How are YOU feeling? I mean emotionally what with lockdown etc...

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I’m ok, generally happy with some really disorientated days when I feel very out of sorts and over emotional.
I want to know how everyone else is coping, come and voice your feelings, no judgement here.

I really don't mean this in a provocative way but when you say there's nowhere to go and nothing to do......cafes and restaurants are still open, gyms, shops, tourist attractions, parks, pretty much everything really. What can you not go and do that you want to?

Othering I want to travel freely. I want to see my baby nephew, who I have not yet met. I want to go out as and when I feel like it and not have to plan and book in advance. I want to see my son whenever I choose but he lives in a locked down city and I risk a massive fine if I go there. I am worried about his mental health as he lives alone and hasn't seen friends or colleagues for months.
It's not a big thing but I want to go shopping - I live in a county with no big, decent high street and all the ones I would go to are also in locked down counties. I wouldn't mind seeing a film but my local cinema is closed until further notice.
I don't just want to go to cafés and restaurants. Not everything is open and easily accessible - it really does depend where you live!

I do know that this is nothing compared to how some people are suffering.

Restaurants and pubs all closed here. Visitor places closed. Cafes closed at 6pm. Cinema closed, outdoor classes closed. No visiting others at home or in gardens. No travel outside area advised.

So what was previous poster saying about you can still do lots of stuff?!?!?!

ssd, I'm not even allowed to go to the big Tesco, cos it's in a locked down county

Swaying between anxiety and just feeling sad and tired. The first five weeks I surprised myself at how well I coped, but I week 6 I crashed and have been more down than up since. I lost two stone over summer as I lost my appetite with anxiety. I would love to be back in the office, I hate being at home so much. I had PND and it feels like that again without the motivation of having a baby to get through it.

I feel so guilty. I lost the first year of my DS’s life to PND and he’s just turned three so in his short life he’s had nearly two years of me feeling like this. I hope he can’t sense it. I try to remind myself of all the things I’ve done to make his days fun but I worry that the memories will always be tainted because of everything going on in the background. Last year was so much better. I’m sick of feeling like this and it’s been so long now that I’m starting to forget what I felt like before.

My ten year old goddaughter has had her CAHMS appointments all cancelled and she desperately needs them. My friend’s FIL has just died of cancer as a follow up that was meant to happen months ago never happened. My own FIL has been in hospital a fortnight with no visitors allowed, no idea how to work and iPad or phone, no telly, can’t read anymore due to his eyesight and getting more and more depressed. I am so worried about him. I wish this year was a bad dream.

I’m ignoring it. I’m totally against it.
have been invited to friends’ for lunch next weekend. Probably going to go. Meeting friend for dinner At a restaurant this week. We are going to be “flat mates”. I do not agree what this lockdown is doing to the majority of the population. If you’re vulnerable, stay at home. If you’re not, the. You have nothing to worry about. Boris is making it up as he goes along. If anything I’m amazed at the sheeplike manner in which people are going along with this bullshit.

Miserable because I know that my life is worthless to others. Lockdown didn't change my life at all other to show me that I really don't matter to others, I thought I was mistaken but it turns out I was right all the time.

Tired, just so tired. Tired of cleaning the classroom, tired of asking teenagers to stay apart (esp as they can’t inside classrooms and therefore can’t see the point outside them), tired of marking online and trying to juggle online teaching and real-life teaching at the same time. Tired of not being able to work with the kids in the way I’d like.
Worried about yr11 DS.
Pissed off with the rain- was hoping to go away in our caravan next week, but I think we’d get stuck.
Still, job is secure and we are healthy. I try to focus on those things. I’d hate DS to know how worried I am.

I am fed up of course and really missing my parents who I haven’t seen for a year as they live abroad and not sure when I will next see them next. I try to look on the bright side and not think too far ahead. I have enjoyed working from home seeing more of DH and the children. My children are secondary school age so haven’t had the stress of home schooling. I have enjoyed the slower pace of life. Read lots of books, go to the gym every day and meet friends outside for walks every week which means I am still socialising quite a lot. I also sleep a lot more which is bliss and in some ways feel calmer And happier than I did before March, so for me lockdown has also been positive.

I cycle between numb, angry, sad and occasionally get a more normal day.

I'm bored of being home, but going out into an anonymous masked up world makes me anxious that some sanctimonious zealot will have a go at me because I'm not prepared to have any more panic attacks by the end of the first aisle in the supermarket triggered by the overwhelm of my own moist breath and overheating. I hate not being able to lip read, and voicrs more distorted than ever, and losing 2/3s of facial expressions. So I focus up to waist height only and feel more isolated.

The only notmal place is when I go out running into the countryside along very quiet footpaths and fields.

I miss having plans and anticipating them. My calendar is now indefinitely empty of any non-routine event.

Everything feels fragile. If a local area code comes up on my phone, I worry that my asthmatic child is about to face 2 weeks of school due to his normal seasonal cough.

I hate living llike this. And I'm angry that so many thousands are far worse off than me on furloughed incomes, facing redundancy, over worked, degrees impaired, falling behind in school, struggling to care for vulnerable relatives, healthcare delayed, deprived of the opportunities to grieve properly. All totally unnecessary.

I was always a sunny, happy person until this year.

I'm very anxious and angry about the way it has been handled. I'm sick of the way some people have responded to it by thinking it was a party and/or carried on with their lives. I've worked long hours throughout it all.

I'm very angry that this government has forced a lockdown on us which anyone with half a brain knew would fuck up the economy and mental health of millions and came up with shit meaningless slogans to 'fight' this phoney war. Fuck the rules now.

going shopping with a mask on often makes me feel emotional

I have got used to not seeing anyone for 90% of my life and am OK with that. Feel a bit bored sometimes but such is life. I am not that worried about getting covid because I can't really control it so no point worrying. if I get it, I get it, although obviously I'd rather not.

As long as we're allowed outdoors to exercise and ideally to drive to that exercise I'll be fine.