ADs picnic in the park with Twinkle the Tortoise

[ISaySteadyOn]

Thought it was my turn to start a thread.

Iheartmysmart We're in the same position with lockdown birthdays and driving test, DD's had been moved from Feb to July, but she needs the car for work really rather than having to rely on me and friends. She's not far off passing I don't think but needs a few lessons to just make sure she's doing the right things, so she'll get the app that notifies cancellations. She wanted to pass before she was 18 but that won't happen now. She's going to have a couple of friends round for her birthday though for cocktails.

I've been quiet also because of my mental health. I had an assessment this week and I'm apparently severely depressed and severely anxious so I've been put on a waiting list for treatment in three years or something. I do have a history of trauma, but I'd managed it all okay up until this year but now spending so much time alone and not being able to swim / gym has taken away all my coping mechanisms.

Hugs to all those struggling.

And thank you to the wise AD a couple of threads ago who reminded us that stress and anxiety responses are perfectly normal at the moment. To not be stressed or anxious during the gaslighting and mismanagement would be abnormal.

We are not crazy, the world is xx

We are not crazy, the world is xx

I used to look back on things that happened throughout history and thought WTF. I guess this will be another one in years to come.

@smallandimperfectlyformed

I am sorry, having a shit day today. My 4 year old told me that she doesn't like me and wants to have a nice mummy that is brown (she's mixed race, I'm white!). All because I didn't want to be watching her choice of TV all day. Finding everything a bit of a chore and wish that I was a different person who would cope better. Sorry you are fed up too wanderings it sucks

My 7 yo told me she hated me yesterday because I was trying to tuck her in her bed and made her brush her teeth.

I've been quiet because I have been keeping DH company while he plasters a wall and because I am on tenterhooks about school.

I wondered briefly yesterday if I might have PND, but decided I just have a perfectly normal reaction to having been under house arrest for a year. I am so fed up of the only place I can go with DD being a small bit of the outdoors (where it's generally too cold to feed her, so I have to come home before she gets hungry.) Need to talk to friend who is probably going to form our support bubble now that's finally allowed, but she's up to her ears with work and home schooling (and as we're in Wales and her kids aren't juniors she will be for some time yet).

I mean her kids aren't infants. I get confused about who is who as DD not at the age where I need to worry yet!

Good morning all and sorry to everyone who is feeling rubbish. I am going to be dying my hair today as my roots are about 99% white and I don't want to look really old on the school run- shallow I know but I am older than a lot of the other mums anyway! Need to get milk and butter today even though I went to Sainsbury's yesterday so will probably go to Lidl - I try not to go to the same shop 2 days in a row in case the staff judge me for going shopping too much! I hate the fact that silly things like forgetting milk make me feel like I am doing something awful. TabbyStar I am sorry that you are going to have such a long wait for therapy, that seems a ridiculous wait. 1110APiccadilly I did have PND with my first daughter and the thing that saved me more than anything else was the mother and baby groups I went to, having a baby is wonderful but can be isolating in the best of times so you have my sympathy that all of that support is taken away from you.

I'm sorry everyone is feeling glum. I've not been on here for a few days. I started reading a young adult dystopian trilogy. Been putting it off because dystopian is a bit too close to home at the moment! Anyway, it was excellent. Read them all over 5 days inbetween work and cooking.

Not a lot to report. We have masks for school pick up/drop off too. I make a point of only putting mine on as I enter the gate (not in the queue on the pavement outside) and removing it as soon as I get to the back gate. Total waste of time. Definitely a need to be 'seen' doing something.

Have been reading the thread but have had nothing to say really.

@TabbyStar I'm sorry to hear your diagnosis, & hope your intervention happens quicker than expected.

@110APiccadilly Another ex-PND sufferer here. I hope you can meet with your friend. It's hardly surprising that mums with new babies are struggling right now.

@smallandimperfectlyformed
I get it about the roots! It's not shallow. I have been doing mine (badly). My hair is now past its sell by date & I'm entering Old Bag territory. I think that in desperate times these little things really matter.

Morning from our namesake! Even she didn't want to come out of her shell this morning, and she doesn't even have to think about wearing a mask/ social distancing/ home schooling. Wish I was a tortoise.
Just heard from my daughter, we have to wear masks on drop off and pick up at school, they were going to start it in January but as they never went back it wasn't mentioned. Not keen but needs must I suppose, although I did point out we were outside so what's the point? I'll just pull my scarf up. It'll be interesting to see how many people do it as the school has a lot of parents who are "interesting," to say the least.

@wanderings

We are in a fucking abusive relationship with the government. Can nobody see that? They have DELIBERATELY taken away all our coping mechanisms, such as seeing each other, swimming. Even in wartime, people were not criminalised for seeing each other. They are DELIBERATELY stringing out unlocking to fuck with our minds even further. They are DELIBERATELY brainwashing us with a campaign of fear to keep us docile, terrified, and to stop us rioting. They are DELIBERATELY playing divide and conquer - now it's so that we fight over whether the deified NHS deserves the 1% pay rise. Why bring that up in when we're still in the plandemic pandemic? Despite the stupid roadmap, with no roads, and the only transport is horse and cart which may well break down on the way, there is still NO END IN SIGHT; because we know how much Saint Boris loves his U-turns. I've just had another bad night of not sleeping, because of all this worry about the dystopian future which Saint Boris and his merry men (and Mumsnet) are drooling over.

. Someone posted on the FWR board once about if you wrote about the government's tactics on the relationships board, you would be roundly told LTB. They were savagely dismissed.

My tiny bit of protest is to refer to 'lockdown' when people say the pandemic is causing X to happen.

I am struggling to get dressed today and having a bout of self loathing. I feel I am letting down my children and I know I need to pull myself together but I can't do it.

And I don't want to zoom with my Dementor family but I have to. By that I mean my parents though I think it's clear by now that DH is decidedly not a BD.

@ISaySteadyOn

I am struggling to get dressed today and having a bout of self loathing. I feel I am letting down my children and I know I need to pull myself together but I can't do it.

And I don't want to zoom with my Dementor family but I have to. By that I mean my parents though I think it's clear by now that DH is decidedly not a BD.

I'm in a similar position. I think I was putting everything into finishing home school and now I'm at a bit of a loss. My kids are downstairs on tablets and I'm running myself a bath and MNing. I just don't want to play mum anymore today.

I'd love to know what the dytopian trilogy was.

This was shared yesterday. Tone deaf? Trolling? Or inciting people to riot quietly and calmly get on with making sensible decisions for ourselves?

Just had a little panic at another thread about shopping before realising it was from this time last year when some people were actually disinfecting everything that came into the house. I’ve never done that and have lived to tell the tale.

@TabbyStar Here’s hoping our kids get their driving tests sorted soon. I’m sorry to hear your diagnosis as well .

Decided to colour my hair the other day as au naturel was a bit dull. Should probably have read the instructions as I now have bright pink hair. With my love of black clothes I look like a fat highlighter pen.

Our namesake is soooo cute!

Thanks for the good wishes. The three-year waiting list was hyperbole, I think it's more like six months to a year, by which time I hopefully won't be on my own nearly all day everyday, my DM will have some outside contact and won't rely on me so much for everything, my business will be up and running and I won't be getting annoyed and upset at no financial support, I'll have treatment for health issues that are put on hold, DD will be seeing her friends and won't be so miserable and I'll be able to go swimming and to the gym again, so I won't need it! I can see it's mostly situational, but doesn't help whilst I'm in it.

Covid-19: Is school mask and testing policy flawed? www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-56285179
Another interesting article from Nick Triggle. He's definitely the AD of the bbc reporters!

@Buzzinwithbez

I'd love to know what the dytopian trilogy was.

This was shared yesterday. Tone deaf? Trolling? Or inciting people to riot quietly and calmly get on with making sensible decisions for ourselves?

Trying to balance populism and not totally destroying the economy? I favour living in hope...

It's been a weird week. Overcast, uninspiring and just biding time until Monday. Plenty of emotions from both DCs, neither of whom are enthused about Monday. I've definitely given in for an easy like on tech/ screens a hell of a lot more than normal. Heck, I'm getting into minecraft! So yes, they are not enthused about missing a quite frankly embarrassing quantity of tech time every day.

My mood has generally lifted the last couple of weeks.

I'm really looking forwards to cleaning the toilets on Monday morning and them staying clean for a few hours!

We've been out for a McBreakfast as the DCs' incentive to be up, ready and out at a socially acceptable time. Will do the same tomorrow. I'm hoping that the stimulation of school will tire them out a lot more.

Without going into should-have-beens and what-ifs, I'm happy with the timing going back now. 3 weeks of a routine. An Easter holiday and we can actually do stuff in the second week of the holiday and DS2 just, by the skin of his teeth, avoids a second lockdown birthday. He's young enough that every birthday is a big birthday and last year's literally was a cool, damp squib. Also it's 3 weeks of school, a break and then some of our activities phase back in too, so it works quite neatly for adjusting to something vaguely like normality.

October seems so long ago, then I realise it was 5 fucking months, so not recent! It's been hard wading through time, but there's been so little punctuation through it, not even Christmas in any meaningful way.

@Iheartmysmart

Just had a little panic at another thread about shopping before realising it was from this time last year when some people were actually disinfecting everything that came into the house. I’ve never done that and have lived to tell the tale.

@TabbyStar Here’s hoping our kids get their driving tests sorted soon. I’m sorry to hear your diagnosis as well .

Decided to colour my hair the other day as au naturel was a bit dull. Should probably have read the instructions as I now have bright pink hair. With my love of black clothes I look like a fat highlighter pen.

Our namesake is soooo cute!

Thank you! She says hi. We've got the heating on now so she's a bit more lively now. Bloody cold here today but at least it's not raining. Small mercies.

@Buzzinwithbez It was the Broken trilogy by LA Weatherly. It's set in 1941 in America and the author has taken inspiration from WW2. I really liked it. Difficult to tell who was on what side. I'm glad I had all 3! They were in the sale at The Works around Christmas and I debated whether to buy them or not. Glad I did now.

I hate the weekend hate the police who are on the beaches, walking spots every bloody time. OH went cycling this morning saw them all over on his sea coastal bike route. I just want to cry.

www.walesonline.co.uk/news/wales-news/coronavirus-police-cardiff-barry-porthcawl-19976673

OH came from his bike ride, you been out he asked. FUCKING WHERE I said

Everyone else just knackered all the time? I don't know if this is because I have 3 year old twins or if it's lockdown, or just a bleh combination. Kids were back at play school last week - they go for two hours in the morning. I just sat staring at the walls 🙈. A lot of the women I know are knackered right now.

I've got a lockdown silver lining to share - without lockdown, I would have never have noticed the amount of childcare and cleaning I did not want to do. Husband has always been really supportive in regards to doing things equally but for some reason I've not minded. Doing it constantly though, day in day out has made me come to a realisation. I don't want to carry as much as I did.

I'm going back to work as we can cash in on the 30 hours childcare now kids are 3. I notice I seem to rub a few people up the wrong way now though - women that are hard on themselves. Dementors.

Yes chocolate, same here. I've been hiding in bed this morning while kids watch shit on YouTube - I feel so tired. My body aches. And yet I've done nothing. I feel very empty right now; a walking shell. I need life to restart so I can fill back up.