January 2025 starters - goal weight era

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Morning everyone, so pleased it is cooler today, I do not thrive in the heat.

@Zempy dispraxia is expensive, the effects of it are amplified at 6ft too. I looked in the glass cupboard a couple of days ago and thought 😳, looking a bit sparse. I've always tried to make DC feel ok about it 'never mind, we could do with a bit more room in the glass cupboard', but gawd, we are well down on numbers.

I've had a couple of drinks in the last week or two and I really feel it the next day, even if I have just had a couple of Aperols - such a lightweight.

I bought some lovely linen pyjamas last week, I found myself thinking, well, it is only the price of one month's MJ. Must change that thought process or I will end up bankrupt as I am applying it to multiple purchases.

Started my penultimate pen today - two in the fridge which will give me 11-12 weeks.

We’re seeing a lot less damage since DS1 moved into his own home. Never been diagnosed with dyspraxia but I’ll bet my pension he has it. Most irritating damage was without doubt the dent on the brand new fridge door. DH shows all the signs as well. At work he can do the most complex and fiddly operations, at home he can’t wash a plate without chipping it. Our everyday plates are those cheap tempered glass ones from Ikea. Nobody likes them but I’ve told them if they stop bashing them against the tap I’ll buy nice ones 🤣

Jab day has come around quickly but I’m still feeling quite a lot of suppression so may delay it a day or two. Hovering around 8st 8 which is fine. I’m more concerned about getting my insomnia meds at the moment. The GP can prescribe extended use but there are a few hoops to jump through and I need to get my evidence together. I’ve found a few online pharmacies that will prescribe if necessary. It’s so frustrating when you run up against NICE guidance.

The best bit of news so far is that I’ve gone into battle with HMRC and won! I wasn’t going to bother as I really wanted to avoid being put on self-assessment but HMRC rattled the cage by asking for tax returns for the last two years. So no more tax to pay this year and a lovely two pen refund is on the way. Pens are my latest unit in financial calculations.

@DGmaintaining I just got a jelly bra from Amazon the Prime Day - arrived yesterday. It’s very comfy and has potential to give good shape. I say potential because the cups are a bit small for me - I am still keeping it as it’s just a wfh/Sunday afternoon comfy bra for me so I don’t care if I look squashed. It is also green leopard print because I am all about the class. My poor boobs are just a bit sad now. Still an f/g cup but no volume at the top at all - like a ferret down a trouser leg.

I am still losing weight - I don’t like it as I don’t understand how. My calories are definitely higher and I struggled to lose it on lower calories. It’s not loads or anything but I have lost another half a stone since I have been maintaining/lowering my dose/upping my calories. Just weirding me out a bit.

@Jins good news on the tax refund! And yes, pen costs are a good unit of measurement. I was even dreaming about it last night. Too weird! Still no flipping news on the broken pen situation. I think my plans to make the 12.5mg eke out over the summer is not going to work.

And I’m the clumsy one in our house. I have terrible fine motor skills (writing, chopping, using scissors etc). So I just botch everything and I’m constantly dropping stuff. I didn’t even realise it was a thing until my middle child was diagnosed with it at school. I was just always told I wasn’t trying hard enough as a kid 🙄

I have some jelly bras, straight from aliexpress. They are super comfy and great to wear out and about too, but won't give the same lift than a normal wired bra.

I have been test driving all the bras I own and contrary to my expectationis, it seems that anything with narrower part against the sternum is more comfortable. You would think that wider bra gore would allow to spread the load more evenly, but no. My t-shirt bra was killing me, but today's push up with narrow centre seems to be fine.

I missed the bra conversation. I literally only ever buy these bras these days. Underwired, but so comfortable. I am a 34D so not a lot to minimise, but I love them.

It’s my turn to have the meeting rage at work this week. I swear I’m being ganged up on and gaslit about things that are previously agreed and then I’m told that I’ve imagined it. Got asked to present a paper in a meeting that has been gathering dust for weeks, got no senior engagement on and then out of nowhere it was brought up and taken apart. It’s not even out of first draft stage yet, no wonder it doesn’t meet these expectations that you have but have never articulated. There was someone very senior in the meeting so I couldn’t just tell them they were being unreasonable. I just had to nod and say ‘oh that’s an interesting viewpoint’. I’m absolutely raging. I don’t know why it’s ok to do something like this. I don’t know what to say about it tomorrow. The meeting was right at the end of the day and went on until 6pm and I had to dash. How do I tell the project director that he was out of order?

@Polkadotdash what a shitty thing to do. Is the director otherwise reasonable, or an arse in general? If the former, would certainly have a talk.

@PenelopePitstopPersists I mostly live in built in bra tops nowadays. But yes for work, prefer normal bras with some lift. Am trialling a half-cup today, let's see how that works.

Sorry you had that experience @Polkadotdash. It’s so enraging isn’t it? Hopefully you feel better having slept on it.

I have bra issues too. I can’t seem to find a happy medium between too big and too tight. I have bought some bra extender thingies to see if they help.

I weighed in today as I was feeling a bit heavy after my holiday, but I’m still 8.0. This medication really is a wonder!

Thanks both. I slept terribly. I’m still raging. Project director is a total arse. I can say something but he won’t listen. I’m torn between getting it off my chest and knowing it will go against me and just completely disengaging with the project.

Oh @Polkadotdash this job is really doing a number on you. No wonder you’re raging. Karma can take too long sometimes.

Bra issues are the bane of my life. I’ve lived in homemade bralettes for years but now I’m wearing tighter clothes I recognise that a little more lift is required. I don’t have boobs so much as the bags they came in so finding the solution has been a journey. The best so far is a jelly bra from AliExpress which is full cup but I’ve taken the padding out as it was a bit too circular. The downside is that it hasn’t lasted through washing despite being in a special bra bag and low temperature so the hunt goes on. I loathe those foam cup T shirt bras with a passion, prefer wireless and must have unpadded so there isn’t much around. I do intend to make a custom fit bra at some point.

Weight still hovering at my happy place of 8st 8 and I now have to decide whether to taper down or carry on letting MJ do the work for me. I’m tempted to let the MJ do its thing tbh. I’m on a base dose of 5mg with the occasional bumped up dose of 6 ish and as I’ve no side effects or negative impacts I’m struggling to find the motivation to change it. I know that I should taper down to find the level that the anti inflammatory benefits remain but I just cba with it. I’m at ease with allowing medication to manage my weight for me.

@Jins love the line ‘no boobs left, only the bags they came in’ 😆.

Today has been a shitfest at work. Tried to talk to my line manager to tell her what was going on and she rounded on me saying that it’s my fault for not diary stalking the project director, second guessing his every thought and always being willing to fix a problem. I put the phone down on her. I know it’s childish but I’m not prepared to listen to that shit like I’m 16 and just starting out at work. I’m so cross and over it all. This project absolutely sucks and the sooner it is completed the better.

The battle with the broken pen goes on. I tried to take my second dose from it today. The pressure in it is all wrong and it pinged out of my skin and went all over the floor. It wouldn’t stop dispensing even when I took my thumb off the plunger. Contacted lotus again. Still not interested. Still giving me AI responses, still telling me to contact Eli Lilly. So I contacted the pharmacy under whose licence they dispense. They told me it’s probably user error and there is nothing they can do. So I pushed them. At best he said. We could do you a favour and if you post it back to us we can attempt to fix it and post it back. What???? Or if I don’t want to do that I can buy another one. Or wait for up to 60 days for Eli to decide and then start again at 2.5mg.
When I pointed out that that wasn’t really doing me a favour he said ‘I’m terminating the call because of how you are speaking to me’. Ladies, I did not even raise my voice. Or swear. So I’m left with very little other option than to live with under dosing or over dosing with this pen (sounds safe and well regulated) or that this is the end of my MJ journey. Never in a thousand years did I think that a problem that is so easy to fix (send me a new pen and I will return the broken one) would be so immovable. I dread to think how anyone who has a reaction or an adverse effect on WLI would cope. There simply is not any help. Madness.

wow there is shit customer service and then that! They are the seller, they have to replace a defective item and not send their customer to chase after their supplier.

That’s shocking service. Can you use an insulin syringe so as to be certain of the dose?

Random weigh in shows I’m still on track which is great. Getting ready for a festival this month and feeling a bit braver with clothes choices. Plenty of shorts and skimpier tops than previously and may branch into some colours.

Broken capillaries by my nose and on my chin are my latest source of self criticism. Don’t want to use concealer so may try erborian red correct.

Hi everyone, been mia for a while, had my hysteroscopy, ablation and coil fitted this morning and in quite a bit of pain! Was in recovery for a loooong time as my pulse and heart rate really dropped. I teeter on the edge of normal but this was v low for me, anyway home now and glad it’s done! I have been absolutely shocking eating wise for the past week, and was told my consultant today that I didn’t need to have stopped mj!! Aah well, will try and jab tomorrow and not get weighed until next week, I reckon I’ve put about 6 pounds on!
I arrived home to flowers from the workplace I’m leaving which I thought was v nice!
I don’t have any non wired bra suggestions but may need to look at the same as mine dig in now too. Not too small just no fat there! I def need a new strapless one, had a panache one before which was good so need to add that to my shopping list!
I ordered a bikini but it went straight back, def need to work on the loose skin, better than it was but it’s still awful 🙈.
ive also ordered lots in the sales @MJalltheway, sadly most of it has gone back but while I was waiting for my op this am I ordered some more! I’ve bought some bandeau tops for my holiday to avoid strap marks!
sorry to hear about that shocking service @Polkadotdashjust unacceptable…
I’m wondering if I have dyspraxia, I’m the one constantly breaking things in our house !

great news on HMRC refund @Jins and hope you get your meds sorted out.

right am off to try to sleep this off. Have a good day all and stay cool!

@26inprogress ah you poor soul. Sending you all the good vibes to get on the road to recovery. Gynaecology procedures are just the worst. 🌺

Hope a good sleep helps @26inprogress

Sorting an ongoing prescription for my insomnia meds isn’t going to be straightforward and I’ll need to take a two week break with sleep recordings which I’ll do at some point but I have a few strips stockpiled against this scenario and will postpone that for now. I’ve used my time wisely on Google and ChatGPT as there aren’t many drugs that don’t have their roots in some sort of herbal concoction and this is one of them. So I’m on a dual orexin receptor antagonist and I’ve found an alternative which I’ve tested for the last 3 nights with huge success. Drum roll and round of applause for Holy Basil Extract. So good that I’ve been trying to find a lower dose capsule.

Made moussaka tonight. Not as good as being in Crete but the best substitute I could come up with

Little goal ticked off! Weight broadly the same but Renpho tells me that my body fat is now at 24.9% which just sneaks into fitness level. Lord only knows how that happened

Holy Basil Extract made me laugh out loud @Jins It sounds like something you would shout in Victorian times if someone ride their Penny Farthing over your toe 😆

The Lotus Pharmacy saga rolls on. I have reported them to the General Pharmaceutical Council for inadequate patient care. I don’t think they realise how little time I have to do this sort of shit and how much it’s annoying me when it’s really easy to fix. Seemingly profit is more important.

Been a week of broken things here as well - husband broke a back tooth (that’s going to be costly), dishwasher is blowing kitchen electrical circuits, broken MJ pen, and so annoyed that we have missed out on the Nationwide money back thing by only having our mortgage with them. Was banking on that £200 😭. Sometimes it feels like you’re playing Snakes and Ladders in real life.

oh must be saturn in retrograde or something, everything has been breaking here too! All kinds of appliances, furniture, also crown on my back tooth. Peculiar.

Oh @Polkadotdash what a nightmare you are having all round! <hugs>

I just leapt on to report a NSV you will all appreciate - had a doctors appt this morning about something that's been ongoing for about a year. Doc asks if I've had any weight loss, I say yes, but deliberate. She replies, why are you losing weight, there's hardly anything of you!! 😁 I did point out that I'm not losing any more but was 5 stone heavier at the start of last year.

right, back to work, will catch up properly later!

Hello all! Was meant to be working away this weekend but have come back home to deal with DS2 who’s having some issues. Poor thing is just so miserable and lonely. He’s hanging with some out of school friends today but absolutely hating school at the moment. Only two more weeks of this term to go, but I don’t want it to end so badly that he dreads the September start.
We’ve spent so much of our time dealing with DS1 and all his issues related to his autism, that all of DS2’s issues feel so new. And with the threat of social media just to magnify everything, I just don’t feel like I can leave ‘low self esteem’ to sort itself out. I think back to what I had to deal with at his age - warring parents with the occasional bout of domestic violence, feelings of exclusion from friendship groups, shame from too much body & facial hair, fancying boys that didn’t fancy me back, but also occasionally they did and then I would suddenly not fancy them! But social media, pornography, AI, online gaming…there’s a whole other dimension to being a teenager nowadays. It’s mind boggling.

I’m still hovering around 60kg. I think it’s the creatine. And now back down to 2ish mg I sometimes wake up with stiff hands. But 2.5mg is too much weightloss on my face. Such a balance this maintenance lark.

sorry to hear about DS's troubles @DGmaintaining
Yes teenage problems are different nowadays. I am also worried that I simply don't even know what to worry about. All the internet stuff..
I keep on eye on their whatsapps and so far it has been all very innocent. But stories I have heard from friends from similar age kids are horrifying.

On happier NSV news, my saggy arse has improved a lot. Last summer it was so saggy I had to buy some swim shorts to feel comfortable, but this year it looks very decent. Win!

You’re right, they have so much to deal with. I kind of miss the toddler years when we could help more with their problems