The Big Fat List and the Days of Doom (TM)

[BlooferLady]

You lot! Over 'ere! Sorry for taking liberties with the previous thread: I am no good with suspense, and it was like looking at a gigantic throbbing pustulating boil and not being able to squeeze it

norty Stinky!!
Top effort on the losses, worry not if it's coming off slowly - the only way is DOWN ladies!
Cheese my start weight was 13st, yikes!
C4ro - no wooden spoons here, you're doing the right things, it WILL work

cheese I usually weigh in on Monday's, I can switch to Wednesday's for next week. My loss so far since starting SW is as follows, wk1 = 6lb loss, wk2 = 1lb loss, wk3= 3lb loss so my total loss so far is 10lb

Just got back from aerobics. I'm getting better and am lasting longer. I even managed to do some proper sit-ups there tonight. Usually I only manage to get my shoulders off the floor!

I cooked the spinach and cottage cheese cannelloni tonight and it was delicious, even DH and DC ate it. DH actually said it was the best thing I've made

Forgot to say, I wore a new pair of trousers today that I bought ages ago. They fitted well and when I checked the label, I was surprised but happy to see there are a size 14! Hope I'm back in my size 12s soon.

Hey Busty Beauties! I haven't even weighed myself today as I knew things had gone from bad to worse. I am continuuing to watch fred but I am finding it really hard to stay motivated on both ttc and tt get thin - it seems I am a crap multitasker.

Have decided that if I am not diffed this month then I will be back here with a vengeance and have a real concerted effort. Hope that's ok.

Well done Alps that's 'mazin.

oh Gosh stinky, your poor DH. Mine's Eng Lit type too. It's just the most draining horrible lonely isolating thing. And you doubt EVERY WORD you write. For years (4 in my case and 5 if you count the year I didn't do anything because my supervisor was on sabbatical ). I hope he feels better now that's out of his mind. Also - and I am seriously not taking the piss - in my darkest days I was prone to yelling "I want to be a church of england Vicar" (I have a tormented sort of faith that in retrospect wouldn't lend itself to the ecclesiastical life but it occasionally looked tempting). Anyway- I do understand, and wish him all the bestestest.

Well done to all losers, especially that there pony!

Now then. I had A Day Off yesterday and began with jerk chicken salad which was totally SW, even down to the skin being removed, and then moved on to a Hungarian chimney cake (imagine my delight on discovering a cake that not only had I never eaten, but I had NEVER HEARD OF!) the size of my arm, the meat from half a fresh coconut, then home for cheese, wine and chocolate. I feel SICK now and am desperate to get back in the saddle, so today will be:

B - yogurt and fruit
L - courgette and bean stew with feta (HEA)
D - prawn vermicelli singapore noodles, stewed apple and honey (HEB, 2 syns)

I am going to try and keep the syn count low today to compensate for yesterday, and I shall also go the gym. The main reason I've not been going is because the trainers keep coming and talking to me and trying to get me to sign up to stuff and I am SO shy in a gym setting and just want to be left the fuck alone...

huh. Lost half a measly half of a measly pound yesterday at weigh in. And I thought I'd been reasonably restrained this week. I've lost four pounds this month and need to shift another fourty two. At this rate I'll look gorgeous in my shroud- it's so haaaaaardddd.

See? I can't even spell forty, never mind lose it..

Couldn't get to the computer in time to log weigh in yesterday due to entertaining the in laws, but have somehow lost 1lb - which is better than a poke in the eye with a pointy stick, and frankly a miracle given the wine and puddings over the weekend.

Think I need to try writing the food down here more, as I have started finding myself "sneaking" a slice of cheese while I'm using it cooking dinner for DC. While it is not consuming an entire family block of chocolate at one sitting, it could be the thin end of the wedge (of brie).

So today - Breakfast - small slice bread & jam, yoghurt (need to go shopping); Lunch - probably tuna & salad; Dinner - downfall - out again. (Am suddenly sounding like I have some fantastic social life, which is far from true.) Probably tapas-y. Will try to stick to salady / paella type rather than anything deep fried or slathered in cheese etc.

But before that Bloofer I think I need to know what this Hungarian chimney cake is .
I also read your post as your gym shoes had been talking to you - that would put me off going.

zookeeper half a pound off is still off and even at 4 pounds a month you will meet target in less than a year. (trying to be optimistic for you - I am not myself most of the time so fully sympathise)

Mmmmmmm chimney cake. Wonder what it is?

Dd wanted strawberries for breakfast today, so she is currently looking as if she has slaughtered something. Her top may never be the same again...

Todays food:

Strawberries
Weetabix
Beans or spagetti on toast
The other half of the veggie pasta bake from last night, with an hea of cheese
More fruit and yogurt for snacks

Can I ask what motivated everyone to start?

For myself it was being in a shop changing room looking in their floorlength mirror. We only have a mirror over the bathroom sink, so I never get to see below shoulder level. Two babies, the last one almost 9lbs, has meant that the once smooth flab of my tummy has now gone lumpy and saggy. Think bread dough as you're knocking it back. Attractive thought, isn't it! I took one look and left the shop without buying anything. That, plus wanting to eek out my alloted time as long as I can!

Anyone else want to say?

Just googled chimney cake.

OH gosh yes, it was AMAZEBALLS! You unwind it as you eat, and it's all sugar-glazed and crunchy on the outside (mine was rolled in cinnamon and the OM's was rolled in coconut), and all steamy-doughy-soft inside.

Good question about motivations, Bee! Mine is an odd one I think. A coupla years ago I lost 3.5-4 stone (depending on where you count from!). Back then I was very very happy (I am still happy but a bit STRESSED!) and I realised that literally the only thing in my life that was causing me misery was my weight, and I thought come ON Bloofer, if you would just put down the damn fork you'd be so much happier, how hard can it be?! (I was 17.5-18 stone at the time, size 22/24).

I have since gained 2 stone (well - 1.5 stone now, hurrah!). My motivation this time is that a) if I am not pregnant by autumn I will need referral for fertility treatment, and I need to get back to just below 14 stone to get my BMI out of the 'obese' category (you can have IVF etc. if you are overweight, but not with a BMI over 30). And b) - I don't wanna go into lots of details but in the next few months I'll have to look good in photos and meetings and things, because it will be important to what happens in one side of my life (disclaimer: I am not a famous actress ) and I will feel so much more confident that things will go well if I turn up rocking one of my glorious 50s dresses, red lippie and heels, rather than the hempen sacks I currently sport.

so basically my reasons are 50% shallow, 50% solid

See, now I REALLY want one of those cakes.

I am undergoing torture by chocolate. It is not fair. Dd is eating one of her small easter eggs with mini smarties in it, but has left most of it crumbled up over her tray. This means I will have to throw it away!!!!

Never has such an act taken place in this household!

Oh my Lord, I am with you there. Recently I threw away all my baking ingredients . It was weirdly empowering and cathartic but the SIGHT of flour and sugar all upended in the bin over the empty tins of catfood and soggy teabags BROKE. MY. HEART .

Motivation - I go back to work in 2 months after mat leave, and don't want to buy new clothes when I have a wardrobe full of ones that don't fit, (most of which didn't before I was pregnant, and those that did are being binned as they are too knackered.)

I also have had the feeling from some (and I must say not all) people that they have the perception thick waist = thick head. Since I am going to be moving between teams I don't want to keep have disproving this every time. I am not stupid dammit! (socially inept, maybe, but not stupid)

I decided it was time to lose weight after I crept up into the next stone bracket. I didn't even weigh that much when I wa 9 months pregnant with DS

I am now back below that stone (only ever went 1lb over it) and I'm pretty close to being under the stone below too (proud emoticon)

afternoon all.

Bee my motivation is I had my children quite late in life (DS2 @ 42) and I have to stop the rot or I will not be around to see them into adulthood (cripes that sound dramatic) or at best I will be at high risk of developing chronic health issues associated with obesity. Also wanting to get the weight off before menopause cos it will be much harder to shift then than now.

Food today:
B Scrambled egg with cheese and a wholemeal roll (HEA & HEB)
S grapes and fruity ryvita (3 syns for the ryvita but they are yummy)
L leftover veggie curry
D ???

someone asked about the fruity ryvita they are these here 3 syns each but nice and yummy but not too sweet.

tonight is SW group weigh in and then a dash to my exercise class.

My motivation is honestly to look and feel better about myself, to walk into a shop and buy something I like and not something that just about fits and hides whats underneath

Motivation - to get back to where I was pre-kids. I know I won't ever look the same - bfeeding four of them has completely done for my norks... but I'd like to get back down to a weight - 10st-ish.

Thanks so far everyone. Hedgepig I am also a late starter, and at 40 I really need to get it shifted now. Like you I thought about what might be in store health wise, and I don't want my kids remembering me as a constantly ill person if it's something I can avoid.

We are also trying for a dc3 (did I mention I lack sanity?). Well, I would say trying, but with a non-stop 2 year old and a 6 month old who is also on the go day and night who am I kidding that we even have a sex life!!

I want to be healthier, I want to be able to ski harder & faster & I want to ride my horse in competitions and have people look at what I can get my horse to do, not the size of my arse (white breeches are not my friend). I don't want my son to start school and the other kids take the piss out of his fat mummy. I think my career is held back due to my size. I am shy talking to people. I want to do a triathlon. I want to wear beautiful clothes and not always worry about covering a spare tyre/saddle-bags.

The 6lbs I lost this week may have something to do with the 1 meal out and 1 takeaway the week before.

My motivation has many aspects. I want to look better and feel more confident. I don't want to continue looking 6 months pregnant. I want to be fit. I want to be able to set a good example for my daughter. I want her to see me enjoying food in a healthy way, not using it as an emotional crutch or constantly being on a diet.

I don't necessarily want to be a size 10. I'd be quite happy as a fit and healthy size 14. I want something I can maintain fairly easily.

ohhh my motivation is long and complex, but writing it down might help me get focused - which I currently completely lack....

I was ALWAYS slim when I was youg... and I mean ALWAYS - there's a pic of me at 16 and I am SO slim... even my thighs!!! ... I started college and stopped riding my bike everywhere... enter the thighs.. but still a GOOD figure - norks check, flat tum check, the thighs were nothing really - but certainly bigger than before.... I hit 21.... decided to take up running and fucked my back good and proper as I didn't listen to my now DH... so there was me doing my first race for life, with - unbeknownst to me a bluged disc in my back (found out at physio the following week).... this basically caused me all manor of problems on and off for about 5 years.... excercise went from 3/4 times a week karate / running / situps etc to every 3 months a week at karate followed by a fecked back again... now of course - being young, I still ate all the same crap... but wasn't working it off...
slowly put on a couple of stone ... got better, got a little off, then managed to bulge 2 discs in my back once - don't even know how! and another stone creeps on (can you sense a pattern?)

Thats when I first did the paul mckenna stuff - my karate instructor (of many years / friend) did some NLP with me which was ace - I lost 9lb that month! But then had a miscarriage I hadn't been doing it long enough for it to be engrained I don't think, and went back to comfort eating - so that weight went back on!

got pregnant and had DD then yoyo'd a bit from there, even had a go at cambridge diet which got me back down to 12 stone before my wedding, and its crept up again since then....

I KNOW my weight affects my asthma (although didn't cause it - I was 9st diagnosed!), I know it affects my fitness, I don't want to not see my kids grow up (although I am lucky and younger) I have a 4 year old daughter, and I want her to have a GOOD role model, not a classic yoyo dieter like my mum was - I want to do it the right way and keep it off, and teach her good lessons.
I don't think I want to get back down to 9.5stone (my most happy weight) but I think 11 stone would rock and I'd be a comfortableish 12 there :)

well - that was deep! WAKE UPPPPP!

Just got back from bootcamp class and I can see an improvement in my stamina. I even increased my weights tonight but reckon I'll regret that decision tomorrow!
I'm currently tucking in to my chicken chowmein takeaway, don't panic, I synned it!

My motivation is my health is worsening, I weigh more than ever & have fought this battle for a lifetime & I don't want my daughter to have the same issues. She is 2, I want energy to play and to be a good influence.

Day 2- tick!

Food today: muesli, strawberries and fat free Greek yog (HEB). Slice of carrot cake and iced coffee (HEA x 2), hummus & roast veg sandwich with salad (need to plan my lunches out better. I did pick wholemeal bread but the slices were so thick I cannot claim it as a HEB). Steak, fried big mushrooms, tomatoes & salad (HEB for olive oil). More strawberries to come.

Lunch out with friends is clearly where I struggle. It is so hard not to eat cake when a friend says "let's meet for cake). Tomorrow will be cake free.