House is still a shithole. Pic included

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A few weeks or so back I posted pics of bedrooms in my house. They were a shithole. Me/kids have managed to keep the bedrooms tidy /reasonable.

But my stairs and living room are a mess. I could probably have it all sorted in a couple of hours. But it feels like the end of the world. I feel so drained. And even when i do start doing it something really silly can happen then I feel like giving up.

Or like a few weeks back I started feeling really positive. And got loads done . But after that period of positive cleaning. I won't get that feeling back for a while and just stop.

It should be really simple but it does not feel like it.

I only get a bath /shower once a week sometimes less. I could smell myself earlier and all I did was use baby wipes under my arms and a bit of deodorant.

Anyway I have added photos again . To Shame myself into actually cleaning up .

You've no need to feel guilty. Looking after your grandchildren 3 times a week is really good of you and many daughters with children would be so grateful to you to allow you that time for themselves.

Someone once described that to me as "inappropriate guilt" :) I think we women are particularly bad, or good at it. :)

I know it's a bit of a cliche but oxygen mask on yourself first. If you go under trying to take care of everyone else while you are ill yourself, then you won't be able to help anyone at all.

You've done a brilliant job this week btw. :)

Yeah I agree . That's kind of been the point of it as well I get stressed/tired/drained etc because of all the demands that are put on me. Not just from dd. Others to. Then that's having a knock on effect and basic stuff like my house is not getting sorted out properly.

Thank you . Its slowed down a bit .I have not really done what I intended to. I have found it hard to sleep. Keep waking 6/7 times a night then takes me 10/20 mins to get back to sleep.

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling to sleep. It's horrible and really wears you out ...

Just remember you've done an awful lot this weekend. It would be really hard to keep up that momentum without exhausting yourself even if you were fit and well and sleeping.

You look after yourself. xx

Echoing this.
There is a danger I will slip into overdrive if I have too much going on.
I'm moving the week after next, among other stresses!
I'm having to make time to relax (MN, music, telly) otherwise I could burn out.
I am on medication, so I don't have to worry about getting enough sleep. But I do sometimes top it up with a nap if I have to (which probably isn't an option for you).

No not really . I was looking forward to today then ds decided not to go on his course. He's been in my face all day. Snatching my phone, going on and on at me. Just being an arse. My ex is having the 3 younger kids over the weekend. So that will help

Having looked after a friend's DC who was hyperactive, while she was in hospital for a week, I have a very tiny idea of what that might be like.

He was a lovely kid, with learning difficulties but bright, IYSWIM, and has grown into a lovely young man who has an independent life with appropriate support.

I enjoyed having him there. But after only a week I was exhausted. I had to pay attention to him all the time, like a toddler. Every single minute.

Goodness knows what I would have been like if he had had to stay longer. I would have coped, but would certainly have been relieved when he was able to return home.

Apologies if I am wide of the mark.

He was tested for ADHD. But they said he was slightly below the testing. I'm not sure if I fully trust lt. They spoke to his old school but he had not been there in over 2 years. But it has to be in 2 settings so it was hard to do anyway .

3 youngest kids are away till Sunday. Teen ds is still here . I'm praying to God. He stays in bed all day tomorrow. I'm going to chill tonight. Just load dish washer little things like that . Do a bit of Xmas shopping on line

Hope you have a lovely chilled evening, you deserve it!

Have a good weekend OP.

I went 9 days without a take away . That's good for me. I orded greggs today. I orded a toastie but they sent a baguette. Which I can't eat. So ds has double food. And I have FA. Speak about instant karma 😭

I have been known to motivate myself to go out for a walk, by promising myself a Greggs cheese pasty and two sausage rolls.

Greggs is 5 minutes walk away

(Do eat something if you can. The only thing I could find to feed myself on the other day were the last 3 fish fingers, and the end of a lump of cheese. And so I can now report that fried fish fingers with melted cheese is lush.)

I Been eating crap all day. I ate 4 packets of crisps, about 6 oranges , and some choc. Then my food shop came and I ate more crap.

Fish and cheese sounds gross🤣

Carbs and a small amount of fat (crisps) = energy
Plenty of Vitamin C, and some fibre (oranges) = health and digestion
Some sort of chemical that makes your brain feel better (chocolate) = who cares, it's what I need!

My own meal today was frozen Hasselback potatoes, and leeks in cheese sauce.

I still have some chicken. Tikka from batch cooking that I could of had . But I was way to lazy.

I have never heard of hassle back poatoes