about it but determined

Hi all so I have to be honest. I had a couple of drinks at the festival but they had no alcohol free beer and pop was just getting too sugary. I had a couple on Friday and four (one was shandy) on Saturday but that was it through the whole day. I didn't even really like them much. I'm not counting it either as I was at a festival, couldn't take the non alcoholic ones in that I had bought and was sick of pop and water lol. I don't want any more.

Hope I can still inspire you. That's the first time in 7 months so hey

I think that's bloody good @teaandtoastwithmarmite ! We go on hols in a few weeks and my partner is under the impression l'll be back on the booze during the hol. I wasn't sure if I was comfortable with that - do I want to drink? Should I drink? Is it a failure? Then I listened to Sober Stories podcast episode 4 and I liked the lady's approach. Basically she's not saying she's never drinking again, just assessing each situation and does it benefit her.

podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/sober-stories-from-everyday-people/id1629606761?i=1000568849564

I’m on day one today (again!). I can’t say never to myself so I’m very much a day at a time.

Thank you @Bizzywater it really annoyed me my well meaning sil going on about how she didn't know how I didn't have a drink but it's for the best as I'm unpredictable. I wanted to say well actually I did lol.

We're also on holiday AI in a couple of weeks and I don't know if I will drink.

@Haggisfish3 you do what you can x

Checking in. Day 12 today. Although my app says day 11 as it the day isn't over yet. Cravings seem to have gone but let's see how Friday goes
@Haggisfish3 can we help with anything?

A giggle this morning. A huge delivery van pulled up outside my house and I was wondering what the heck I had ordered when drunk. But I remembered I've stopped drinking so I didn't need to panic ! Haha I must be saving loads of money!

Hey guys! One week sober today! Feeling the benefits again already.

Been doing some heavy gardening so I've been sleeping well surprisingly!
waiting for my food shop to be delivered then my youngest wants to sort through toy mountain and find stuff for charity which is good. I've got a lot more energy than normal but my back and feet are killing!

dhs results came back and he is 100% cancer free now he's had his op 😀

I had my internal scan and I've got a cyst on my ovarie which they think is causing the pain all the time with the endo.
Im being rescanned in October.

Bit miffed at the doctors though, I rang for my blood test results at the end of June (before my scan) and the receptionist told me all clear, no action. Then I rang to get the next scan sorted and they told me they sent me a text two weeks ago saying my white blood cell count was too high on the bloods when they rechecked them! I haven't had a mobile phone for ten years! (Part of the agoraphobia/ anxiety). I don't know what that means 🤔 glad it wasn't the liver test though! 😅

So enjoying being back on the sober wagon! Must nearly be time for a new thread.

@teaandtoastwithmarmite those drinks definitely didn't count! And great moderation!
@Bizzywater congratulations on your twelve days 🎉

Hello
Can I join you all? Need to take check of my drinking as it is getting far too much. Bottle of wine a night 4/5 nights a week sometimes more than a bottle. Health issues recently have really made me question this. Blood test results came back with a vitamin deficency which obviously the drink isnt helping so I am on to day 3 sober! Not sure how long I want to be sober for but I am starting with a week as it seems managable before looking forwards. Have tried before but cant seem to get past day 4. Hope everyone is well.

Hello all! Well done on your days sober! I’m back to day 1… again! Every sober day is a sober day though.

Hi everyone!
@SummerScoop I take a vitamin b12 tablet everyday now as I heard alcohol really depletes this. Welcome on board! Are you feeling any better after your three days? Clearer headed or anything? I bloody love not having a hangover.

@Haggisfish3 everyone has a day one! Many in my case. But im finding longer stretches of sobriety easier each time. I haven't had a craving yet though and I know it will come and be brutal but I've rode them out before and I can do it again. I've got loads of cold cans of coke in the fridge, wordsearches, downloaded films.and got my quit lit. I also can only say one day at a time.

@Haveatakeaway I'm enjoying no hangover! I waste so much of the day feeling hungover and then regretting drinking the night before seems to be all I think about the following morning. I've started reading of a night time again which I never do after a drink.

@Haggisfish3 the longer stretches of sobriety are still a step in the right direction. You are still drinking less and one of them will stick! That why I am just aiming for a week. It seems more realistic than thinking about a month or forever. Then when next week comes I can start again.

Welcome @SummerScoop - your drinking sounds a lot like mine.
Well done @Haveatakeaway!

I agree, @Haggisfish3 every day counts.

I was on day 14 today, but after a mentally and emotionally hard couple of days, I called at the shop and bought wine. And had some with dinner. It didn't taste nice and I didn't enjoy it

I feel annoyed to be day 1 again. I feel like the previous 14 days should count for something (like I said to haggisfish). I have done lots to educate myself and find alternative coping strategies, so maybe it's day 14b

Well I was at a week but I'm exhausted, brought the kids out for tea, (why didn't I just bung some pizzas in the oven?!) It's really busy and we've been waiting 40 mins just for kids food (2x Mac and cheese) as were not hungry and I'm on my second vodka and coke what a great sober stretch 😐

Actually it's not as bad as I asked for it in a pint glass filled with coke, it is not nice 😂

@Haveatakeaway it's funny. I didn't enjoy those beers and was taking that long to drink I poured bits away

And thank you. By the way I have endometriosis in cysts on my ovaries so I know what that's like

Struggling a little tonight, had a lovely tea and the footballs on. So tempting to open the wine and have a glass or two. Made myself a cup of tea instead.

Hey, day one for me again!!! I really need to give up, have bloods next week or was even thinking of changing it to the week after and having a longer spell off wine, fearing results ! Scan booked for September on abdomen and pelvis , always have discomfort on right side , from c section scar to under rib , maybe drink related , not sure but need to look into it. Hope everyone is doing well. I'm hoping to make a fresh start but just definitely taking it day by day!!! So many attempts , can't see myself sticking to it !

@stoppingnow Day by day is good. But think about how your brain will react if you tell yourself "can't see myself sticking to it!"? Does that thought serve you? Or will it act as a kind of permission slip to the brain that you're going to end up giving up again? ...

@brightspice yes it's probably the wrong way of looking at it. But just kind of mean I can only go day by day and just hope it gets easier as the time goes on.

I feel horrendous today. Did I really feel like this all the time. Feeling really positive that me and alcohol are done for good.
How are you @Haveatakeaway ?