Thanks @Bella444 how much are you aiming to lose?
I'm really in a dark place about my shock realisation but putting a brave public face on just now (last night of holiday).
I have a first date planned for Tuesday evening and I'm tempted to say 'I'm so sorry I can't come out to play because I've just realised I look nothing like my OLD photos' but instead I'll go as it's a night out.
I'm no stranger to dieting - yo-yo'd a fair bit when I was younger but this is by far the heaviest and biggest I've ever been. Have been on a two year non-stop eating/drinking fest.
I'm going to write out some trackers in my bullet journal: 'No Sugar', 'No Carbs' 'Drink 2l water' 'Did exercise' etc so I can see how many days I achieve my goals plus the theory of tracking stuff = improvements.
Also instead of becoming obsessed with diet/weight loss/fitness I'm going to trial a whole life reboot Witt better sleep, more time writing/reading/decluttering/managing finances.
I think I've let soooo much slide since I chucked my kids dad (& he abandoned them) but also also have achieved loads (single motherhood, sick kids, special needs, promotion, hoise & garden renovation)
I'm going to see this as a project - non emotional. I'm still a nice, funny person but really want to be a lower weight for health, self esteem & my clothes!
Any hints & tips much appreciated