Officially my heaviest and time to change. Anyone with me?

[DreamingOfADifferentMe]

Hi all,

Well, having just returned from a gorgeous week's holiday, I decided to take the plunge and step onto the scales. Bloody hell.

I'm officially the heaviest I've ever been. I look awful. And I'm desperate to change. I've spent the last few days reading threads on here that I think will inspire me and I'm determined to make a change.

I have a number of milestones to get to, including a holiday in October, but the big one in my head is going to see the GP in a few weeks' time for a repeat prescription for my contraceptive pill. Last year, she made some reference about my weight as they may not have been allowed to prescribe it, given my high BMI. She did, and prescribed me a year's worth, and they're nearly gone. Have I lost weight? Have I heck - I'm actually heavier, and I can't bear the idea of going back and having the same utterly humiliating conversation.

So, I'm just debating the best approach. I know low/no carbs works really well for me, though I can struggle to stick with it, but that's what I'm going for initially.

This morning I weighed in at 15st 11, and I'm just 5ft 4. I'm a size 18. This cannot be who I am. I am not the woman who looks back at me in the mirror.

My mission is to shift, ideally, around 3st initially. I know that I look and feel great at 12st something, and even though I'll be far from a size 10 skinny minnie, I will feel fantastic. Then, when I get to that point, we'll see.

However, when there's such a long road ahead, I know I get easily defeated. So, does anyone fancy a hand to hold along a similar path? I'm happy to give tonnes of support and will cheer folk on, anyone fancy returning the favour?

I don't mind being called fatty, it has been my nn from my stepdad since I was pg with DS1 and it stuck, even when I was a size 10.
thanks for the words of wisdom dreaming its only been a week of properly trying. I just need to give it time.

Hi folks. Been offline a lot more this week due to the whole hacking, shutdown fiasco. I've done reasonably well (particularly with exercise) although having takeaway tonight I think

ugh, gone way over my calorie limit today. I'm tired so ate shed loads of sugary crap. haribos and 7 bags of Frazzles, no wonder I'm overweight!

exercise is out of the window, my back is playing up.

Oh no. Hope your back improves soon, backache is the pits!

I've been good today and am (way) under my calorie limit. Mostly because I was mad busy today taking my Dad to his daycare at the hospice and then meeting my dsis at Costa. I don't like their cakes as they are uber sweet and my sis had already bought me my coffee so no counter temptation.

I ran around doing jobs and visiting different people and shopping and it was only when I sat down at 6.30pm to my dinner that I realised that it was the first I'd eaten today.

Yesterday I was 2lb up on my last weigh in! So it's a good feeling to be in control today.

Tomorrow will be no breakfast as I'd prefer the lie in. Then a pancake at lunchtime at a craft centre/cafe where I'm taking the girls tomorrow. Perhaps a subway club sandwich for dinner if I succumb to temptation although I shouldn't for the sake of my bank balance if nothing else. The fridge is full of some lovely healthy things to have anyway.

I've been given the go-ahead by the physio who works for my surgeon's dept to go back to the exercise I did pre my hip op at 12 weeks post op. Which is next week. I have to take it carefully but I've been doing that for 3 years while struggling to get a diagnosis and then waiting for the surgery while my mobility got worse. Very much looking forward to it. :)

7 bags of frazzles! Wow. I get horrific bacon burps from just one packet. You'll be tasting them all night.

Well, things went better food wise than I thought they would.

I skipped breakfast as always but did have lunch before going out with the DDs. Low fat pate on toast (again).

I didn't fancy the pancake at the craft place and we didn't succumb to Subway going past. Instead I made my own pizza at home using the Warburtons thins as bases. Yummy. I'm a few hundred cals below what I can have for the day and am getting hungry so there may be a bowl of crunchy bran cereal before bed.

Then tomorrow it's bowling and a film with DD and I do have sweets for the cinema.

I need a good talking to please!

I'm 46, nearly 15 stone and my heaviest ever. I need a hysterectomy but must lose weight first.

Yet I just keep messing about. I just stuff my face all the time, my clothes don't fit, I have no energy, I'm not doing things with DD (8) as I'm so unfit and I'm so angry with myself.

Yet I'm still eating, I don't stop until I feel sick and can't fit anymore in.

I've decided next week things have to change. I can't decide what to do though, I've had results with WW and SW, has anyone tried clean eating and had good results?

Sorry for the moaning me me me post!

Welcome MTW :) I'm not really taking a particular approach but definitely want to eat cleanER if that makes sense. But my main thing is reducing snacking/sweet foods. Not banning - I know it won't work for me.

That said, the last couple of days I've felt REALLY out of control, I still think it's not as bad as it would've been a couple of months ago (as then I just would've eaten everything in the house and not felt remotely bad about it) but I've had really crappy food (some of which I didn't even enjoy - I should've made a better choice from the menu at lunch today) and not had the willpower to say no to snacks.

I just feel really crap today, emotionally I mean, have lost control of spending and housework too and just feel really despondent about everything, BLAH. Think I might have missed a couple of ADs actually, that may be behind it.

Unfortunately I have a bad feeling that I may be heading for a bug as I have that horrible raspy scratchy windpipe feeling (I get a lot of chest infections). Hoping it turns into nowt though.

I've been really bad these past few days. Probably because I'm not sleeping so I'm eating high sugar foods to try and get an energy boost . not good.
Today has been different though. I've had no breakfast as I wasn't hungry, and I'm just eating a chicken wrap which is less than 300 calories. Tea is sausage casserole and roast potatoes.

I am really struggling too. YY to the not sleeping = snackage. I keep skipping lunch too because of work patterns. In a shitty mood generally.

Well done for turning it around!

It's my DS' birthday tomorrow and we will be going out for lunch, so I'll attempt to not snack in the morning. DS does have a cake but thankfully I'm not overly keen on it (just a normal shop bought Avengers cake!) so if DS really wants me to have some, I'll only have a tiny bit.

I love cake I wouldn't be able to resist, luckily there's no birthdays down this way until the very end of October.
I've just had a mooch to sainsbos, because it took me an hour to get there walking and pushing the double, then half hour to wander round I burnt over 500 calories. I got a taxi back though, no way was I walking for another hour with all the shopping as well as the pram!

Hello again to you all. I posted about a week ago, then there was the hacking fiasco and then we went on holiday for a few days.

The good news is that I lost 1lb whilst on holiday. Only 1lb but I expected to put on a couple of lbs.

Today I've had scrambled egg and 1 slice of wholemeal toast for breakfast. We're going to my parents' for lunch and having gammon with potatoes and veg. Not bad and mum gives smaller portions ???? Only challenge is mum's trifle for pudding which is yummy!!!

Hello. That's great news, 1lb is better than nothing.
I'm being really bad today and having fried egg and cheese on toast for my tea. I will have to work extra hard to burn it off.

Yay for the 1lb loss - that's excellent especially as you were on holiday! I'm going to a family wedding and I don't think it'll be good for my waistline. Although we are staying at a farm and hopefully we will have the time for some nice country walks.

I weighed in again as it's Monday - I'll be honest I was SO tempted not to, I was convinced I'd put on everything I'd lost. But amazingly I haven't, BMI dropped a tiny amount, still pretty much exactly 17st. I ate like a pig this week so very surprised - I'm wondering if maybe my view on what is 'overeating' has actually shifted a little, as a few months ago maybe this week wouldn't have counted as 'bad' - does that make sense?!

Couldn't finish either course at DS' birthday lunch yesterday, and didn't have any cake - got lots of family visiting today so will be slicing it up for them if they want some.

I've lost 2lb, I'm convinced it was just the big poo I did though. I think I'm probably going to find it easier than I used to to lose weight though, I've been pretty much immobile for two years and now I can suddenly move again.
I understand what you mean by our perception changing. I now no longer think eating an entire box of chocolates in one sitting is a good idea!

How's everyone doing today?

I had hot chocolate and toast for breakfast (not great) and cheese sandwich with crisps and carrot sticks, cucumber and tomato for lunch. We're having fajitas for tea which seem to make me eat less due to the time I spend loading and rolling them if that makes sense?!

I made myself two cheese pittas for lunch, I could only eat one. I don't tend to eat breakfast so I just had a cup of tea. I'm having fried egg chips and beans for tea though so not healthy at all

Howdy all, just to say I've not slipped off the face of the planet, but been swamped with being away, getting the kids ready for school, work stuff and generally trying to get myself organised for the new term and failing miserably, it has to be said.

Anyway, I'll be back online tomorrow, and we CAN and WILL do this. All of us.

Another one just popping by to say that I too have not fallen off the face of the earth, I am back to school and it's DDs first day in nursery so we've just been busy getting ourselves organised for that. If I EVER finish printing / laminating / gathering resources / washing / drying / ironing etc. tonight I'll come back with a proper update.

Hope everyone is well xx

I've been really bad lately, I've been really busy so I've not been eating properly. Start again tomorrow, just have to pay attention to portion sizes

Back from a fantastic weekend at SILs' wedding.

Amazingly despite eating loads and having alcohol, my BMI dropped slightly by another 0.something, no pounds lost but I'm now just under 17st.
Really need to pay attention again now, I've slipped the last couple of weeks. It's all very well maintaining but I do need to actually lose weight! A lot of it!

My plans have gone out of the window . It's this time of year, I hate it. It's the anniversary of bad shit that I don't like to think about so I have ended up eating for comfort

Well, I fell off the thread and the strict calorie counting :( Holidays, meals out etc mean it hasnt been a great month, but I weighed myself (on a different set of scales) last Thursday and am still at 14st 3lb. Yay me :) I wont be able to get back on the other scales until January (work hire these super-doopah all singing all dancing health things twice a year for a month at a time), but will see how my body fat is then.

I am eating less, I am snacking less, in general I am eating healthier meals. I have cut out a lot of the fizzy drinks, and am having squash much more, or even water, although I have started having a mocha or latte most days. I am no longer craving a trip to the cafe to buy one of their gorgeous cakes, and even when other staff do I have no big desire for one. So hopefully these little steps will work their way towards a steady weight loss. I just need to stay away from meals out/take-aways!

Hope everyone else is doing ok. And remember, slow and steady wins the race, even if, like the hare, you fall asleep (aka fall off the weight loss eating wagon), it doesn't mean you wont cross the finish line, it'll just take a little longer.