welcome to our newest members, cant believe we are doing so well on our second thread, i expected to be chattering away to myself when i started the last one! to those who are coming in with a lot to lose you arent alone, from my start point i have at least 7 stone to go, we will get there. sorry to those who are taking a break from us i can understand why, it took me nearly a year to get to the point of giving this a proper go and i still havent given in my best really.
feeling a little low today, weighed myself (please no comments about not its important to me)and after 2 months have lost a stunning total of 1lb
yes i have lost inches but that actually made me think i would have a nice figure on the scales today. inches arent going to get me anywhere with a midwife when they start harping on about risk factors. I really did want to be pregnant by the time DH went away but I just cant see it working. so I have until August to get some real weight off. i was aiming to be a stone lighter by this WI, I have spectacularly missed that target! I think its all the more gutting as a lot of my clothes have been getting looser, which im really pleased about, but I had assumed that meant that the scales would weigh lower too, otherwise where on earth have 21inches overall gone?!? 
right then thats enough moping. It has been a lot easier since the seminar in some ways but i still havent been on track but i have coped really well with 2 of my biggest issues, we went to my inlaws for a few days where i always massively overeat and i was ill and we went out for a meal. in all of that i ate relatively sensibly, past full quite a few times but i noticed my signals which isnt something i have managed over there before and i stopped at probably an 8 rather than a 9 or 10 as in the past. since we got back im improving, we had takeaway the night we got back and i didnt just eat and eat, i stopped and left some of my favourite foods. and last night i left a lot on my plate after a gorgeous toad in the hole.
as for last saturday, i really enjoyed myself, my guest did too, we moved seats at the first break after an unpleasant moment with another audience member and shifted to the far right back, as you look towards the stage.I enjoyed the show and found it useful, its clicking into place day by day for me now but the one thing i would never in the world have expected is that the mirror exercise thing has had an impact, I cried through most of that section pretty uncontrolled, Ive never liked who ive seen in the mirror, never felt myself good enough and really didnt think it had made any difference to me at the time. It released a lot of emotions which even then i felt was probably a good thing and the havening was amazing. But since then, I have found myself looking in the mirror and smiling even complimenting myself, this in itself would have been worth the ticket money, i cant quite find a number on the scale but i went into the apollo convinced of being a 10 on the ugly side and thats definitely changed, ive at least hit neutral if not the other side a little 
sorry for the essay!