The Big Fat List and the Days of Doom (TM)

[BlooferLady]

You lot! Over 'ere! Sorry for taking liberties with the previous thread: I am no good with suspense, and it was like looking at a gigantic throbbing pustulating boil and not being able to squeeze it

Many thanks for politely ignoring my TMI on the prev page. Have pulled my socks up now.

My motivation, in two words, is my mother. She died age 63, weighing over 400 lbs, a hard-core alcoholic and desperately unhappy. I will do whatever I have to in order not to follow her on that grim path. Stubborn pregnancy weight and an unfortunate body type be damned - I will learn what I need to learn and change what I need to change in order to have a happy and healthy life.

Love hearing all your motivation stories. I think we're all in this for the right reasons!

Oh Mandalee, I had meant to say that it all sounded rotten, and that I hoped all would be well. I hope you're feeling all right pal. Worst thing about this diet biz is that obviously long-term being hale and hearty and rocking a pair of skinnies is good for the spirits, in the short term nothing would quite do it like two red velvet cupcakes and a pint of strong builder's tea!

Or a Hungarian chimney cake by the way. I wonder if you can order them by courier

Hello Hello one and all,

Busy old day in the Cheese Household for a number of reasons. The day started badly when DD crapped all over her bouncer. I wondered why she was sat in it so quietly, I went over to talk to her and saw poo systematically being bounced out of her nappy. Plus I was mildly hungover after a fun night out last night.

Today I did pilates and walked a fair old way. Food wise:
B - 2x alpen light while clearing up poop/running late for pilates
L - salad and a bulgar wheat thing
D - BBQ with homemade burgers, prawn and veg kebabs and salad.
Syns are 2 gin and slimlines

My motivation is that I am simply too fat. Its grim and noone likes looking at a fatso. And i hate it that my thighs rub together when I walk.

Kid - well done on bootcamp and the planned takeaway
duckymum - fab about losing 1lb - every little helps to quote a leading supermarche
bloofer - my keyboard is covered in drool. I'd like chimney cake now thank you please

Mandalee
Just gone back and read your post again. Hope you are starting to feel better, it is rotten being ill as being a parent, you're not allowed time off to recover.

Hoping you have sorted out the mystery email too. When you are unsure about something, your mind plays havoc until you are thinking all sorts.

Can you appeal the parking ticket? I've had a few over the years, I always contest them but have never won. At least by appealing, it gives you an extra week or so to come up with the cash lol

I am off out for lunch at my sisters house tomorrow. I am going to be prepared though and will take my own lunch with me so I don't have to break the healthy eating like I did today!

Hi all is there room for one large one please?

Always room for one more star

Welcome stargazer - assuming that when you say "large" you don't actually mean 9 stone 3lbs!

mandalee I don't know why, but I feel a bit shocked about what you said about your mum. I mean I know people end up so heavy - any time spent on weight loss surgery forums will show that, but I don't think it's ever been so "close to home" and I know that sounds totally mental and I'll shut up now.

Yesterday we went out to the zoo and I didn't have a chance to have my breakfast before we went out. Stopped for elevenses which then turned in to 90 minutes (don't ask - very frustrating, what's the point in going to the zoo then sitting in the cafe forever? :( )- anyway, everyone else ordered chips & burgers which obviously is a no-no for me but I ended up eating a load of chips, fucking miracle they stayed down - not overly healthy of course. Got home and berated boyfriend for not having had the foresight to buy Ben & Jerry's/chocolate (yesterday was bank holiday) - had more of my dahl (fb fans, yes, I rescued it from over-saltiness).

It's interesting with the pedometer. You're supposed to do 10000 steps a day aren't you? Well I usually do ~4000 just "walking around the house/office" which really surprised me - then the dog walk is another 4000 on our short loop, but I'm yet to get it over 10000 - and if I'm brutally honest, who has the time? The dog walk is a 25 minute stroll, now a power-walk. But I work full-time - I just don't have an hour a day to aimlessly wander. The other annoying thing is that it doesn't register cycling and of course exercise classes (with perhaps the exception of step) are ignored.

Morning Star, we'll all shuffle up and make room! Wednesdays are our Day of Doom (tm) and we publish our stats on the Big Fat List - nothing like bitter competition and public shaming to get the lbs off

Pony I have been thinking about getting a pedometer, but I know for fact there is not a chance of my meeting even half the requirement at the moment. Any time taken away from my studies (including doing this over breakfast) is a potential disaster . Did manage to get to the gym yesterday - only managed 30 mins interval training and a sauna bit that's 300 cals down and least i'm back in the saddle, so to speak.

RIGHT food for today - and I'm doing GREEEEEEEEN:

B - fruit, yoggit, cereal (HEB)
L - Baked potato, cheese (HEA x 2), oranges
D - noodle stir-fry with prawns (HEB), fruit salad and ff fromage frais

The OM wants to take me from a long long canal walk & might use my syns for a cappucino - but ARGH I feel like I shouldn't move from my books If I live to the end of this I'll be very surprised.

Morning all!

Bloofer well done on getting back up to the gym. Tres bien mon amis. Just getting there is a gigantic leap as some gyms can be bloody intimidating.

Pony I'm too scared to use my pedometer. When I was working, I would do around 15000 a day but now I'm home with baby I reckon its way way down.

Pilates yesterday was hardcore - usual instructor away. Crikey, my poor abs.

Heading back to my mothers in the west country for cider and cream teas for a break as DH working all weekend. Mums doing slimming world too so foodwise should be ok. Shes lost nearly 2 st so will hopefully inspire me. However, now she thinks she has the godgiven right to preach etc etc

Yum Yum in my tum:
B - fruit and yog and branflakes
L - Pasta and salad
D - dunno, whatever mum makes! Prob chilli

Right off to enjoy the sun by an emergency trip to mothercare to buy a travel cot and then a drive down the M4 with a 3 month old...oh happy days!

By the way, having a break might help bloofer

Pony - no, it's not mental at all. And I say this as someone whose whole life has been shaped by watching her mother's struggle and failure. It WAS shocking, and heartbreaking, and terrifying, especially since I am the one who clearly inherited her body type (my sister and dad are both skinny minnies, damn them).

I've spent a LOT of time, energy, sweat and tears trying to work out how to deal with the fear that I'm destined, no matter what I try, to end up like her. And that's a hard, scary thing to work through.

I've come a long way, though, and I have to say that even though I'm 10kg heavier than I want to be right now, I'm happier and more content in my own skin than I have been for years. I'm slowly, slowly working out that food and drink are not a solution to painful feelings, but actually compound them. That doesn't mean I get it right all the time, but I'm getting better. I think of it like a disease that I'm slowly getting over. And it gets better as I go. Slowly.

xxx

Pony if I was 9 stone 3 lbs I'd be a very happy bunny :o A bit about me I'm 27 and a single mum to my DD who alternates between being the center of my universe and the bane of my existance. I started sw at the begining of this year at my heaviest of 16 st 12 and managed to lose 26lb before losing my job. Since being home all day the weight has been creeping back up and I'm restarting today at 15st 13lbs

Mandalee your self-awareness is very impressive - it must be the no. 1 thing that's helping you learn healthier and happier ways of being. It's very hard to challenge all the things you absorb as you grow up. Sorry to be unmumsnettishly soppy

Am laughing at centre of universe/bane of existence star! It is so depressing when lost weight creeps back (nearly two stone of it in my case ARGH) but hurrah for still being so much lighter than when you started...

morning everyone, how are you doing?

I am going to stop eating dahl because I'd like to have a solid poo at some point. Fankewe. I know you wanted to know that!

Weighed myself with pj's (well shorts, NOooooo I would never wear shorts in public) and pre-poo and it was looking good.

My boyfriend says my love handles are diminishing which is good - that cock , has simply reduced his pepsi/crap intake a small amount and has lost 7kg! I'm happy for him, he's looking good - but it's soooo unfair. Women need to fight for every pound lost and men just say "oh no, I really shouldn't have FOURTHS, I'm on a diet". Wankers.

I'm thinking of cancelling my Body Balance class tomorrow - I "try too hard" to do all the poses I think and there's one yoga pose where you tuck your legs underneath you and then sort of sit on them. My legs bend that way, but I'm suspected that having my GFA resting on them is what's causing my knees to feel like I've been skiing for a fortnight. :( Rode the horse yesterday and it was magical - we absolutely flew through the forest.

Got my organic deliveries yesterday - "free cucumbers"!

B: strawberries & pear (+ lashings & lashings of creamy coffee)
L: crackers, cream cheese & I will get my caviar this morning
D: Salmon & leeks I think. Maybe a touch of mash.

Ha ha, all you say about da menz is da troofs!

I'm not having a great week. I keep visiting non SW friends and they keep feeding me non SW lunch. I know I don't have to eat it but it would be hard rude to decline their offer.

I'm off out today for a meet-up. I'm taking lunch with me but it will be sandwiches so looks like no SW for lunch for me again. Maybe I shouldn't WI on Monday? Actually I was going to switch to Wednesday WI, that would give me an extra 2 days to lose something. I like that plan, I just need to stop checking my weight daily!

The sun is shining....
bloofer you sound fed up! Keep going my dear. It'll be worth it in the end and other such useless placitudes. Hope you have a frootful day today
Alpine I want your food. well jeal innit ( I is also down with the kid innit)

What is it with boys and losing weight quick sharp. My DH has lost lots too. Hes eating healthy and doing more exercise but also likes a good beer of an evening. All I have to do is open a bottle of beer and I gain a pound.

Todays food:
B: scrambled egg, toms, mushrooms, toast (Heb)
L: Tuna and pasta salad
D: Chicken kebabs a la slimming world, new pots and salad

Had too much wine last night, ooops. think I went over my syns by about 10. Oh well!

Ps kid weigh in on Weds sounds like a plan! Can you not take a salad or something with you to stick to the diet?

I am on day four, did well first 2 days but we went out for a meal yesterday - something we never get to do, so I had 3 courses & exactly what I wanted. Did stick to it the rest of the day though just no idea how many syns.

I have at least got a fridge now though so some fresh food should keep me on track til Weds!

I know what you mean Kid I hate being invited out, I hate not being in control of what I'll eat when I get into SW properly.

I bought some most excellent tupperware for work lunches it has compartments and a chiller thing that goes inside-no lunchbag necessary.

Morning all. I would like to cast a polite veil over yesterday. The amazing non-sleeping 15 week old did for me. When dinner is 2 bags of Nik Naks at 11pm you know you've lost it.

ANYWAY. New day, new start. Breakfast has been yogurt, strawberries and mooosli. Finally eaten the last of my veg box strawberries and am very sad. They were delish and kept so well.

Bloofer you poor thing, it all sounds mis. I remember writing my Masters dissertation, which was a short and piffling thing so nothing like yours, with tears streaming down my face. I lived on chocolate and fizzy drinks while doing it. It is what puts me off doing anything bigger, although I was a bit menkul that year anyway.

You will get through this because you are super smart. As I munched on my lovely strawberries I wondered if perhaps you could use lovely summery fruit as a treat instead? The strawberries are lovely at the mo. And you can mix them with 0% fat greek yogurt and meringues for a low-syn Eton Mess that tastes fab. I know it's not the same as a big slab of chocolate though.

hullloooo

sorry I have not been about again but one of my best friends was busy giving birth in the early hours of yesterday morning so I have HAD to have 2 lots of newborn cuddles already - honest guvner! the best bit of it... I am not even remotely broody! Guess two is the magic number in this house

Well done to everyone doing well

muser - I think with a 15 week old baby you have the excuse to eat whatever crap you sowish! ESPECIALLY if they aren't sleeping!

bloof - your writing thingamebob sounds like a nightmare basically.... I second the idea of lots of fruit - could you make up a batch of summery fruit salad or something and have little (or big) bowls of it to help keep you going? the natural sugars should help too?

alpine- cavier.... oh sweetie dahling... having some bolly too?

I'm back from my lovely holiday in Scotland. Had a week on Mull, got back at midnight last night and am knackered today as a result. We had a proper holiday up there, visited Iona and Ulva, went fishing on a sea loch, saw red deer, otters, seals and sea eagles. Am sitting here plotting how to get a holiday home on Mull now, preferably in one of the tremendously posh bits.

Have been so very norty with food. In my experience there are no fruit and vegetable shops in Scotland - in 4 years at university there I don't recall a single fruit or vegetable on offer, and I made up my daily intake in the form of cider (it is made from apples, right?) - and things haven't changed. In the last week on the old fruit and veg front I have eaten one banana, two small bowls of salad and a bowl of veg soup. On the other hand I have been given a bacon and egg sandwich on white sliced bread with brown sauce every morning. Swings and roundabouts I suppose.

Anyway, back to reality with jeans that don't fit, spotty skin - I'm 41, surely too old for spots for fucks sake - and a vitamin deficiency plus a car full of dirty washing, a dirty house and an overdraft.

Onwards and upwards, and henceforce Pony and her super-healthy diet will be my role model.

Thanks to Cheese for taking over last week's List of Doom - do you want to continue or shall I take it back?

Its been lovely reading the thread and catching up with everyone - I had lots of thoughts when reading through that have completely escaped me now.

Hey all todays been a very good day for me. I've finished my monthlys so I can stop eyeing up the coffee table and wondering what it tastes like. Seriously how on earth am I ever ment to lose weight when I spend 2 weeks a month eating anything and everything in sight?
I've always wanted a Wii and said if they ever went under £100 I'd go and buy one and found out today they were £99.99 so I rushed out and bought one with Just Dance 2 which I did for 30 mins then did my 2 mile abs DVD so I'm exhausted. I think I'm fairly fit untill I do an exercise DVD and end up in a puddle on the floor.

B - a banana
L - ryvita (heB) with cream cheese(heA) and cucumber
D - sw burger chips and beans
snacks pineapple and ml yog

onlyaphase I have confessions to make - i) I am a Scot and ii) I grew up partly on one of those scottish island and I agree 100% that fruit & veg is considered a bit "fancy". Imagine the look on my classmates faces when I told them that not only had I acquired a red pepper, but I had proceeded to stuff & bake it! Salted lamb & whiskey seemed to be mostly what they live on. Funnily enough my dad was back in his home town 2 weeks ago and has returned home (now mid-wales) and was saddened by how generally unhealthy his old classmates were - and puts this down to a diet of deep-fried food & booze. :( Although quite frankly if I had the choice between an iceburg lettuce (why do they sell such tasteless things?) and a deep-fried mealy pudding with a butterie chaser then I know which I'd pick. muser I'm sure knows where I'm coming from! Your holiday sounds wonderful anyway and I'm green with envy. Wildlife and a bit of sea loch fishing is right up my street. You can stick your museum exhibits up your arse, I'd rather stalk a deer and roll in the heather. Whilst the rest of the world is in Marbella, I can be found up a mountain in British Columbia hyperventilating because I've found fresh bear scat.

I was unable to get my caviar - and I think this says more about the "area of town" we live in than me. I have seen it in the posh supermarket here, but at my end of town it's all a bit more frikandel (unidentifyable animal meat shaped in to alien cocks) and chips. I tried the posh supermarket and the fishmongers (mostly fish kebabs using talipia ). I shall go to the posh town as I have crrrrrrrrrravings!