I also didn't expect, shitshow aside, that the judgment would go this way. I was aware (from these threads) that FWS didn't cover the workplace rules, so knew there may be an issue there. But Dr Upton set off my creepdar so very strongly that I was completely blind to the possibility that he would be considered credible.
The fake, overly gentle voice reminded me of someone furious who was either barely restraining themselves or pretending to be calm, but about to blow. The "I'm a biological woman" schtick told me this is a manipulative gaslighter, like the colleague who assaulted me. The admission that there was no way in which Peggie could have expressed her protected beliefs that he would have found acceptable or not hurtful revealed that he was an extreme authoritarian.
I find this combination terrifying, genuinely. And I thought that anyone would be able to see this a mile off.
It has been a useful learning experience to realize that the panel did not even glimpse the red flags that I thought would be visible from space.
I try to check my biases and #bekind but my instincts are clear that this is a man, and a very dangerous man. I'm aware of course that there is no evidence that he is dangerous. But this is my instinctive reaction to the lies, manipulation and authoritarianism. I clearly should have realized that this might not be shared by the judge, whose life has doubtless shaped his instincts very differently.