Morning all. Massive well done everyone, big pat on the back, it's the 27th of January, and whether we've abstain for the whole month, or a few days, or had a blip, we've all made a great effort. It's a big thing to realise and acknowledge to ourselves that our drinking isn't where we want it to be.
It's been a long journey for me. I started Dry Jan 2 years ago and failed. Failed many periods of trying to abstain. Did 19 days dry last year after I drunk way too much and ended up ranting gibberish at my husband. But then was back to my old ways. I've always been a drinker but it's definitely crept up the last few years.
I've actually found doing Dry January this time around … I don't want to say easy, but a lot easier than I thought, and somehow more enjoyable than I thought? I guess being in lockdown there's not the social pressure or temptations. Being in lockdown is so shit I've thought adding alcohol into it definitely wouldn't help. I've had a few moments for sure when I could have broken the wine open but I've made sure there's none in the fridge, and I just take a big sip of soft drink and distract myself, and find the feelings and cravings pass quite quickly.
Journalling has helped too I think, just writing feelings and thoughts down. I get random repressed memories now that I have to write down. If I feel angry or hurt, I just feel it … and it passes … I don't have to numb it out with booze. And reading quit lit has helped too. No Eureka moment for me, but all small parts of the puzzle.
Today, I think I can finish Dry Jan. And as February starts on a Monday, I'm not going to crack then. I want to start with good patterns and intent. I'd love to stay on a Dry 100/Moderators thread, I think it would really help us all.
I feel ridiculously proud of myself for getting this far, which seems a bit sad really?! Still haven't lost any blooming weight - still snarfing the chocolate though!
Well done, one and all. For any lurkers, or blippers, or if you've finished Dry Jan, that includes you. I've flirted with Dry months and sobriety for a few years, I guess this month has just been the right one for me.