Sorry this is just not true, Trans people are born Trans.
If it was down to how you were raised then I would be a cigar smoking macho rambo style bully.
All this shows is that you don’t seem to understand the role of the unconscious in our lives, or much about psychology/child development/family dynamics etc, Imasoulman.
From your post I’m guessing that your father was in fact a macho bully. Perhaps he was cruel to your mother, as well as you. It certainly sounds like you didn't have a healthy male role model as a male child.
It could be that in your case it was actually the very overt expectations placed on you to be stereotypically and aggressively masculine that made you shrink from and so fundamentally reject your maleness as soon as you realised that you were the same sex as your father. That’s what pp mean when they say it can be a result of how you were raised, not that your parents deliberately raised you to be trans.
Anyway, I’m going to presume, going by this and the lack of response to my earlier question, that you haven’t tried therapy yourself.
Obviously that’s entirely your personal choice (both whether to have therapy or not and whether to answer my question or not) but I’m not at all comfortable with the way you seem to use women to fill some need in you rather than trying to address that need for yourself.
We’re not here to have our “lived reality” appropriated by biologically male people who have psychological issues arising from a difficult childhood. We’re not here to confirm and validate you. We’re not here to do your emotional labour for you. We’re not here to make everything better for you at our own expense.
Have you never wanted to explore all this for yourself? Is it easier to just ascribe it all to being “born trans” than to take the (often immensely painful) steps that therapy entails to address the neglect/abuse/dysfunction/whatever you grew up with that has caused you such distress? Such distress that you actually reject who you are on this fundamental level?
Many women on here have shown you compassion and empathy. Where is your compassion and empathy for us, women (many of whom also carry with us the scars of abusive/dysfunctional childhoods) who are directly harmed by this narrative of “born in the wrong body”, women whose rights and safety are being undermined by this ideology you subscribe to, women who are exhausted and drained by the expectations placed on us by male people to constantly be the nurturers, the helpmeets, the service humans?
We have needs too. It’s a struggle for many women to meet their own needs, especially those of us whose needs weren’t met in our own childhoods, never mind the needs of all the male people who don’t want to be bothered with doing their own emotional heavy lifting.
“Woman” isn’t an identity; it is our material reality and one you don’t share, so I for one would hugely appreciate it if you would back off in your attempts to colonise our experience as something that somehow belongs to you, or should belong to you, or would belong to you if only you’d had access to puberty blockers.
The fact that you have felt this way for so long simply shows that this is a way a boy or man can feel, a way a boy or man can experience life. It doesn’t make you a woman. It doesn’t mean you were “born in the wrong body”. Even if you were able to pass, you wouldn’t be a woman, you’d just look like one. Possibly.
Give us a break. Redefine manhood. Make manhood inclusive of all adult human males. Dig around in your own story, if you have the courage, to see if you can find any answers for yourself. I’m glad that, unlike many trans rights activists, you’re in touch with reality enough that you recognise that you don’t pass and I hope that means you don’t try to access women only spaces. If so I appreciate that. Also that you recognise that most GNC children will not grow up to identify as trans if left alone.
How about being even more of an ally to us and to them by trying to really understand where this issue comes from in your own life, and dropping the “born this way narrative”?