I’m going to leave this thread guys.
My head started to go downhill about food again and I’ve had a rough week.
I’ve decided I just can’t do this anymore. I’ve been on a diet for most of my life, from full blown eating disorders to just ‘making good choices’. I’m done. All it ultimately leads to for me is a messed up head.
I’m sick of depriving myself, feeling guilty if I eat something unhealthy, getting anxious over meals with family and friends, I’m sick of THINKING about it. All it leads to for me in the end is binging.
I’ve had two periods in my life where food has been a non-issue and it’s been when I’ve been living with a partner as I’ve just kind of mirrored their eating patterns and ate what I wanted. And both of those times I maintained at a lower weight despite eating plenty of chocolate/meals out just because I wasn’t getting stressed and binging.
I’m not actually overweight, I’m fairly fit, I’m healthy, I’m active, I actually generally like fairly healthy food.
I’m going to approach it from a different direction and work on accepting my body as it is and making peace with food. Secretly still hoping I will lose some pounds but I’m going to try my damn best to not think about that and to stay off the scales.
Sorry for the long post. Best of luck to everyone on this thread and thanks for your support!