Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

thank you. I have 2 under 2 plus a nearly 7 year old where does the time go? I'm going shopping tomorrow. I've actually wrote a list and a meal plan instead of just grabbing stuff I fancy!

Granted my meal plan isnt exactly healthy as in made fresh, but I'm trying to use up my freezer stock as it needs defrosting.

I'm absolutely knackered and my earache hasn't gone so I'm going to try and sleep now. Night all. Tomorrow is a new day

Well done on writing a list and meal plan, it's makes sticking to a diet a bit more manageable doesn't it. My ds'sended up having dinner at friends this evening so I haven't cooked yet and am giving into snacking, which is not good!

Well I was unexpectedly out all day so my meal plans went a bit AWOL. I have shifted everything back a day, as I was going to buy more on Friday. Now I don't need to. I've bought porridge and lots of fruit too. £15 on fruit to be fair, some of it is for splitting up and putting into hampers for the elderly.

Hello! I am also at my heaviest ... have been like this for ages now. My kids are 6 and 3 and I have never lost my pregnancy/breastfeeding weight.

I am 5ft3 and 95kg. I am a size 18/20 and I have a huge overhanging belly.

I have been in denial about my weight for so long. Last night I calculated my BMI and realised I needed to lose 37.5kg! I overeat horrendously due to tiredness and work stress.

Planning to make big changes to my lifestyle and hope to be posting lots here for support.

Hi there this hope to see you around a bit more, whunge, moan, or celebrate and we will be here

Ninja how's your ease? I hope you're feeling better!

Hi this, welcome ?? what are your plans? I think there are a few of us who also have a lot to lose so you're in excellent company!

How was yesterday Rose?

I'm going to have a bit of a moan now, I need a good talking to! Yesterday was weigh in and I put on 2lbs. Not unexpected but I am devastated. To top it off I dropped my iPhone and the screen is cracked so it will be an early trip to the apple shop to pay a fortune for a repair today! Bloody brilliant!!

Decided to weigh myself again today and it said I was 4lbs heavier than yesterday!! I can only hope my scales are dying because I stuck to plan yesterday with a small bowl of raspberries and cream and 2 squares of dark chocolate as a treat. I just feel like giving up right now. I think I need to use MFP to track the carbs in my food because there must be some sneaky carbs in my diet somewhere!

Welcome this, good luck it's really tough isn't it.

Ninja it's amazing how quickly food adds up isn't it, but then I Def use to spend more on chocolate.

Lemme, yesterday was fairly average, no snacks between meals buty actual meals weren't great, a friend knows I am going through a rubbish time at home atm and took me out for lunch, I tried to have a salad but she insisted on treating me and said a salad wasn't a treat so I gave in, terrible excuse I know! However I did get a phone call to say I have an interview on Friday so feeling more positive today and determined to stick to the plan

Fruit not food!

I know! Im so glad I get healthy start vouchers.
Ear ache is gone now. I've had a handful of skittles this morning but I will burn it off today with how DD is being! She has already poured my brew all over the floor, tipped milk all down her elsa dress then threw a tantrum when I had to take it off her to wash, tried to climb on top of the baby and attacked the cat. Poor kitten.

Of dear, sounds like you had your hands full this morning Fatty, I hope you day got calmer.
I went into town to do a bit of shopping today and was very good and got a shapers meal deal from boots for my lunch, breakfast was porridge so that was good as well but I have just had a brioche (or 2) with the boys after school.

Aw thank you everyone :)

Day two and I'm still doing ok.

My plans are to eat much less and exercise more, even if the exercise is just five minutes extra walking. I've spent too long telling myself that "five mins won't make any difference" - but frankly it's got to be better than nothing which is what I have been doing!

I'm starting a new job on Monday and it's two miles from my house so I'm planning to walk there and back every day.

I've just had enough of being this size, really, really had enough. I don't even enjoy all the food I eat. I buy huge bags of crisps and huge bars of chocolate and then force myself to eat them. It really is incredibly pointless and I'm now concerned about my health.

I've been really good and made myself salads for lunch twice now. Usually I wouldn't bring anything and end up having a chocolate croissant mid morning, chips for lunch, and maybe a muffin or a load of biccies in the afternoon.

So unhealthy :(

What makes it worse is my DH is incredibly healthy and also loves cooking fresh, delicious food. So I really have no excuse :(

I was brought up on pasta, fried food and frozen pizzas. My mum and dad still eat chips and frozen pizza most nights (they're not fat though). Thinking back, I have had really unhealthy habits since being a teenager. I have been very big before and lost it all through calorie counting and exercise - but that was before my kids.

This is helping, thanks again everyone x

Aw this we are here. I have a really bad relationship with food. I'm currently in the process of convincing myself I will be OK not go eat as much, I won't stop eating completely. When I had the SPD with DD I also suffered PND and stopped eating. I fainted. I ended up forcing myself to eat and the weight piled on and I never stopped, even when I was pregnant with DS2 and really really struggling with SPD.

I've just had porridge with raspberries and raisins and an apple. Was really nice. I'm stuffed now though so hopefully no snacking between now and lunch.

Ooh that sounds likes a nice breakfast, I just had a bowl of cereal.
I am really struggling with food atm, I've been feeling fairly low and food is my go to thing when I feel low.
I have a physio appointment today, Im hoping I get the go ahead to get back into a bit more exercise.

I need to start having breakfast! Before this was having a big bowl of granola, and then a mid morning snack of a chocolate muffin or croissant.

Since starting on Monday I haven't managed breakfast once.

I have had little to no appetite, it's really very strange.

Salads for lunch three days in a row! Not eating massively healthy aside from that but am very, very conscious of calories and being very careful.

The porridge sounds gorgeous.

How's everyone getting on?

Rose, I decided you were right. I'm going to wait until I get to a size 16 before I buy any clothes. I have never had a great sense of style, I can piece together an outfit that I think would look good but on me I'm afraid everything looks awful

I am a lipstick fiend so I think when I get to the 21lb goal (which seems a lot further away than it was last week!) I'll treat myself to the Rimmel lipstick I've been admiring for weeks

Made a low carb chocolate mug cake yesterday. It was nice but not gooey chocolate cake lovely-ness type nice. I definitely couldn't eat it every day like I could with normal cake!

Trying to drink more water as well but my attempts have been pitiful!

Letme, glad to hear I'm not the only one who struggles with drinking enough water and a new lipstick is a great reward, when I my first stone I am going to treat myself to a book, a naff romance that I normally wouldn't treat myself to.

Thisis, I have to force myself to have breakfast but I know I will have rubbish snacks if I don't.

On the whole I am not doing well at all to be honest. I have a job interview tomorrow that I really need to prepare for, but my eldest has been terrible all week and I just feel totally frazzled. My physio still isn't keen for me to exercise much either.

Hi, can I join you please. I haven't read the whole thread and was going to wait until I had before I started but decided to go for it.

I have an almost 6 week old baby, I am only 6lbs up on my pre pregnancy weight but that was 16st13 so not good.

I'm now 17st5 and am going to use my fitness pal to log calories. I've used it before so know if I stick to it it works. I need to do something now because I'm on maternity leave stuffing my face all day and not going to work to burn it off. Luckily I've ended up with a baby who is happiest out and about so I've been walking a lot with her.

Ive had porridge and fruit for breakfast instead of crumpets with butter and jam.

I hope every one is doing well, off to carry on reading the thread now.

Hi daffodils
It's so hard with a baby! Mines ten weeks tomorrow. And the other is 21 months. (Big ones nearly 7!)

I'm really struggling. I don't feel hungry a lot of the time. I'm eating out of boredom and stress. I really need to take back control instead of just shovelling things in. Problem is every time I try I end up not eating at all and that's just as bad!!! Argh!

I have been snacking all week and need to get back to actually planning filling meals.

Welcome daffodil

Thanks for the welcomes.

Fatty you must be busy with two under two and a 7 year old. I've got the baby, a 9 year old and a teenager, the older two are almost self sufficient and I still find it manic.

I'm struggling today already im starving and there aren't a lot of healthy snacks in the house. I've been for a walk with the baby which was supposed to send her to sleep but she's too nosy. Half way through my pelvis started hurting, I had bad spd when I was pregnant that went straight away when she was born so in worried about starting anything back off.

I had it too. With DD (21 month old) it didn't go. I had physio until she was 10 months old. Then I got pregnant with DS2 so I ended up on crutches. By the end I couldn't move at all. I still have to use my crutches sometimes now. So yes, do be careful not to over do it. And pelvic floors are very important as they hold everything together.

You poor thing it not going. I was so fed up by the end, I was pretty much housebound, couldn't even walk from the car to the shop. I'm still enjoying the fact I can do normal things.

I couldn't make it to my downstairs loo.
I was literally carried around the house, and that's not easy considering my weight, and I was carrying a 10lb 10 oz baby!

Wow 10lb10!! My almost 6 week old isn't that heavy now.