Anyone looking to lose 100lbs plus... - Part 5

[NoTractorsAtTheTable]

Hello, welcome to the fifth instalment (wow!) of the ‘Anyone looking to lose 100lbs plus …’ thread

If you want to read them (but by no means feel obliged!), the previous threads are here: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 and Part 4

We’re a very friendly, supportive group, and all at different stages, but we’re all seeing some real changes in ourselves and our attitudes to food. It’s a long old road, but it helps to chat along the way

Collectively, we’ve lost an incredible…......... 1024lbs since the start of the first thread in Dec 16, which is amazing!

We tend to weigh in on Fridays or Saturdays, but feel free to join in at any time, with whatever weight loss method you think works best for you. Some of us have lost more than others, but we're all in this together, so if you're losing, gaining or staying the same, it's nice to have some inspiration to keep going.

We’re always welcoming to newcomers, but as with the previous thread(s), I’ll add one caveat - we’re all here because we are trying to lose a LOT of weight. If you’re looking to lose the last half stone, or even two or three stone, this might not be the thread for you. Good luck with your goals, but you may find more support with in threads with people who have similar goals to you.

I didnt know that was a thing... ill go with that Trying to psych myself up to go for a swim but its soooo hot!

(I found out my appointment for Periphial Artery Disease consultation has come up and is next week and ive really freaked myself out. Its the reason I'm eating better/exercising etc but already anxious ive either got it or theyll fob me off without investigating properly!)

It may well be the heat Scared - bodies are strange beasts, and the weather here doubly so! Will keep everything crossed for your appt.

Well done topsy and welcome Die

Feeling so much better today, so there has been less of the dramatics here . Really craving something sweet, which is odd, and quite unlike me, but think it's a reaction to cutting back on the carbs. The good thing is there's no crap in the house to break my resolve, so going to have a fruit tea and do some knitting

Scared I find knowing one way or the other is better than the endless what if questions. Terrifying but at least you can start dealing with it, or learning to live with it.

I've got my rheum consultant appointment this week. It's a new guy so I'm not sure what he'll be like. (I've moved house) I hope he has access to my records!

Not having a good time at mo and really struggling to KOKO eaten loads of rubbish food that I know I shouldn't and not been to the gym - trying to be kind to myself as have so much going on with DD health and move to High School (which is harder due to all her issues) and work is manic.

Haven't even logged on here as couldn't face it - need to get my mojo back. A few friends have commented I am looking well which helps make me know I need to keep going.

Well come new people and well done all on losses.

nickname the fact that you're even trying says great things. I remember how my weight ballooned when my brother was in hospital. The stress and the going back and forth a few times a week for ever a year - it's horrendous. I remember the temptation and the misery well and I don't envy you having it go on indefinitely. If you can, focus on one meal at a time. Don't beat yourself up about yesterday, or last week. Not even about breakfast. Draw a line, think about your plans for lunch.

I'm having a salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, carrot) with half a tin of mackerel in tomato sauce over it, with carrot sticks and houmous to dip. I might have some crisps too. I don't find salads exciting at all, but I like mackerel a lot and houmous is great, so I treat it very much as a carrier for those, rather than toast or pita bread.

Dinner tonight is aubergine and lamb sorta curry ish thing. Essentially an aubergine and chickpea salad, but I'm throwing some lamb mince in too and serving it hot.

I cut my breastfeeding calories down because DS is eating more and more. I'm not going to lie, I'm finding that hard to cope with. Starting to need to make hard choices between crisps at lunch or something nice after dinner. Eep.

nickname I'm sorry things are tough, but hang in there - even if you have to put weight loss on the back burner for a bit.

honey your food always sounds amazing! How is littlest honey getting on, have things calmed down now?

I didn't get the job I went for, so I'm a bit at the moment - I'd really rather not work at all! Still, it's too hot for any life decisions - instead, I've had a callippo, and read my book with a glass of sparkling water. Pretty idyllic really!

Tractors lol thanks. Dinner was quite good! I served it with a tortilla wrap k had chucked in oven to make crispy, and some mango chutney. It was good. DD tried to copy us by balancing her food on bits of wrap, but the chickpeas kept rolling off, bless her. Very cute though.

Baby honey is ok thank you. He failed step 1 of the milk ladder last weekend. We're going to try gluten this weekend.

Sorry you didn't get the job - you're right that it's too hot for such decisions right now.

Thanks for support. I'm hoping that by keep checking in here it will help me keep on track. I think often i have a mental slump after dd has had a bad spell as while she is bad I have to keep it together.

I know it can feel like you've let the side down when you have a slide - I definitely feel that way (and a quick wave to the lurkers who feel that way too!) but posting, even through the hard parts, is really important for me, for two reasons:

1. It helps keep me focused
2. I think it helps others too - there's nothing worse than thinking you're the only one out of control when other people can do this weight loss with (apparent) ease - I think it's important to acknowledge that you know what, this is fucking hard, and I need a bit of a supportive shove in the right direction.

I might just be projecting my own feelings out there but I'm glad I have an outlet for them, on this here thread . As I've said before on here, fuck being fat!

Oh, and also, and probably more importantly! You do need to cut yourself some slack where DCs are concerned, and even more so when they are ill - you might be their rock, but you're not 'a' rock - so you do deserve a bit of kindness, and that starts with you. You've done so well, and have been so strong, you should acknowledge that.

Wave to nickname - am also wobbling around like mad this week, really struggling to make the right choices. Trying to treat each day like another new start but not then making much improvement if I'm honest. Don't know if it's heat / hormones / stress / something else but it's not a good feeling.

Thanks to Tractors for the advice and wisdom to keep hanging on!

Meant to post on the thread earlier in the week to say hello to everyone.

I'm having a weird week with food - I'm not hungry that much i.e. cannot finish all my dinner ( that never happens) but I keep wanting to snack on biscuits / ice-cream / crisps.

Anyway nickname hope you are feeling a little more mojoed (is that a word?)

Tractor sorry about the job, I was made redundant for a year and hated that every interview was not quite right. At least they told you, once I waited 4 weeks to get a 'no'

honey how's it going with the DC?

Another one not doing well at all here. On holiday with my extended family and feel like a basket case around food. Because of my intolerances, there is specific food for me and I feel like I can't eat "too much" of it or it will be noticed and I will be pilloried. When I have been alone in the house I have been secretly binging and I mean binging in the clinical sense of 1-2k calories on top of over-eating. I feel like I won't get enough food at all and mustmustmust take any opportunity to eat as much as possible. It feels really desperate. It is seriously fucked up. I had a better day yesterday and only ate a couple of hundred calories above maintenance (a fortnight ago I would not have called that better) and felt a bit more in control. I have discovered a serious flaw in using MFP. I don't know my own hunger and satiety cues anymore (which is dieting all over) and have been relying entirely on MFP to tell me that yes, I've had enough or no, I should have a snack. Any length of time without being able to accurately log (I am logging still but it is only rough estimates when I am not cooking) and I am lost. In some ways, it is glorious here - I had a 5k run along the beach at sunset last night which was stunningly beautiful - but I just want to go home. Except I am worried that I will never get back on the wagon again and this is it, all the weight back on.

Well. Sorry for vomiting that all over the thread! Welcome to the newbies and well done on losses. Sorry you didn't get the job, Tractors. to the others who are struggling too.

Week 2
Hi everyone, I'm here with my first weigh in from my diet, something seems to be working! Good luck everyone and keep going

Gain/loss - -4lbs!
left to lose - 96lbs
overall loss - 4lbs

(((OtherOtter))) Be kind to yourself. We all have some issue or another relating to food. None of us would be needing to lose 100lbs otherwise. We understand.

My 'kind of' success update is I am nearly lost enough weight to only need to lose 100lbs more. If that makes sense. Can't wait to go down to only needing to lose double figures aka 99lbs to lose !

AnotherOtter bless you, that's hard. I've had a bit of a think about what you've said re: mfp and I think you've a good point. I too check of an evening to see if I've any calories left to use, so I can have a snack. I need to be more mindful of whether I am actually hungry or not. What's important here is that you are aware that you are bingeing, and you recognise it's not healthy.

Your thoughts around eating publicly are a bit worrying - what's the root of that, do you think? Have these people been previously critical of you and your weight? In which case it's not surprising you feel paranoid eating around them. And also, bastards.

I think all you can do is try to keep it under control as much as you can whilst you're away (maybe look up some CBT exercises you could do to try and control the binge urge) and get back on it when you're home.

Relearning hunger cues is a trickier one. The old adage was always if you think you're hungry have a drink and see how you feel in 10 minutes... Might work?

Life not good dd back in hospital, dh not being v supportive as thinks he knows better than docs. It's so hot in hospital I might melt the weight off - if I hadn't brought a load of cheap due to cafe being closed.

I am so sorry to hear that Nickname, nothing can be worse than an ill child.
Well done Milzie, great start!

I think we all have out demons otter, none of us could have put on so much weight without some kind of unhealthy relationship with food. I think to lose the mass we all have to find some way of mentally dealing with it.

Sorry to hear about the interview tractor, fingers crossed something better will come along.

Had a busy, tiring but fulfilling week. DH is out tonight so treated us to a Chinese takeaway. I had chicken and bamboo and water chestnuts with boiled rice and stopped eating when I was full so I am not going to count it! I would rather take a few more months to lose the 100lbs than feel I am depriving myself.

I feel we're all in need of a bit of an unMumsnetty group hug!

nickname I'm so sorry about DD, fingers crossed for a speedy recovery.

B1rd I think you're in the same sort of slump I'm in - somethings off, and I don't quite know what it is. Cooler today, here at least, I think that helps!

monnlight 4 weeks for a no is hideous! I am so impatient, I leap everytime I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket! Something will turn up

Another sounds like you are going through a really hard time, and hope when the time is right you can start to unpick it all, and put it back together again. Well done for the run, especially on a beach - it's so hard to run on sand! Good advice from honey there too, and Want

Well done milz and your Chinese sounds amazing strawberry - good choosing!

It's end of term here, and I'm trying to think of something nice to do for each of the DCs. They've gone through a lot since this time last year, and although things are perfectly amicable with me and exDH, they haven't complained at all about splitting their time, or the fact there is less money to go round. I try to spend time with them both individually, but as they are getting older (11 and 9), it's getting trickier to find something they want to do with me in tow . Answers on a postcard, or I may brave a thread in chat

Gosh, a lot of exclamation marks in there

Evening all, I’ve come to join the group hug. Have also lost the plot, but kept logging so I do at least know where I @m which is over by a good couple of pounds. It stops here , I’m not letting all the hard work gradually vanish so tomorrow is a new week. Not going to go on the scales for a couple of weeks, just focus on eating more sensibly. I think my hormones are up the creek, I am so angry. Got into a road rage incident where someone wouldn’t give way when he should have so we arrived at a pinch point at the same time and neither of us would move. He swore at me like a trooper as I squeezed my car past him and I don’t think he was expecting the same words plus more to come out my mouth. Possibly not my finest moment.

Nickname so sorry about DD and all the stress. One day at a time, hang in there and just do what you can till things get a bit easier.

Tractors sorry about the job. I didn’t want one I was interviewed for either and was frankly a bit shit during the interview. Are your DC a boy and a girl from memory?

Otter that sounds really stressful and it sounds like there is a bit of a pattern emerging with your eating patterns when your family are around- I think you’ve said the same happens when they come to stay? Also do get what you’re saying about your appetite. I can do that some of the time but when Hormones kick in it has a tendency to go out of the window. I’m about 8.5k over the last two weeks. And despite current blip (and it is just that, a blip), you have come such a long way. You went for a 5k run, imagine that a year ago,

B1rd sorry you are wobbling too.
Strawberrypig I think taking that bit longer is a really sensible approach .
Honeysuckle sorry things still difficult with DS, hope gluten free makes a differenceTopsy that’s a really solid start. Scared good luck for the appointment. Moonlight sorry you have weirdweekitis as well and Milzii and wantacurry great start.

Right, whose with me on focusing on eating for health next week and trying to keep hydrated through this weather? We know we can get through this dip, it’s the end of term, bloody hot so not surprising really. Here’s a line for anyone who needs it.

End of this crap week
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Forgot a good NSV. Digger man came yesterday about a trench. When he came back today he said he didn’t recognise me yesterday and thought I must have been my sister.

Oh Post I love the line! I will be using it, and definitely in for a focused week! Good memory about the DCs, DD the eldest and DS the 'one that if he'd come along first, he'd have been the last' .

Excellent NSV and well done for standing your ground - even if it wasn't your finest hour! I forgot my NSV - got a fab red knee-length dress in the DP sale, reduced, and it fits beautifully. Dead swishy

That sounds lovely Tractors! Swishy is very good I’ve gone a bit blank on what to do with DC’s that age. What are they both into doing? Diggerland for DS looking at your Nickname?! If you’ve broken up does that mean you’re more in the upper bit of country? Actually maybe a thread in chat is a good idea as that vanishes after a bit, please ignore questions here as might be a bit identifying.

We’re a one child household currently. Thought DD was very quiet whilst away and was thoroughly enjoying the peace when in the evening DS came to find me as DD sent him to check everything was ok as I’d been ignoring her messages, found I had muted the chat by accident !