Im having my baby adopted....is it the right thing to do?

[changedid]

I've just found out that I'm 18 weeks pregnant. I didnt know until now as Im still breastfeeding DD and wasnt having any periods anyway. I also have a DS who is 2.
I know in my heart that I wont be able to cope with another child. I have decided that adoption is my only option. I have spoken to my GP who told me to go away and think and come back next week for a chat to discuss my options. I dont see I have any other option.
Im not sure how other people will react to it though....i will be pregnant and not have a baby at the end of it. How do i explain that to people? My DP is upset but agrees that it is the best thing to do. can anyone understand my position? Will everyone think badly of me?

OOPS, sorry, posted without reading the FULL story, I'm so sorry about that, i think i just got all 'wound up' in the decision making process as it's so close to my heart.
Changedid, i am so, so very glad that you decided to keep Reuben. And what a lovely name. Don't feel bad about what you 'might' have done, that doesn't matter now, what matters is that you are a great mum and what matters is what you 'actually' did. I wish you all the very best and please come back if you need the support of us here on mn or even just for a chat if you feel blue. that's what this site is for. Everyone needs someone to lean on sometimes. Good luck and kisses to Reuben!

How are things now, changedid?

I have just discovered the 'adoption section' of MN. I read all of this thread with more than a few tears.
I was born to a 19yr old from a staunch catholic family in the 1960's. When mum found out she was pregnant she first went to a back street abortion 'clinic'. Fortunately, she lost her nerve.
When she told my grandparents, they sent her to a home nr Kendal where I was to be born and put up for adoption. She kicked up such a fuss that they let her keep me as long as she pretended that they had adopted me. When I was 3 she ran away with me. She had such a difficult time ( which certainly didn't end when she left with me-she ended up on valium!) and I am so very, very grateful
that she stuck it out. In a lot of ways, her life would have been so much easier without me but I love her bravery and I accept her frailty. I have 2 adopted children and a birth child... I love them all. I wish you and your family all the very best. XXXX