Exploding your life

[Implodeitall]

Been reading about the recent trend of 'midlife' women imploding their life. Feels very attractive to me right now, things are grim.

I'm 39, 2 young kids, corporate job, big earner and the main breadwinner, big house which I don't like, husband I don't like. DC having emotional/behavioural issues. Blame myself as I'm so stressed with work I'm never really in the room even when I am. Modern pressures of intensive parenting. Not sure how I ended up here but I want none of it (except the kids, but I want them to be happy). An endless treadmill of crap you can't get off. Has anyone actually escaped this?!

Yes I escaped. My marriage was a sham. And the icing on the cake was NO benefits being offered in the marriage apart from what I was doing in the house. I left with half of all assets. Sold everything. Got a new house , new single life is great. Scary at first, but fake it till you make it.. kids grow up and forget you anyway. Choose your moment well. Save money for legal expenses etc.. and new house etc..

I agree but where would you go? Asking because I live in Zurich, which is financially stable and crime is low but it’s so depressing and dull other than when you are in the mountains. I was thinking of returning to London but I worry about crime.

School Reception Staff, I max all the hours I can (£18k) and have a zero hours contract job which I do about 5 times a year at a local venue cleaning 5pm-8pm in the school holidays just for extra when I can.
Primary school jobs are mainly Reception, TA or Elsa. Secondary my friend works as a Food Tech technician and just helps students with basics ie set up, taking trays out of ovens and directing students. She told me a lot more support jobs in Secondary ie Reception, LSA (bit like a TA), and some better paid than others ie Student Support Staff, ELSA, Reprographics, Finance, IT, Cover Supervisor (unless you’re gregarious I would do LSA first for a year). Some you can get around £24-26 Look on eteach website.
You will need to like children and be patient. Primary are more energised, the older they get they start to slow down but the attitude often increases. Volunteer if you are not sure to confirm.
I bought house with higher salary then when I could I switched.

I agree and the exact same happened to me. I completely rethought my life and feel hugely better for it.

OP - as you are aware something substantial needs to change. It doesn't HAVE to be your marriage (a lot of people focus on this because it's a relatively "easy" target for our brains to blame stuff at least partly on the adult we are living and coparenting with).

I would as a first step seek out some good psychology podcasts and start listening on the way to work. I can recommend Dr David Burns Feeling Good.

This is the exhaustion speaking. Your first priority is to find ways to get more respite into your days. For YOU.