This thread is for leaving a message for someone without mentioning their name etc

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I'm sorry I can't visit you. You are 100 years old now. I think about you everyday.

You genuinely brighten my day, everyday. I won't ever admit it and I know it will pass but you've made this unbearable year bearable and that in itself is a gift.

I hate you so much for getting pregnant every time my IVF failed, and that MIL (who adores children) now dotes on you because you have 3 under 5's I used to have a lovely relationship with her and now I feel it's all about you

@GleamingHeels

I suspect I am not supposed to, but I just want to acknowledge all the people who are sad or hurt on this thread and offer some solidarity

That's lovely, thank you

I remember how full of love you were and wish I could share my first pets with you. You'd love the sunny little healthy one, but I think you'd love the little sick one better. You always felt protective towards the ones that needed it most.

I knew that it was inevitable for it to happen but why did you have to do it then? Why me? Why were you always against me? I know I fucked up and I’m sorry about it but you hurt me too.

Why did that day have to happen? The day that changed everything? I should’ve listened to you. I could’ve changed it all. And don’t get me wrong, it’s been a fucking hard 15 months but I think I’m finally getting to some sort of semblance

I wanted to tell certain people all this for years and "out" you to your people.

I hated you before I was into double digits but it was complicated. Hatred tempered by normativism from religious activities you forced on us, dependency and isolation. The same activities you used to hide behind, you used to endorse and counter justify your relentless abuses towards us. Took me many years to weed that particular garden. It made me sick when I discovered you had formalised your beliefs and were administering to the Dying. A smiling monster quietly sullying the dignity of the vulnerable with a dark personal hypocrisy. Shameful. Outrageous. My Mother.

I will never forgive you for letting Her die like that, or for hitting K with your car and the countless other hells you and your witch of a sister heaped on her. Leave her alone, she's too nice for you. Come at me instead. Who knows, you might get to yell that I am " just like my
father", one last time before I shut you down.

You don't scare me.

I love you, and I've missed you like crazy.

You were such a lovely GG, I wish you could meet DD - you would adore her, she is so full of life and bursting with joy. I’m sorry I was horrible to you when I was a teenager, I really regret that. I remember the week before you died and we spent that time together. I cherish that more than you will ever know.

I'm sorry I failed to protect you, I'm sorry I put you into that position. I live with the guilt every day.

I don't hate you, I dont feel anything towards you. That said given the opportunity to be alone with you I would fucking kill you with my bare hands. You were my family and I trusted you with the most precious thing in my life. I hear your life has fallen apart because if guilt. Good you deserve that.

I hate you and what you did to me. It kills me when my babies ask why I haven't got a mum and I have to lie to protect you. I hate that whenever my sister tells me you are unwell again I think "good you selfish bitch". And I hate that I feel this way.

A few, so hope no one minds.

I'm sorry I couldn't protect you from the one person that I thought you'd be safe with. What happened has affected your life, more than you know and would like to admit. Every day is torture watching you squander your youth and potential. I blame myself.

Please forgive me. I was selfish and had my priorities fucked up. I miss you every day and I know I've disappointed you.

I wish you would just stop. Stop being over bearing and ffs stop molly coddling my children. I'll never forget all the negative crap you said about me and to me and look at the 2 of us now. Your toxicity and your negativity is your biggest problem. Stop being a hater and live and let live.

I'll fight as hard for you as I would if you were my own child. I've got your back.

Frankly, we don't fall in with your plans because we don't like spending time with you. If you stopped thinking that you know best about everything and trying to run other people's lives you would have far more friends.

I've realised you for who you are. Behind the "woe is me" act, wouldn't say boo to a goose, I've realised you're not a very nice person. Two faced, sly and so far up 's arse it's embarrassing. You have no conversation at all, there's nothing to you. You couldn't even have an opinion of the weather. So desperate to sit on the fence and you bore me senseless. Your partner is a creepy weirdo too. Fuck the pair of you.

Why did you choose a multi storey car park over an overdose? Brutal.

I love you. I wish I could be with you and tell you that.

and I wish you loved me too

If I was ten years younger and single I'd be all over you like a rash. You're a gorgeous young man and you're going to go far. But I am not ten years younger, or single, or a total fucking idiot so I'll keep my little crush secret and enjoy it for a while and hope you get a girlfriend who is good for you.

I know you’re experiencing domestic violence, please, leave it won’t be as hard as you think.

It’s not your responsibility to stay and help him.

You have people who can help if you ask. You need to get help if he won’t.

I hope you read this and you know it means you.

You have the biggest,kindest, warmest, most generous heart imagineable - I took a kicking on that dreadful dating website, one very negative experience in particular, which dented and bruised me. Then, lo and behold, out of nowhere, you sauntered along, hands in pockets, whistling, reacted positively to my profile and restored my faith and belief that there ARE actually some really genuine people using it for its intended purpose. And you trusted me. I will never, ever forget those two actions. Shame that I never got the opportunity to meet you in real life and that our friendship is only online. I hope that you find your nugget of purest gold - if only it could have been me! xx

I love you. I believe you that you love me. You

I love you, I've always loved you and for as long as we both live I will always cling onto the hope that we will be together again one day.

I wish you could see what you are doing to your dc. Stop spoiling them and spend actual time with them, they are constantly exhausted as are you and I am scared you will run yourself into an early grave as your husband is fucking useless

I wish everytime you walk away you fucking stayed there

Oops.

I love you. I believe you that you love me. You will always feel anxious for as long as you are making choices that are so patently bad for you. It’s not lung cancer. Or prostate cancer. It’s health anxiety caused by forcing yourself into a life that doesn’t make you happy

Please get up in the morning, no one believes you haven't joined the meeting because your internet is down. Please start doing your job, you are being paid the same as the rest of us, you do know what to do, your are just lazy and sly. Stop twirling your hair and using the little girl act, you are a woman and not a young one at that, people will find you out soon and I am not going to cover for you. I resent you as I work hard and get no credit, you do fuck all and we are meant to celebrate some meaningless task you have achieved (or say you have) as you send a self promoting email to the boss to tell them and they seem so mesmerized by your hair twirling and lisping during the Teams meetings you can be arsed to get up for that they go along with the charade.

You’re doing ok, there’s no ‘old normal’ here, just now - and what you choose to do this time.

Choose something good for more than yourself.

And truffles.

#choosetrufflestoo