Thanks all.
Im quite down about it as my 20s were a total write off and my 30s almost the same.
I was paying back so much debt in my 20s and on crap money that I did no travel or anything at all. I didn't even bother looking for a partner as I thought no one would want me with no money.
Then came my thirties and I didnt really get my ass in gear until I was about 32. Then I did some travel, took up new hobbies, met someone.
Then a couple years later, lied to, cheated on, dumped, met another lied to and cheated on by next one, and next one.
Illness, job stress, job loss.
So thats another decade a total fucking write off. Now Im 38. So the 40s is a little late to get it together and have a family now. So the realisation that i really have left it all too late.
One of my old colleagues at work got married at 25 and had a baby at 30. What the fuck have i done with my life.