No real advice, just a handhold. It’s all so shit.
You’re allowed to feel like shit without comparing yourself with people who are worse off.
It’s not normal for humans to live in this way, shut off from each other, no pleasures in life, not able to make any plans, eyeing our neighbours with suspicion, feeling stressed and fearful all the time.
Try to turn the news off today if you can, give yourself a wee break from it. Get some fresh air and a nice cup of tea.