Hi everyone.
I've joined a few of these in the past, but have always phased out.
I've always been slim and taken care of my appearance but I've really let myself go the last couple of years. I saw some pictures of me only 3 years ago yesterday and i looked so good (sorry i know that sounds arrogant).
I think I've almost tricked myself into believing I'm not fat, wearing baggy, flowy clothes, refusing Full length pictures, making my hair big and poofy to slim my face out 😂
I have had a few pictures taken of me recently and I've seen them and actually felt sick to my stomach of how deluded I've been. I look huge.
It's very apparent I'm not that glamorous woman anymore, I don't get the male attention I used to, when I tell people I think I look fat I don't get the "don't be silly" comments I get diet advice.
I have a wardrobe full of nice outfits and im terrified to attempt putting them on as ill hsve to face the reality of how chonky i now am.
The way i see it, this year, I don't have a choice. I'm getting married in Autumn. I've spent a lot of money on it, I can not feel sick at the thought of having my photo taken, I cannot feel paranoid that there will be people I haven't seen in years thinking "damn she's piled on the pounds". I can not be terrified to look at the photos from my own wedding (been a bridesmaid at 2 this year and can't bring myself to look at the pics). Therefore, I have to lose weight.
No extreme plans. Just calorie counting, increased exercise, no fads. Cutting out bad habits (multiple take aways a week, too much booze, snacking on biscuits).
I want to lose 3 stone by September.
I'm too scared to weigh, I suspect I'm about 14 and a half stone (I'm tall 5'10). I want to be 11 to 11 and a half stone. That will take me to a comfortable size 10. I'm currently a 14. Does not sound big but I really don't carry weight well, it goes all to face, upper arms, armpit and lower stomach. If you see a picture of me from top up I look about size 18-20.
Sorry, long post. Hello everyone 👋