I cannot do this until September, I just fucking can't

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The press conferences today with Raab and Sturgeon saying it won't be safe to reopen schools any time soon have just sent me into a tailspin. I'm at home with a 3 year old on. Both dh and I are lucky enough to have jobs (for now) but we still work a 40 hour week and both of us have constant calls and meetings. It is impossible to work around ds. Neither of us can be furloughed as we are paid from public funds. We live in a 2 bedroom flat with no garden. I'm used to seeing my mum 3-4 times a week and ds cries every day because he misses her. Every day is relentless and we are working until midnight and getting up at 5 to fit everything in.

I can't do this until September. I just cant.

Glad you are going to your Mum’s op. Good decision. I hope you feel better soon. Take each day at a time.

Just pop some ‘essentials’ like bread and milk in a carrier bag and if you’re pulled over say you’re dropping them off to your mum who is self-isolating

Thank you everyone for being g kind

Thank you for letting us try and help.

I’m so glad you’ve made that decision OP. I think it’s incredibly unlikely you’d be stopped, and if you were I would just be honest. You’re very unwell and need support from your Mum. I hope your son has a lovely time and you come home feeling a bit better and recharged.
Would your Mum be able to look after your son for a few hours, a few times a week maybe? Does she live near enough?

I'm so glad you've been signed off. A couple of things, does your mh count as a disability? I had an occupational health assessment when i had a breakdown (PTSD/anxiety/depression) and was told that legally, the extent of my symptoms classed me as disabled and in need of certain adjustments. If these didn't happen then they'd be discriminating against me. Working patterns, extra breaks etc. Worth looking into?

Are you on any medication? Can that be tweaked?

Can you access therapy via call or video chat?

Above all - you've got 2 weeks breathing space. You need this time off because you're ill. Forget about work for the next 2 weeks just spend time with your child and if you need to break lockdown to see your mum, do it. Your mental health is essential. Protect it at all costs. Think of it like putting your own oxygen mask on first.

I completely understand the fear of slipping back into a place you're terrified to go back to again. I'm there with you. But you're doing the right things op. Get help, self care, talk to people honestly. You will get through this.

Disability discrimination act was what classed me as disabled i should say. I don't consider myself to be disabled but it means i have legal protections at work and they mustn't discriminate against me due to my mental health.

Darling, don't feel guilty about seeing your mum! You need it. Both myself my son and my brother have all been seeing my elderly mum (dad died in a care home 2 weeks ago) and she needs to see us. Sometimes you have to do what is right for you x

All the best OP. Enjoy your time at your mum's.