Fuck I'm so lardy, I've hit peak fatness and need to sort it out.

[HairyKnobsAndBroomsticks]

It would appear that all I do is stuff my face with crap, lots of crap.

I'm going to try and sort myself out, starting tomorrow.

I'm scared, I'm useless at dieting but it's getting serious. I'm so unhappy, I caught sight of myself in the window walking past Costa coffee today. It was grim.

Anyone want to join me?

Weigh day tomorrow.

I did have a few breaks! Mostly as I needed food and a wee

I am loving all the posts, well done everyone! I have been doing ok(ish) I had a good week then have been out for tea and had a couple of drinks this weekend so feel that it may not be a great weigh in tomorrow, but we shall see! I have made soup and I’m going to have that for the next few days and it will hopefully reverse any damage 🤞 have a lovely Sunday all

Are we ready for tomorrow?

I’ve had terrible stomach pain all weekend following eating out. Last week it derailed good progress and this week too due to extreme bloating and water retention afterwards. Lesson learnt! No eating out next week.

I seem to put 2lbs on the day before weigh in! Hopefully it will change by the morning 🤞

Last weigh in I weighed 154.3 lbs
Today 153.1 lbs (first day of the period so I am hoping some of the weight is due to bloating)
Still...I am very happy with the weight as I am getting close to 140s.

I have pretty much given up tea. I am down to one cup a day. I've noticed that I had actually stopped drinking water and that I had completely replaced it with tea. Not great so that had to stop.

Good luck everyone!

No a great weigh in this morning, I weigh more than i did on Saturday, however still below 80kg- just! Clearly not a good weekend. Portion size crept up and didn't manage to stick to 8 hour window of eating.
Also shows how my weight fluctuates by a pound or two within a short space of time .

I'm 5lbs up but not even counting that - on my period!

PeleFondo you are giving me hope! 5 lbs less would be amazing. I would even settle for 2😆

Oh I'm 5lbs heavier not lighter but period, and retaining water etc etc. Not going to weigh again until it's over

Stayed the same!

Start: 15st 11lbs
Current: 15st 8lbs

Down a Jean size from 20 to a comfortable 18 though 😃

I need to re-start. I've started so many times and failed so many times. I WFH. The first thing I do when I wake up is grab food. regardless if I'm hungry or not. I just cannot help myself. I hate how fat I've become. I hate how I look. I had a great figure, I'm slowly ruining it. None of my clothes fit me. I refuse to buy bigger clothes. I go out running but then binge eat and ruin it all. I never feel full up, I could eat and eat. I even make sure I don't buy anything fattening for me on the weekly shop but then I eat all the DC treats and then replace them. It's not fair to make my DC do without treats just because I cant control myself.
I cannot stop. I want to stop. I want to lose 2-3 stone, My weight governs every aspect of my life. I've set myself goals lose X amount of weight by a certain event/time but those events/times just come and go and I have not lost. I know what I need to do to lose weight and I know it's a slow process. But my urges and lack of self control take over. I daren't weight myself after my last week or stuffing my face with anything and everything.

I'm so unhappy. Angry at myself for lack of self control. Fed up of going around in circles. I just want to lock myself away for 6 months with no access to anything tempting, do lots of running and not have to worry about trying to fit running in around work/life/DC (which often means I don't go as there is just no time - or energy- after working a 60 hour week).

I'm desperate.

@Horsetreestick you're here now. Great move! You want this and rather than locking yourself away or sending yourself to an Austrian health spa or travelling around India for a year to lose weight you can join us the slow and sensible way - the way that works ! Week by week for the long-haul. Some great ideas here for mini goals to set yourself! I'm going to be throwing out my size 20 jeans this week. Byyereeee 👋🏻👋🏻 don't be too hard on yourself.

thanks @AnnieHooo . Even as I type, my DH is cooking and it smells delish. I usually hang around in the kitchen and pick at his leftovers/what he is cooking. Im hanging over the DC as they eat, hoovering up anything they leave behind. DH goes to the cupboard and I've usually eaten some of what he has brought/made which, understandably, makes him furious. I just cannot help myself. I have a lot on my plate (excuse the pun !) in terms of work/life/home admin/DC/house and I don't really have time to be bored ... but still I eat.

I hate myself for what I am doing to myself/my body. I hate this addiction.

I've already eaten a ham wrap and brioche ham roll, both home made, and a handful of chocolate buttons. My stomach hurts now due to the bread/carbs.

Morning all, well done making it to another weigh day.

I am up 2.5lbs this week because I am back to eating normally now that my extracted tooth is better. I also scoffed a Chinese take out last night.

@AnnieHooo that's great about the jeans, well done !

1.9 kg down since last Mon AND I've just been to the dentist.
(I now have 4 upcoming appointments instead of 3 🥴

@HairyKnobsAndBroomsticks In fairness, you have days and days of missed meals to make up! I bet it feels great to eat without tooth discomfort.

@AnnieHoooo A clothes size down is fantastic, congratulations!

@PeloFondo Unless it's muscle tone! Impressive cycling 🚴‍♀️

Yes @Stravaig it's lovely being able to eat again but I mustn't let it get out of hand.

Hi All

Today I have eaten:

Breakfast - Porridge, with 2 squares of 85% dark chocolate, topped with blueberries and a benecol drink

Lunch - Turkey Chilli Con Carne with added veg

Dinner will be tomato and passion flower soup from the nourish range

Snacks - 10 cal Jelly and a light and low yoghurt - vanilla

Photo of my chilli below

@Horsetreestick I've only been lurking on this thread, but I had to come on and say something as I recognise so much of what you write.

I struggle with emotional eating too, and it's helped me to realise that it's a form of self-soothing/self-medicating, just like some people use alcohol or weed. Like you, it's not that I'm bored, it's more like - any strong emotion and I had to soothe it with eating. Happy? Eat. Stressed? Eat. And so on.

That's been the biggest thing for me, I'm by no means over it but it was like a switch went on one day and I could see myself doing it from the outside.

Realising it's not morally wrong etc, just something I picked up along the way as a means to manage my feelings.

I've just started actively losing weight (had a baby recently and still BFing so going slowly) and believe me I've been where you are. Feeling like it's an impossible thing to break out of. But if I can turn things around, then you can too.

This is me, apart from the running.

It really is a constant nightmare.

I’m a 1lb down this week.

I joined the gym and have signed up with a personal trainer! I also went for my first run in ages!

Well done @TabithaTittlemouse

Thanks @HairyKnobsAndBroomsticks