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A space to talk openly about weight loss journeys and challenges. Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. You may wish to speak to a medical professional before starting any diet.

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BigMoFos Week 18

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 10:10

New week, new thread ...

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JackieNo · 07/09/2006 10:13

Well done all - especially Whoops, dottydot and Fluttterbee.

coppertop · 07/09/2006 10:51

Well done, everyone.

justamum · 07/09/2006 10:55

well done everyone!

suejoneziscalmernow · 07/09/2006 11:24

thats a good week. I may try to weigh today so that if I have in fact lost anything that I won't be taking credit for it next week.

Even with only losing a stone (I say only not becasue its not good but because as a opercentage of my weight it is small) I have discovered that I can get back into a linen top I bought last summer and then shrank slightly in the first wash so hadn't worn it since. It is still a little more snug than I like but I braved wearing it to work today and am feeling very smug about it. And also about being brave enough to wear anything that could be described as snug!

JackieNo · 07/09/2006 11:27

That's a good feeling, isn't it sue. I'm looking at my wardrobe with different eyes now too - thinking that I might be able to fit into some things that I've had for a while, and even my normal clothes are looking better, because they're that bit looser. I am going to have to give at least one summer skirt away though, as it's just too big. Never thought I'd be able to say that.

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 12:40

Is there anyone there to stop me from going and eating the fridge? Depression is rearing its ugly head again, and I'm struggling with the urge to self-medicate with food.

I know what's triggered it so I at least know that it will pass, but there's nothing I can do about it other than wait until it does. Meanwhile the fridge is calling me. I want to go out for a walk because that sometimes helps, but I can't because dh is having a hire-car delivered sometime today and I need to be here to sign the forms.

Just sitting here in tears wanting to eat and eat and eat to make it all better. But it won't. I could really do with a boot up the bum but don't even know if I ought to press Post because I feel awful for whinging at everyone again. I'd post on the Depression board but to be honest I value the support I get here far more.

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Dottydot · 07/09/2006 12:54

Awww - WWB - I know just how you feel. Probably no helpful advice - other than keep typing on here! That's what I did the other night - kept looking at threads and posting stuff - mainly so I wasn't walking into the kitchen and eating stuff. I was a bit miserable and bored and it's the first thing I do.

How about making a coffee or a tea instead? Or the other thing I did last week (it was a bad week!) was to have a lovely deep hot bath, which was a real treat as I usually don't have time for such luxuries!

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 12:58

Thanks, Dotty. I might go and have a bath, actually - at least I can't get to the fridge from there! Fingers crossed that the hire car man doesn't turn up while I'm in there, I wouldn't want to be held responsible for what the sight of me wrapped up in a towel might do!

I have to fetch dd from school later, which will at least keep me occupied so all I have to do is keep going until 3.

I hate this depression, it's an evil thing.

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schneebly · 07/09/2006 12:59

Oh WWB - sorry you are feeling low. I have eaten like a pig for the last 6 weeks or so and gained back the whole stone I had lost. Don't want you to end up like me back at square one. Do you do anything like knitting etc to keep your hands busy or something else to distract you? Otherwise just keep talking to us on here! You will get through it!

schneebly · 07/09/2006 13:00

bath idea is good - always makes me feel a bit better too!

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 13:02

I do cross-stitch but my hands are knackered so I can't sit for long - and I've spent the last three days sewing a square for one of the MN blankets that's doing the rounds so am in too much pain to stitch today. I don't have the patience to knit.

Schneebs, I think you can probably be forgiven for putting the weight back on again, you know. When you're ready to get back to losing it again you know where we are. How's it going now?

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schneebly · 07/09/2006 13:12

I am sorry about your hands . A bath is probably your best bet then.
From the second I found out I was pg I started eating like a pig because I had an 'excuse' - completely out of control and then of course the emotional eating began when I had MC and just got worse. Being away at my college thing didn't help either with B & B breakfast every morning and college cafeteria at luch and dinner at a restaurant all week! I feel kind of disgusted with myself TBH. The thing that is getting me down most now is the lack of control I have over my eating rather than anything else. I have made a positive decision to start tomorrow morning though and already have my food planned out. I am going to use the Weight Loss Resources website instead of going to SW (cheaper and more flexible) just to keep tabs on calorie and fat content and to keep records of my food and feelings etc so I will be back posting on here a much as I can too. I can't believe I have wasted all that time putting weight back on when I could have been losing more. I could have been 14st by now.

schneebly · 07/09/2006 13:14

Sorry - that was a bit me me me. I am not very good at this support thing am I?

schneebly · 07/09/2006 13:20

I hope you are ok WWB. Just remember - you started this thing off and look what all these people have achieved and you were the catalyst! You should be very proud of yourself for not only that but losing weight yourself depite battling depression for it is not an easy thing to do. You are always there for everyone too. I really admire you.

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 13:21

Oh, don't be daft. It doesn't all have to be about me just because I asked for someone to talk to! Will take my mind of things for a bit anyway

Don't beat yourself up, you've been through a lot and I think at the moment you just need to be nice to yourself for a bit. So what if you've put a bit of weight on ... once you're ready to start to shift it, it will come off again. It will only delay you getting to your target by a short while in the scheme of things, so from that respect it's not really wasted time.

Having control of your eating will be easier when you've had time to grieve and get over the m/c. Right now things are still pretty new and I suspect pretty raw, maybe you just need a bit more time. Just don't get too down on yourself about your weight right now, I know sometimes it's easy to use it as something to focus on to take your mind off other things, but I really think you just need to be kind to yourself for a while.

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suejoneziscalmernow · 07/09/2006 13:21

Scheebly - sometimes you need support sometimes you give it. It's the same for all of us - don;t think there's one of us that hasn't needed support at some time or other.

Look at it another way you could have been 16 stone by now! You would still have put on the extra stone, lucky for you, you lost it in advance. You are still here, still talking... and still being too hard on yourself

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 13:22

I'm OK, schneebs. Usually I can keep it pretty much under control but there are certain triggers that get me every time and sometimes I just fall into one of those holes in the road. These days I can usually get out again, which is a vast improvement over a couple of years ago.

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suejoneziscalmernow · 07/09/2006 13:25

WWB - its so hard when you recognise old eating patterns coming back but I remember you went through this about 6 weeks (?) ago and it only lasted about a week and you have gone on to lose weight after that.

You do know even if you succumb that it is only temporary, right?

If you can find other things to do and stave off a binge thats great and I'm sure will help you feel that you are in control. But if you do eat too much, we will all be here again tomorrow starting again, and the day after and the day after, none of us are going anywhere fast so just ride it out and do the best you can.

suejoneziscalmernow · 07/09/2006 13:30

Oh and I weighed myself (machine repaired) and have actually lost a pound. Half a stone to get into the teens not the twenties...

JackieNo · 07/09/2006 13:31

Oh WWB - just came back from lunch to see the messages. No real suggestions (except to second the having a cup of tea or coffee one - I often say to myself 'OK - I will allow myself to have a biscuit/cake/whatever but I'll drink a huge glass of water and have a cup of coffee first' and by the time I've done that, the urge is starting to pass.). Hope you're hanging on in there. How about giving yourself a hand massage with some hand cream or body lotion - it might make your hands feel better, and would put you off handling food for a bit? Do your nails (not a tip I can try as I bite mine)?

Can I also say that you and sue are the reason we're all here on these threads - and just think of all the support we'd all have missed out on if you hadn't started them. You rock! .

JackieNo · 07/09/2006 13:32

Oh well done suejonez.

JackieNo · 07/09/2006 13:32

Note to self - must stop starting every post with 'oh'.

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 13:34

I'm trying, sue, I really am. I know I do this when I'm down, doesn't make it any easier to handle when it happens.

I know it's temporary, I know it won't be too damaging in the scheme of things if I lose it and have a binge, but the loss of control is something I have to try and ... well ... control. I can't keep justifying bingeing to myself and anyone else otherwise I legitimise it - does that make sense? I get these depressive episodes and I have to learn to cope with them in other ways rather than eating the fridge.

I'm going to go and have a bath, I think, I've got a little while before I need to go and fetch dd from school and right now I think the housework can wait! I have bubbles and I'm going to use them ...

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WigWamBam · 07/09/2006 13:35

Oh Jackie, thank you ... I know I don't rock really but it's nice to have your ego massaged sometimes

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JackieNo · 07/09/2006 13:36

You do, you know. Enjoy your bath.

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