your lunch sounds yummy kid. I have been known to do mushrooms in garlic and frylite and mix with pasta. for some reason I am a bit suspicious of fromage frais!
may I have my little rant now? you may tell me IABU but obviously I'd prefer it if you didn't!
You may remember bastard BIL decided to announce the marriage was over before xmas, and it took til New Year, with lots of sniping and mudslinging to get him to realise he would have to leave the family home (taking exactly what he wanted). Obviously, and quite rightly, we all pulled together, xmas based around sis and her DC, allowances made etc. And so it continued, his true colours becoming obvious (IMO he has always been a self-righteous bully, obsessed with his own self-importance, and living his life regardless of his DC), more nastiness, loads of accusing texts flying backwards and forwards, no talking things through etc. (I am not unsympathetic. My DH left me - completely unexpectedly - 2 years ago on 4th March, but we did manage to talk and sort things out). I am struggling because - it seems me and dsis are polar opposites, where I would have died rather than have anyone see how I truly felt, every emotion is worked through (with more details of personal stuff than I think is appropriate TBH). This is also done in full view of the DC, rather than trying to protect them from the worst
. And where when I was in this situation, my DM was constantly questioning and being a bit snippy to me, she is not doing this with sis, instead I am still on the receiving end of all that. Also as BIL took both computers with him, I got hold of a decent computer for Dsis for nothing,and set it all up etc. She has probably had it 3 weeks before going out and buying a brand new one. This is all quite pathetic and superficial on my part, but I need to vent!
The worst bit is the constant "I've lost so much weight, my clothes are falling off." "I've got so clothes for you to look at, they're too big for me". (I lost 2 stone when DH left me, and I didn't mention it to anyone, let alone rub it in to anyone who was strugling to lose weight themselves). When i brought the last lot home my DM said "lets hope they'll be too big for you soon then" in a really not-nice way, and wasn't interested in the fact that they were bit on the large side, but I can make use of some tidier stuff, and ATM I can't afford to be picky about a bit of bagginess. And DMs constant reminding of how much weight Dsis has lost (yes, because she isn't eating anythin except cup-a-soup, and is puking
, but apparently that doesn't matter, despite teenage niece now making a big fuss about not being able to eat at mealtimes "because of the situation" then stuffing her face on leftovers/biscuits/crisps/chocolates as soon as the meal is cleared away). The final straw (prompting this bitchiness) is that sis has been prescribed ADs today (fair enough, she is in a horrible situation), but I clearly remember DM telling me that no doctor could give me any medication to sort out my marriage (and a lack of understanding when I am down and could probably do with a trip to the GP, so I end up hiding it and not going etc. I know I have struggled with depression etc for a very long time, but that isn't my fault, I aren't doing it on purpose)
Sorry, for huge rant. Just feeling like I can't do anything right ATM. And worrying about Dsis is hard. She was doing so well, and BIL has talked to her this week (more lies IMO, and manipulation to push the blame onto dsis) and she's swallowed it all, and seems to have lost all her "fight". Also worried about my parents, they have really aged and look exhausted