anyone awake? Please chat with me for an hour

[WLmum]

Hello, is anyone awake and willing to chat with me about anything at all.
I'm waiting for daybreak, and then for school drop off time, so I can go and be with my truly amazing, so loved dm while she passes away. I am heartbroken. Been awake most of the night wondering if she's going to hold on long enough for me to with her.

Anyone else up? Tell me what you're up for and help me pass the time. Please.

My heart goes out to you reading this thread. I was in your position last year with my Dad. It's the hardest thing I've ever done and yet I just had to be there.

I'm sure your mum felt the love that surrounded her and may she now rest in peace free of pain and suffering.

So so sorry OP, for you all.
Hope your all holding up ok

I'm so sorry, love to you and your lovely family

So, so sorry, Your vigil is over but you did your lovely mum proud. We should all be so lucky. Hugs to you and your DB. Perhaps you will get some sleep tonight. ❤️ you need strength over the next bit.

Sorry for your loss

I’m so sorry for your loss 💐 My thoughts are with you and your family during this terrible time.

So sorry for your loss OP

Really sorry op. Lost my lovely ma 10 months ago. It is tough but you will get through it. You did a wonderful thing making her last days as peaceful as possible. She knew she was loved and you got to be with her. X

She was there for your first breath, and you were there for her last.
There is no more pain for her. Remember the good times, laugh about things you did together, little jokes you shared. The times you held each other's hand.
I had a very similar situation with my mum 6yrs ago. I miss her so much, but now I always smile rather than cry when I think of her - and one day, you'll do the same about your mum.
Sending you my love.

Feel so weird just now. Wtf am I supposed to do with myself? I can't believe dm is not in her house. I can't believe there isn't anything I'm supposed to be doing.
Took the dds for a walk to a beautiful NT place.
Been to the funeral director to start the conversation.
Not visiting the burial place until Sunday - she wanted a natural burial - it's a beautiful site that just looks like woodland and meadow. I promised dds they could come and pick a resting place. They will also decorate her cardboard coffin. It will be a wonderful expression of love.

So sorry for your loss ❤️❤️

So very sorry to hear of your loss I am glad that you were with her at the end 💐

@WLmum I am so very sorry for your loss. You absolutely did your dear mum proud and now she is at peace. There's a horrible empty feeling of limbo between now and the funeral. Take time for you now.
Sending love and will keep you all in my prayers xxx

Still here with you OP. You must be very, very tired. Sending you love and a hand squeeze. Your DM sounds so loved.

So sorry for your loss WL

I'm so pleased you stayed with your mum at the end.

Bless you Xx

She was so very loved. By everyone. She was a very special person who had a horrible start in life and many challenges along the way, but never failed to see the good in people and find the bright side of any situation.
The world is a poorer place without her. My world is immeasurably poorer without her.

so sorry for your loss.
I was with my dear dad when he died, I held his hand and felt privaliged to be with him as he left this world, just like he was with me as I entered it.
The first few days are busy and I remember just wanting him back so much and not knowing where he was.
Be kind to yourself OP take each day as it comes. The burial place and involving the children sounds so lovely.

Thank you.
Honestly I’m just trying not to think, trying to stay numb. Like if I don’t think about it, it won’t be true. I just can’t believe I’ll never speak to her again, never tell her all the little things. Despite my own family here with me, and all the busyness of life, I think I’ll just feel lonely without her.

@WLmum I lost my mum 2 years ago and I still phone her mobile number and listen to her recorded message just to hear her voice. I also leave her messages when I need to tell her something. Just my way of coping. Sending love and hugs xxx

I used to call mums answerphone too just to hear her voice - I remember her saying that someone’s voice was the first thing you forgot. But I still remember dads voice quite clearly.

@WLmum I still can't actively think about my DM being gone. She died in January this year, I was not there, and it is still unreal. Even though I know I went to her funeral, to her grave, even cleared her house (typing these things makes me sort of gasp breathe) I can't actually picture he as gone. That I won't actually get to sit with her, speak with her, hear her laughter. I suppose we get to a place where we can come to acceptance at some point. I'm not there yet.

You absolutely don't have to go there yet. Take your time. Be kind to you for a wee while. Show yourself the same care you showed her. Sending you that strong shoulder for a lean on when you get too tired.

Picture she has gone!

sorry. that was a hard post.

I'm so sorry - have been popping by your thread to see how you were doing for days, and the love and care shown to your mum in her final days really shone through in your posts.

Your love for your mother was so evident in all your posts, WLmum and I'm so sorry that she has finally died.

May she rest in peace and may you and your family remember her fondly. I am sure you will.