How are YOU feeling? I mean emotionally what with lockdown etc...

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I’m ok, generally happy with some really disorientated days when I feel very out of sorts and over emotional.
I want to know how everyone else is coping, come and voice your feelings, no judgement here.

Generally fed up with it.

Single parent, 2 kids with mental health issues, my own mental health issues, working longer hours than usual and home working so no real social contact. Hobbies are keeping me going (though technically not meant to arrange to meet friends at them if indoors).

Getting most fed up with people who keep saying "it's not that hard and it saves lives" who have partners living with them and/or still going to work and seeing people and/or child free.

i'm struggling wearing a mask all day.....mixed with menopause.

Sad. :(
DC seem so resilient. I hope we can support them.

Just tired of being alone.

Despondent, expecting 2nd child and feel so guilty about bringing a child into this mess.

I have a wonderful life and I know how lucky I am, but I am still sick to fucking death with the world and all the shit we all have to contend with. I find myself feeling very despondent for my children who are 21 and 23. What a world to try and build a life in. When I was their age everything seemed so easy, exciting, and hopeful to me. I know they aren't feeling this way and it breaks my heart.

I recently astonished the boss by bursting into tears at work. It wasn't particularly about covid, though it was a stupidly minor covid related thing that tipped me over (my Tesco order had things removed from my basket when I went in to finalise it - things that were in short supply during the run up and into lockdown. I just thought oh fuck, here we go again).

My work's rather mundane and I sometimes think my boss forgets I'm human. I definitely reminded her.

Generally I feel okay, with patches of gloom/fretting, but joy is much rarer than usual.

Autumnal pissing rain is not helping.

Absolutely horrifically anxious. A lot of it is worsened by PMT but yeah, a wreck.

I've had health anxiety for years but it was under control but now I'm overwhelmed and so scared of making wrong decisions etc.

My life would be improved massively if I could see my mum but I can't as she lives in a different country .

Kids are doing ok I think and dh seems as laid back as ever.

The last few days I've spent a lot of time crying every time I go to the loo.

My DC are resilient and too.

I feel fed up at times but mostly resigned.

Struggling if I’m honest. Getting physical symptoms of stress. I have an awful lot on...

Eldest daughter being at university for her first semester in a different U.K. nation is a significant part of it, though not the whole by any means. I know if my mother had had to live through this she’d have tried to order me home and we’d have had an almighty row.

I'm worried. The rise in figures is scaring me. I'm also starting to feel a little stir crazy - there's nowhere to go and nothing to do and I can't see a time when it will be better. I want to look forward to Christmas, but there won't be anything festive about it.

Bored and anxious. Everything seems be on hold and can't really plan.

Haven't learned to play the ocarina or made my cat into an instagram star.

I'm mostly angry about it all - I'm retired so it has affected my life but not hugely. Missed 2 holidays and less able to see friends but nothing major, no work or financial crap.

But So So angry. Angry about kids and teens not only being denied their lives but in the case of teenagers blamed for it.

Angry and being blamed for the fact that 'we are doing it to protect you' - you can fuck off with that. I don't need protecting. I can do my own risk assessment.

Angry at the divide and conquer strategy. Anger at the fear mongering, Anger at the political point scoring. Anger at the blaming and name calling for people that think differently. Anger that people are blaming each other. Anger that some people think the virus will follow any rules and leave you alone if you only follow the rules. Anger that there isn't any real discussion - that experienced and respected epidemiologists and virologists are not being included in important discussions.

I know it is a serious issue. I don't want to say 'do nothing and let it take its course'. I do want there to be proper open discussion that doesn't resort to name calling and virtue signalling. AND does allow for proper discussion.

Love it.

Struggling here too. Currently isolating as my DH has tested positive. Now anxious about me or the kids getting it. being in isolation with 2 young kids is bringing itn all back from how hard it was at the start of lockdown. I've honestly not got it in me again. I can deal with isolation now due to the positive test as I can count down the days to it ending but all this talk of another national lockdown I've not got it in me!

@IAintentDead totally agree about being fed up of teens / kids being blamed. My kids are 10 &13 they've missed out on so much and yes, things could be worse, but so? 7 months so far is a fairly large proportion of their lives and at times when they're changing so fast it's breaking my heart. They stick to the rules, they wear masks , they wash their hands etc but it's shit and I'm sick of people expecting them to suck it up and think themselves lucky.

Shit. On paper we're fine. Dh's job is currently secure and they have loads of work. We have loads of money in the bank and my inlaws are generous and very well off. The kids are adapting. But my mental health is screwed. There isn't any pleasure in anything atm, it's all get in, get out ASAP with military precision. I've managed to desensentise to masks enough to wear them on short shopping trips (got sick of dh bringing half the list home) but I have physical scars from that process and it's a constant reminder of the fact that I was useless/worthless enough to get attacked in the first place. I'm barely sleeping, drinking far too much caffeine and then being a rubbish mum because my mood is so bad. Can't see my psychiatrist in person and phone calls don't work because he either phones the wrong phone (we have no mobile reception at home) or when dh has a meeting so can't take the kids and I obviously don't want them overhearing. Because of the masks, my nightmares are back and more than ever I probably need support but it's not available.

Just read an article suggesting it's going to be 2022 before we're clear and I can't do this for that long.

I'm in Melbourne and we find out today what restrictions will be lifted after a very long 3 months of hard lockdown, with a curfew for most of that time.

We've been in lockdown, at some level, since March. That's SEVEN FUCKING MONTHS and I'm almost done now.

My DC are back at school since last week but I still can't go further than 5 km from my home, or have anyone else in my home.

Our number yesterday was ONE.

Dano better give us something today because I'm starting to lose the will.

I'm thankful that we're close to eliminating it in Victoria, but it's been such a tough slog 😞

Sending a very unmumsnetty hand hold to all of you...

I thought i was ok, not brilliant but ok, until i watched The Savoy on TV last week and then cried proper wrenching sobs at all the staff being put in furlough at the end - clearly i am not ok

low. really low. I was in the shielding group int he original lockdown and every day i was hoping for it to end. Im not overly worried about catching the virus, theres a good chance ive had it already but im worried about how bad my mental health is. I have long standing mental health issues anyway and the masks are triggering my PTSD but im still wearing them because being yelled at for not wearing one triggers me in a worse way. Im just trying to make the best of it that i can but i dont know if i can do another long lockdown, a couple of weeks, i could do that but if it went beyond that, im not sure i will come out of it in a good state

I really really miss hugging people! Thank goodness DH gives amazing hugs as DD11 won’t let me hug her anymore 😢My Mum was taken to hospital yesterday & when I saw her back at home this morning all I wanted to do was give her the biggest hug. I’m worried about the winter coming. And I am so sad. A dear family friend died in May after contracting Covid, despite shielding & generally being very careful. Still can’t believe we’ll never see him again. And I’m angry because I believe many deaths could have been prevented.

Mainly bored (of restrictions and misery-not actually bored of life-work is crazy busy!)
Then a bit guilty about being bored of it when so many people are really struggling
Then slightly worried that it does seem a it closer to how this time round with lots of people and places around me having positive cases

Fucking shite.

Sick of it all.

But I know I’m so much better off than others, so I feel I can’t complain. In the shit show that is 2020, there’s always someone worse off than you, so unless everyone in your family has died AND you’ve lost your job then by some twisted logic you’re supposed to be grateful.

We should be allowed to be pissed off at the little things we’ve lost.

In a very narrow sense I'm ok because I'm something of a hikikomori type, very solitary
I think over the longer term we will adapt and find workarounds but it's going to be tricky and a big wake up call for the world ☹️
Not The shining electronics cities that we were expecting